Present day

BPOV

There are few times in your life when you feel inexplicable anger, so much so that the nearest thing to your good arm better watch out. Right now, I was shaking; these shakes were so minute that I was practically vibrating on the spot.

" Get the FUCK away from me Cullen.." my voice sounded hollow, even to myself.

"Bella! Im sorry, would you just listen for a moment please! Trust me!" his face was beautiful, even when twisted in pain. "Trust! Im suppose to trust you? DON'T BULLSHIT ME!" now I was yelling, it was full blown, cataclysmic, unadulterated rage.

Edward Cullen was my best friend, take note of the emphasis on 'was'.

Flashback

10 YEARS AGO

BPOV

Why is life so hard? I mean, if you see something so beautiful your heart melts, isn't it the universal law that you're supposed to have it? Too bad it already belonged to Tanya Denali.

"Hey Bella! Come play with us in the sandbox!" Mr. Beautiful called me over to his favourite hangout, his smile large and warm as the sun. Even though I'm seven, I know that this is what grownups called love. "Coming Eddy!" I ran towards him as fast as my tiny feet could carry me and plopped myself down into the sand beside him. Within an instant Tanya was behind Eddy giving me the meanest look possible. "Edward honey! Why is bella in our spot!"

Edward and Tanya had been going out since today morning. He had offered her his M n M's and she had let him be her boyfriend. What I didn't get was that he had given me his chocolate cupcake, and I think chocolate cupcakes are tons more yummy that silly old MnM's. I think Eddy likes me better, chocolate cupcakes are his favourite, he told me so.

"But Bella sits here every day, she's my best friend! We always sit together during play time!" Tanya eyes shrunk into two tiny little slits, "Girlfriends are tons more important that best friends! That's the rule! So make Bella leave or you won't be my boyfriend anymore!" she threatened.

That was the first time he ever asked me to leave.

5 years later

BPOV

Bad. I had it bad for this boy. Heart wrenching, gut busting, punch in your face kinda bad. I sighed slowly as Edward walked towards me, a smile on his face. Stupid face! Why'd you have to look so good!

"Yo Bella, where's Mr. Gardiner?" he said as he took his seat beside mine. It was Bio, my most favourite class of the day, all thanks to Mr. - Bella's best friend. "Dunno, hope he hasn't drunk another vial of rat pee like the last time." The dude had a weird habit of using test tubes to drink, which proved a bad idea when he picked up a test tube of rat pee instead of the one with apple juice.

Edward smiled a slow smile, his eyes shining with mirth. I have it so bloody bad. Kill me now, no wait, he's doing that already. I smirked back at him and winked. Oh shit, I winked?! Edward's eyes glazed over a bit and he abruptly turned to look in the front, elbows on the table, knuckles pressed at his cheeks, Mr. Gardiner had just walked in. I was blushing so hard I was afraid the blood from my cheeks would start flowing out my nose, why oh why did I wink at him! He is my best friend, why is he acting so weird about it?!

"Students! Turn to page 323 …." I zoned out after that, I have trouble concentrating in class, with Edward as a partner anyone would, not that I'm complaining. "Miss Swan! Could you pay attention to me instead of staring at Mr. Cullen there! I don't see how that's doing you any good!" The entire class turned towards us and burst into laughter. I was so embarrassed I wanted to cry, instead, blushing furiously and avoiding Edwards eyes I glued my eyes to my book and muttered a 'yes…sir'. Using my hair as a barrier between us I managed to avoid looking at him. Edward was probably embarrassed beyond contemplation because he didn't say a word to me for the rest of the class.

As soon as the bell rang I gathered my belongings and rushed out the door, call me a coward but I really am not up to confrontations.