Hey guys…this is my first story so please be nice I try to make it as good as I can.
I'm going to dedicate this story to my best friend Ally, who gave me the idea for this story and has been there for me through the bad times.
Disclaimer: Characters belong to Stephanie Meyer. I don't own anything…sadly.
Chapter One
Bella POV
I dreamed of him again last night. It was the same dream. Some kids have nightmares of ghosts or monsters that live under their bed. But me? I dream of my love. You see; my boyfriend (well that's what I called him) left me. He's a vampire. I know what you're thinking, vampires aren't real what are you talking about? Well, in actual fact, they are real. They haunt the night and prey on the victims that are too weak to fight them. But the vampires I know, they don't hunt us humans. They only hunt animals. You see, there are good and bad vampires. I consider my vampires (yes I still call them mine) good, because they don't hurt humans, well except for me but I'll get to that later. The bad vampires, well most of them only hunt humans for food but the really evil ones? Well they make it into a game. I became a part of one of those games. That was when Edward Cullen, the vampire who stole my heart, made me a promise that he said he would never break.
Now it's to the present where I am sitting in my room, practically a zombie. Edward told me he didn't want me anymore. He broke the one promise that I wish he hadn't. He left me. I started getting angry and upset just thinking about it. He left me in the woods, all by myself. It's true that he did leave me on the trail and, me being me, decided to follow him deeper into the forest. I tripped and fell and got found later on. My dad told me that I was missing for around four hours. He only told me that because I asked him, other than that conversation we haven't spoken much. I think he is afraid that he would say something that would send me into a depression again. In the first two weeks after Edward left me, I didn't eat, I didn't sleep, practically nothing. But Charlie got me out of that fast when he told me that he was sending me back to Renee. I threw a fit. I didn't want to go somewhere where there were no memories of him. I know that it sounds weak but I knew that if I went somewhere sunny, then it would feel like he didn't exist. Which I guess is what he wanted me to think but, really, who would forget the infamous Edward Cullen and the rest of the Cullen family?
The only good thing that came out of this was Jake. He is an old family friend that I once considered more. He lives on the Quileute reservation in La Push and after a couple of months of me being a zombie; we became fast friends. He is my own personal sun. Today was Monday, which meant that I had to go to school. Forks High has to be the smallest school in the world. I think there are only about 300 students that attend there. After the Cullen's left, I isolated myself. I could feel the stares everywhere I went. I didn't need pity, but apparently that's what I get. The teacher's don't call on me anymore for an answer. I think they just gave up when they knew I wasn't listening to anything they said. My friends tried to support me but I just shut them out, along with everything else in the world. Angela still sat with me on the occasional lunch times but we didn't talk, I appreciated her effort though. I now knew who my true friends were. Jessica just wanted gossip on my love life, or lack there of and Mike just wanted to hang around because he wanted to take me on a date. It was finally the end of the school day when my phone rang.
"Hello?" I said when I picked up the phone.
"Hey Bells, come down to La Push. I feel like I haven't seen you in ages." Jacob said.
"Hey Jake, ok. I'll come down but I can't stay for long. I still need to cook for Charlie you know?" I answered. Jacob was the sole person in this small town who could bring a smile to my face. I turned my truck around and headed the 15 miles to La Push.
"I'll be there in a few ok?" I asked.
"Yes Bells, that's perfect. See you soon." He said as he hung up the phone. I pulled up to the Black house and saw Jacob standing out the front with an umbrella. He came to the truck, opened my door and pulled me into a bone-crushing hug.
"Can't…breathe…Jake." I gasped.
"Oops, sorry Bella. I'm just so happy that you're here! I feel like I haven't seen you in ages!" Jake said with a big smile on his face.
"It's ok. I'm sorry that I haven't been down lately. You know school and work can make someone pretty busy. It's not like you know anything about that." I teased.
"Yeah, well, it's not my fault I'm not as old as you." He teased back. That little comment did it. It reminded me of the thing that I tried to escape from on a daily basis. My age was always a factor in my relationship with Edward. Especially since he never aged and I would keep on getting older. It was one of the reasons I wanted to turn into a vampire. Jake noticed that I had gone quiet after that statement and immediately tried to make things better.
"Do you want to go for a walk on the beach?" he asked. I just nodded me head. I couldn't find any words at the moment.
As we walked along the beach, we talked about mindless things. He told me about his friends Quil and Embry and how Embry was starting to hang out with Sam, the leader of the La Push gang. When he told me about this I started laughing.
"You have a gang?" I asked, trying to hold in my laughter. At the back of my mind I realised that this is the first time that I have laughed in months.
"Not the type that you are thinking. Sam and his 'followers' don't do anything like that. Some of the kids at school told me that they call themselves 'the protectors'. They're like badass hall monitors." Jake said, looking down at his shoes. Even though he looked sad, I saw a bit of amusement in his eyes.
"So what does that have to do with Embry?" I asked, curious.
"Embry was away from school for about two weeks and when he came back, he wouldn't talk to me or Quil or even look at us. He started following Sam around and doing all this stuff with them that we had laughed about before." Jake replied, still looking at his shoes. I had never seen him look this vulnerable before. Jacob was always my sun, he was always the person that would comfort me with just his smile, but now he needed me to comfort him. We sat down on what we called 'our log' and I hugged him. It was all that I could do at the moment because I had no words to comfort him with.
We sat like that for a couple of hours. I had my arms around him and he had his head on my shoulder. I kissed the top of his head, and that's where it all started. The innocent kiss started everything. When I kissed his head, he sat up and looked me in the eyes. When I looked into his eyes I saw everything that I needed to. I saw comfort, understanding and, most importantly, love. We slowly leant forward. When our lips touched, I closed my eyes and just felt. I realised that it was something I needed. I needed a comforting embrace. I needed someone to tell me that I was beautiful and most importantly I needed someone to love me. Jacob told me that all in one kiss. I put my hands into his hair and he put his hands on my hips. When we needed to breathe, we stopped and touched our foreheads together.
"Wow," I said, breathlessly.
"Yeah," He said, equally breathless. We didn't stray from each other's eyes so we didn't realise that it had gotten so dark. When we looked away from each other we saw that it had gotten dark and started heading back to my truck.
"Will you come back tomorrow?" Jake asked when we got to the truck. We had been walking silently, hand-in-hand so when he spoke I jumped.
"I'm sorry, I can't. I have to work. But I will come back on Wednesday." I promised him.
"I'll see you then. Goodnight." Jake said, giving me a quick kiss on the cheek.
"Goodnight Jake." I said.
When I was on the road, it finally dawned on me that I had kissed Jake. I started thinking about him and the kiss. It was the best kiss that I've had in a while. Well, he's really the only human being that I have kissed but that doesn't mean anything. Jacob is really sweet, and he loves me. That much I know. He had told me before that he loves me, but I just thought that it was a brother/sister sort of thing, but obviously he doesn't think of me that way. I realised at that moment that I couldn't feel the hole in my chest when I'm with Jake. It doesn't necessarily go away but it is in the back of my mind. I made the choice, there and then, that I would give Jake a chance. He deserved that much.
