Jacob's Point Of View. The hallways were crowded just like any other day. The air seemed thick as I budged my way passed these fellow students of mine. I'm just glad they've stopped starring, I couldn't exactly blame them for noticing, or staring. When you grow about double your height people are bound to stare. Some of the teachers still think I'm a senior, and I can't exactly complain.
Life was good. Sort of. Bella seemed to be my mind like crazy. Addiction? Obsession? I call it love. Randomly she'll pop in my head. I'll smile.When shes around. I grin. Yeah I noticed. Is it a weird that I study myself when I'm around her? Well yeah it is. Sue me.I had a craving for her voice. When she called me, I'd smile then too.
Shes the reason for smiling in my world atleast. She accepts me for who I am. A big ugly furry wolf.She loved my form though. It felt nice when her soft hands pet through my fur. Bella...why is it that you won't leave my mind for atleast five minutes? I'd be grateful. Yet sad.I like you inside me head. Except the reality of you is no comparison from my imagination.
I guess its funny how I'm inlove with a girl I hate. She enjoys teasing me about every fault of myself. Yet I wouldn't trade her in a second. Bella! When ever your in my mind I lose track of time. Lost in my own mind with you. Lost in time.Get out...Mmmkay?
"Yo Black!" My last name was called. Turning around to see Quil. His expression, smirking. I grinned back at him. He wasn't smiling though.
It was a big smug emotion. I stepped forward to him. The halls were empty now. Oh my god! Jacob Black? Skipping?! Yeah don't have a heart attack its only geography. Its healthy to skip classes every now and then, or you just might get over stressed and lose your mind...Or you can be lazy and be possibly failing a credit like me. Quil has english third period. Enough said for this guy. My hands loosely spread in my jean pockets.
"Sup Quil" I replied.
"Guess who is here" He held his grin. My mind was blank. Alot of students, a few annoying teachers , Grumpy Janitors, and a rude secretary.
"Who?" No bother on guessing. I'd be wrong if I tried.
"Guess!" He commanded me.
"Just tell me stupid, You know I'll be wrong" I shoved him lightly. My push left him coming back towards me laughing.
"Jeez, Jake. Can't even have a little fun?" He complained in a chuckle. I flipped my bangs swiftly.
"Nope. Now who is here that is so important?" Thrusting my hands back in the pockets. He inhaled quickly. Still holding the smug look.
"Your girlfriend the vampire lover" He laughed. My eyes widened. Bella is here? I felt myself face try to pull itself together.
"Bella? Bella is here?" I muttered to my bottom lip. He nodded with that big goofy smile.
"Shes in the parking lot"
"With the bloodsucker?"
"Nope...All alone waiting for her wolf boy" Quil winked at me as he teased. I squirmed from his action.
"Don't ever wink at a guy" I told him with another hard push this time. Creeped out.
"Hurry Jacob! Bella is naked ontop of your car! Waiting for you to take advantage of her while the leech isn't around" He yelled walking down the hall.
"You sick bastard" I shouted back at him. He waved and vanished from the hall.
I saw Bella leaning against her disgusting - not to mention slow - truck. Her arms were crossed. Probably annoyed from waitin. I took my hands out my pockets and let them sway with my body.
"Bella!" I yelled to her. She looked up. Reconizing my voice. Turning to the direction. I waved at her as she caught my eye contact. My steps quickened.
"Hey Bella, This is a nice surprise" I told her as my head tilted down to look at her.
"Hi Jake! So this is your school huh?" Her eyes wandered looking at the hell hole also know as 'high school'.
"Not exactly...See It says La Push Public High School...Not Jacob Black High" Bella's hand pushed me. No use I didn't he move.
"Shut up you!" She laughed. I brought her in my arms and gave her one of my big bear hugs. Smothering her in my chest. I felt her rub my back. I blushed. Actual contact recieved back. I must of did something right.
"So what are you doing here, baby?" She cocked an eyebrow in disapproval of the nickname.
"Baby?" She murmured in disappointment.
"What? It suits you." My excuse wasn't very convincing to the girl of my dreams.
