Blessings
by: zulka
He doesn't count them, though he thinks that maybe he should. There haven't been many good things in his life or maybe he forgot to count them in the beginning and now he can't recall them. But he's sure there weren't any, except perhaps for Suzaku and now, though he doesn't admit it, there are friends.
And then, there is Kinomiya. Everything he hates and wants embodied in a boy that loves him as love should probably be. He's not too sure. Kinomiya tries, he knows. Kinomiya tries to love him without asking or wanting too much. But it's so damn difficult. He's always been so difficult, to read, to want, to love, to anything.
Kinomiya is a constant, constant hope, constant love, constant understanding and constant faith and trust. It makes him sick sometimes. He'll never be enough. Yet, Kinomiya still loves, still cares.
Love. It can't be that simple.
He knows the push and the pull and the crash that will come after. But he can always find himself smiling. He tries not to think too much on it. He's done so many things, things others will and have judged him for, things he doesn't regret. Though Kinomiya's eyes have often shone with hurt and why, in the end he never asks him why. He simply reaches out and welcomes him back.
There is always something that pulls him back up. His own strength and perhaps it is also Kinomiya's knowledge and trust that he will always pull through no matter what. He's not too sure.
Though he pushes and pulls and crashes, in the end he knows he's going to fall again into Takao's all encompassing love and he will pick him up and help him stand but he will always let go and let him walk on his own, no matter how hard he might want to hold his hand in comfort.
He knows he should be thankful and he is and perhaps he really should count them, now that he has the time.
Notes: I have always been a sucker for TakaoxKai, friendship, relationship, you name it, I'm down. Lol. But I had never written my own, until now. Not where I was going but it turned out somewhat decent, i think. :/ Hope you enjoyed.
