Letters
Dear Preston,
You might wonder why I'm calling you 'Preston' and frankly, I don't know.
Maby it's because you'll never read this? I know you wont. because first of
all, I don't know your adresse.. And second of all, if I did, I would never,
ever post it. I don't know why, I'm just like that.
As you see, there's a lot of things I don't know right now. It's wierd, because
I've always been the one with the answers.. But now I have none. Like why
you left.. you told me why, but I don't see that as a proper reason. because
I was ready, and you were wrong. I was ready!
I miss you. that's one thing I would never say to you. but still, I'm writing it
down. I think it's kind of like therapi for me.. I had a lot of that, right after my
father died. but you knew that didn't you? you were the only one who knew.
yet, another man has dissapeared from my life. and I'm stuck with the same
stupit feeling. and that's your fault. you have to live with that..
Everything at Seattle Grace back to the same old. Except we got interns now.
I hate mine. I called them numbers. 1, 2, 3 and 4.. You would've laughed
at me, and told me that they were human beeing, and that I should learn
their names. But I don't bother. I think they hate me, but it's a two ways street.
I hate them to. I've got Meredith's halfsister, Lexie. It's kinda complicated,
but I think Meredith likes that she's with me. Because she knows I'll torture
them.
Meredith and I went on our honeymoon.. We went to Hawaii, and I snorcled.
it was.. well, it was okay. I just had to get away, because I still thought you
were in Seattle. But you weren't. By the way, the whole 'having McDreamy
tell me that you left' thing? not a good idea. it was stupit! you could've at least
called and told me yourself. You're not acting like you used to. you're not
nobel or anything, you're a chicken. I thought you'd do better, I thought you'd
at least would've ended it in a more settling way. not just, you know, running
away.
Alex went to see Ava/Rebecca/Jane Doe in his vacation. well, he said he
just went in that direction, but I know that he didn't.. He told me he missed
her. And I told him that I missed you. Then he gave me money. umm, that's
kind of a joke. my point is that I miss you. and I'm waiting for you to walk in
that door and apoligize. I'm still waiting.
I think I'll end this letter now. It's getting late, and I just wanted to update you
on the first day for me as a resident.. Tomorrow I'm selling our weddinggifts,
so if you want anything, you know where to come..
I love you.
Cristina.