"Liar..." She muttered to her chest. Which was revealing from her light blue sweater. I can see clevage from this angle. Thank you werewolve genetics for making me tall.
"Anyways are you going to answer me or must I torture you for disobeying?"She looked back up and smiled.
"Well...We gets a few days off this week and Edward went to hunt so I came to visit!" She exclaimed.
"Ah so the bloodsucker is gone for a few days eh?" My voice sounded pleased. Her smile faded into a scowl.
"Please don't call him that" She begged. Those brown eyes stole by breath. I stiffened and shot back a frown.
"How about leech?" I compremised. No sucess. She held a glare to me.
"He doesn't suck blood from humans...give him some credit" She sighed. I won the glaring contest.
"Sure, sure..." My eyes narrowed. She was hurt. I could tell my her posisition. I bent down to be the same height as her.
"Forgive me?" I grasped her chin to hold my intent gaze. Bella's frown still was on that beautiful face of hers. Sighing she finally replied.
"Fine...Where do you want to go?" Her voice was easy to detect, Excitement.
"I'm kind of in school..." My eyes jerked to the building.
"Not really...Your skipping like always" Her grin won me over.
"True but...I rather show you off to my fellow classmates"
"Since when do they have show and tell for sophmores?" I shot her one my best appealing looks.
"Since everyone thinks we're dating" I heard her teeth clench.
"Well did you tell them I wasn't..." From the tone of voice, It sounded like she already knew my answer. My smile was guilty.
"Jake!" She groaned and crossed her arms.
"C'mon! Just hang out for lunch!" I grabbed her hand and unraveled her weaved arms. With one tug they came undone. Like a ribbon. Her expression...defeated.
"Yes!" I yelled in victory. She said nothing but covered her face with her free hand.
We held hands as we walked into the school. People's eyes quickly glued to the action.I watched Bella's expression. She was blushing like mad. I loved every moment of her embarassed expression.
"Bells, You okay?" I smiled. She gave me a look of evil. I chuckled. Yes I liked to force her into this. Everyone is probably wondnering who is she? Is she Jacob Black's girlfriend? Good I liked them wondering. The very mysterious Jacob Black. Skipping class. Holding hands with seniors. What will he do next! To tell you the truth I have no idea. I love Bella more then anything. Shes all I ever think about. Like a faucet in the back of my head dripping droplets. Drip Drip Drip Bella Bella Bella. She totally crazy for that stupid bloodsucker. How can she even kiss such a monster. I guess I'm one to talk considering I'm just as much monster as he is. Just thinking about there lips meeting and closing the gap between them...It makes me shudder in disgust. Bella sure attracts weird people. Vampires,Werewolves...Maybe more fictional creatures. Maybe witches, mermaids...Aha I imagined her with seashell bra for a mid second. Excuse me for being a teenage boy with hormones rushing through my body like crazy. Can you blame me? I'm holding hands with the most goregous girl I've ever seen. Damn that Edward Cullen. Your the luckiest man in the world to have someone so sweet like Bella in your posistion.
"Where is this so called cafetria? Or are you just dragging me around the halls to show me off..." She moaned in anger.
"Shh! Not so loud! They'll find out" I gave him a sharp wink.
"Do you have an eye spasim? Don't you wink at me you moronic dog!" She didn't mean it. I rolled my eyes with a laugh. Bella is like this when I take advantage of situations. Bella thinks of us as just friends. I can't stop my feelings so I'll do what I want.
"Cafetria is at the end of the hall, sweetie" "You have the nerve to say that right now..." She muttered.
We sat with Embry and Quil. I shared my lunch with Bella. She didn't mind the cold lasguna. The eyes of strangers were burning my back. After awhile Bella got use to the scenery.
"Say ahhh" I commanded holding up my fork, ready to feed her.
"I'm not a child Jake!" She scolded as she took a chomp off my plastic fork.
"You still ate it"I smiled.
"So? A free meal is still a meal" She explained. I noticed the sauce on the top of her lip. I clenched my napkin. Grabbing the back of her neck and pulled her towards me.
"You got something" I told her. She allowed me but with a scowl. I wiped off the sauce.
"All good" I chuckled.
"Thanks"
"You guys make me SICK!" Embry crossed his arms.
"They're a couple just deal with it Embry" Quil pushed him.
"Shaddap both you!" Bella yelled. They laughed all together. Even Bella. I wish on every star that what Quil thought was true. What can a guy do when hes only the 'best friend'.
"So now what?" She streched. I realized my bowl was empty.
"Wanna' walk around?" Her lids lowered to a disapproving look. Meaning no hallways.
"No I meant outside"
"Yeah give your dog a walk" Quil laughed.
"Hes leashed is all I'm admitting." Embry piped in gleefully.
"Quiet you!" I glared.
"Outside? Mmkay" She arose from the table. Strangers watched her still. Every freaking move. Its rather annoying. I can see why Bella is annoyed easily.
"Ahhh fresh air..." Bella sighed as she was refreshed.
"No offense Jake, but your school's air is thick as hell" She complained.
"I know, its annoying" I couldn't help but agree.
"You like my school?" I created conversation out of boredom.
"Its okay...People kept staring at me"
"Maybe you haven't realized Bella, But your hot" Bella's face turned to a delicate pink.
"No...Probably wondering what I was doign on public property"
"No I'm pretty sure its because your hot" I laughed.
"No"
"Yes"
"No!"
"Yes!"
"Noo!"
"In the end you do realize I'm going to win?"
"So i'm not giving up without a fight"
"Typical" I chuckled holding my stomach.
"Maybe they're staring at you because you turned into a stud" I felt my face flush. She thinks I'm a stud. Oh yeah one for the werewolves.
"Besides me and my studlieness" She smiled at my reply.
"Your great looking Bella, Get it through your thick skull. Damn vampire came first" Her laughing expression changed quickly.Her hands clenched together. Fiddling with her thumbs. Eyes focused down to the cement.
"Did I say something I'm not suppose to say?" I urged. Bella's eyes were flat and icy.
"Jake...You know I love Edward...I only see you as a friend"
"I know"
"Ya, thats the problem! You already know and you still play with my emotions!" Bella's face swung to me with too many emotions. I sighed. Clenching her shoulders. The moisture in her eyes made me gulp.
"Bella," No nicknames. Serious.
"I can't change my feelings, Thats impossible for someone like me" Bella's head tilted back trying to hold in those tears.
"I know...but its hard for me"
"Bells, Take me or leave. You love Edward...Yeah I get it but The way I feel can't be changed. So you can have me with my feelings or you can leave me" I watched her eyes droop.
"I don't want to leave you"She mumbled silently. I hid a smile.
"Your my best friend, Jake" Just best friend, its better then nothing. Maybe it can be changed.
"Then I'll stay" My grin was dog like. Bella laughed. Our gaze towards each other last longer then expected. I saw her blush and turn the other way. My grin softened. Shes so damn cute.Another reason why I hate vampires. Damn leeches. What would I do just for one kiss upon those lips. Lost in my mind again. My wrist lifted automatically and my eyes stared down. My eyes widened.
"Shit. I'm late" I murmured looking to the clear skys.
"For class? What do you have?"
"English"
Her smile brightened.
"You like english?"I asked her.
"Mmmhm" She nodded with her response.
"Yeah I like it too and now I'm late because of you!" The back of my hand fell to my forehead in mock tragedy.Her laughter was adorable. Its probably burned into my memory.
"I'll meet you at the beach at 2:30"
"Okay...Sorry that I came to your school"
"Its no problem I liked it!"Honestly, I loved it.
"Of course you liked it" She mumbled as a sly look. A crooked smile spread across my face. "See ya, Bells" I waved as I walked into the building.
My mind couldn't focus on the subject. The faucet in the back on my head wasn't even dripping anymore, Oh no, not even. It was pouring. BellaBellaBellaBellaBellaBella.I should train myself not to like her. But shes so...different. She only thinks of us as friends...We sure don't act like best friends. We have this chemistry. She does love me. Its just shes so blind considering shes around Cullen every second of the day. Atleast hes gone for a while. I can spend more time with her. The love word in an understatement. If only there was a word people didn't use as often to describe her. My gaze twisted the cheap window. Sunshine caused me pain for a moment. My eyes got use to it. I'm glad it was sunny. Its like a metaphor of how the day will go. School ended ten minutes ago and I found myself in the rabbit (Type of car) heading towards the beach. As my destination came to sight. Bella was sitting on the old bench beside all the large boulders. I parked, took my keys out. Quietly prowled. Trying to scare her. My feet sunk into the gentle sand and tip toed behind her.My hands were about to wrap around her then suddenly.
"Hey Jake" She spoke with no hesistation. My head fell in disappointment.
"How did you know it was me?"
"A girl knows these things" She stood up. I walked around the bench.
"So, Why are we at the beach?" She asked curiously.
"Don't know, Its a nice place...I bet Edward can't take you to the beach on this glorious sunny day" Bella's teeth clenched.
"Seriously Jake...Thats getting real old"
"What is?" Bella gave me a stern look.I inhaled slowly.
"I don't like that leech so...Get use to it" I commanded. She scoffed. My approach was suppose to be fearful. She took it as a joke.
"Whatever Jake" She stared to the ocean. The wind swiftly played with the brunette locks of hers. My gaze made my knees feel weak.
"Bella" I mumbled her name.
"What?" She replied, irritated.
"I don't know what to say" I laughed in the whisper.
"Then don't say anything" she demanded.
"Mmmkay" I smiled. She turned to watch me.
"I won't say anything because I'll be a little busy"She tilted her head in confusion. So damn cute.
"Why?" She held the word for a long moment. I wrapped my arms around her.
"Because" I heard her gasp.My grasp tightened. Her hands pushed my chest. No movement.
"I can't talk when I'm using my lips for something else..." I heard her swallow.
"Jake! Don't you dare!" I grinned.
"If you do! Your risking your own safety!" Her eyes closed.
"Dracula is going to hunt me down?" I snickered. She growled.
"I'll be really really mad!"She screeched.
"Edward isn't here...your allowed to feel what you want to feel"
"I rather not feel you!" My smile was non-removeable.
"I rather feel you" I whispered to her ear. She shivered. With one hand I grabbed her head and pulled her to my lips. Her lips moved with mine. I felt her yank at the back of hair. No pain. She'd have to use a crowbar for me actually to feel something. I don't see any crowbars here. Using one hand to push me off. No use. Bella...Why can't you see that were made for each other?
"Let yourself feel what you want to feel" I whispered between the departs of our lip locking. Her eyes were closed in frustration. Was she uncertain? Or was she trying her best to resist. I slipped my tounge into her mouth. I was now leading. I used my stregenth for her to allow me in. Massaging hers. She started to move hers too. Once I was certain she wouldn't run away my grip suddenly loosened. Her yanking softened to light pulls. Her eyelid's didn't detect anger. It seemed like she was actually giving back emotion into this. Passion. She then stepped away. I controlled myself to stay where I was. Tears came out of her eyes.
"No...No! No why did I ...No!" She ran towards the west end of the beach. I followed her. Slowly. I saw her tears fall to the sand as she sprinted.
"Bella!" I called.
"No! Jake don't follow me!" She screech in sorrow.Like I was actually going to let her run away crying. Thats not the kind of guy I am. Even though I sort of forced her into a makeout session. My steps quickened.I was infront of her now. She stopped. Dead in her tracks. Her fist lightly fell to my chest.
"No...Why...No I didn't mean too...Edward" She sobbed on my chest.
"Bella, I'm sorry...I shouldn't of did that" I confessed.
"I liked it though..." She whispered. My eyebrow pulled in confusion.
"I shouldn't though...I'm dating Edward!"She screamed. I rubbed her back.
"Its okay Bella..." I told her. "Everything is going to be okay"
"No...I ruined everything! Nothing is going to be okay!"
"Bella I forced you"
"You did..." She said honestly.
"Now Edward...Hes going to be..." She sobbed unevenly.
"I don't give a damn about that Edward! If he does anything to you I'll kill him!" She gasped.
"Jake! Your such a jerk! I hate you!" She left my side and ran to the parking lot. Her words stabbed me. I stood frozen and watched her drive away.I'm such an idiot.
