Disclaimer:::: I do not own Final Fantasy 7 characters or any other game items, places etc… I also do not own the Album 'Roentgen' by HYDE, nor do I own the song 'Evergreen' by HYDE.

Warnings:::: This is a Yaoi story… be warned male x male relationships. Abuse. Blood. Hurt/comfort etc… you are warned.. not kid or work friendly. MATURE CONTENT!

A/N 1:::: This short story series will be 4 parts long (or longer should I decide to continue it)and more specifically this first chapter… It is inspired by the song evergreen the first of the Roentgen Stories that are released as four different music videos designed to be viewed together like a story by HYDE. I love HYDE.. and other Japanese artists… and I love this series of songs. I hope that no one minds that I decided to do a ff7 AU almost medieval style angst/hurt/abuse/s&m/comfort fic!

"ROENTGEN STORY"

Chapter one

'Evergreen'

There was hardly a sound as his boot covered feet touched the ground with each step. There air was dense, fog settling in all of the lower lying places. A slight chill to the soul would be felt, though the temperature wasn't the cause. The moon's covered and dim lighting barely provided enough of a path to walk by. It was a night such as this that he had acquired his 'Flower'. No one took him seriously. He was only 'The Man's' Uke… nothing of his own, belonging to him or giving his life any lasting meaning. Well, that all changed.

He figured he'd been out for fresh air and a walk, long enough. His treasured dear one would be waking any moment now…

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Cloud awakened long before he opened his eyes. Like so many mornings… or whatever time it was that he'd awoken, He felt such pain and aching all over his body. He felt that maybe… just maybe, if he kept his eyes shut he could will away the pain, distract from his destiny yet a little longer for this day.

He moved and rolled his tongue around in his mouth a little bit to try to moisten the arid desert-like feel to it. How many days had it been this time, since he'd had a decent amount of water or nourishment. Only being able to take in enough to survive wouldn't do for much longer. Eventually a body would rebel and give up even with that tiny amount to try to nurse along life.

'Broken'? Hardly, Cloud was far from broken. He squeezed his eyes shut a bit tighter. No he didn't want to wake up, he didn't want to allow one more scant step to bring him closer to 'broken'. He didn't want to allow the nightmare to continue in his waking hours either. Yes, if he kept his eyes closed, he could will away the nightmare and image he was home.

He wouldn't stretch yet, or breathe deeply, nothing to give away his alertness, though; 'He' usually had an acute sense knowing exactly when Cloud was awake. Yeah, it wouldn't be long. Cloud never escaped for long, even in his imaginings. He was kept too aware of the truth, and even his dreams and sleep state offered no refuge.

Did he hate 'Him'? No… Did he detest 'Him'? Sometimes… Did he fear 'Him'? … Cloud didn't want to … No… Cloud found it hard to feel anything negative at all, in fact he was blessed with indifference with regard to emotion. Cloud only hated himself, his pain, his body, his own soul's betrayal of the situation.

"Well… awake to see the day my 'Flower'… come see life with me for yet another accursed period. Your beauty will lend to my life…" 'He' Spoke. His words flowing like a soothing balm, as deceitful as ever to Clouds heart. Ohh how he yearned and ached for those words every day, or something of the like. His insides smiled and ached to be near 'Him'. But Reality and sense stayed just for a moment at the forethoughts of his mind. Cloud knew he needed to dig in longer, hold back, fight… not give up. This was WRONG…

"Hmm… still trying to fight gallantly my dear. But really, though the games we play are fun. It truly hurts my very core of being to keep doing this to you." 'His' Voice floated over Clouds shoulder, along with it his breath, causing Clouds insides to quicken in need, want, and maybe even in fear.

'His' Voice deepened, maybe even showing a tinge of sadness. "So be it, My dear… I gave you enough of a chance." The breathe that tingled over my still sleepy and sore form seemed to turn hotter as the whispered words of a spell mingled in the air. "Demi 2… you force me my 'flower'"…

Cloud felt what little strength he had falter greatly he felt the previous pains even more now. He tried to tense up his muscles, he knew what would come next. 'He' Would move Cloud next… and move onto the next part of their daily dance.

Cloud felt his body being lifted up completely and smoothly despite his tenseness and attempts to fight against the movement. He was lifted with a gentleness that opposed what was being accomplished. But he wouldn't look into those eyes. He couldn't look into them, Cloud felt that tightness return to his chest and dampness form at the corners of his eyes. He'd gone far past tears now… no more left in him, especially not tears of … what?

"I lie awake beside the windowsill

Like a flower in a vase

A moment caught in glass.. Mmm"

He brought me into the adjoining room to my suite. My body shivered, what from? I didn't know. He stood me up against the wall, my normal position. He allowed his fingers to play down my shoulders and arms his touch leaving fire in its wake. Bringing me to life causing my eyes to close slowly and lustfully, I knew what would happen next but I couldn't help myself.

"Ah, ah… Dear, is that going to help you… you want my touch, you crave my touch… you lust for me… I own you yet you balk. Why do you deny what is deep seeded in your own soul. You'd rather deny us both the freedom of flight into that wondrous world?" His words were slightly seasoned with bitterness. I knew he hated this, yet craved it. Needing a way to seize control of something… somehow. My heart went out to him even though I should have been worrying about myself in this moment.

His hands brought my own above my head. I didn't bother fighting him. I felt the metal bite in before I heard the clack of the lock on it. He'd lifted them higher and pulled them tighter on my wrists than usual. "My dear Flower… I ache doing this… and grow tired… please… accept what is necessary…" He said in a tired and bitter tone again. My arms were pulled so high that it would be difficult for my feet to find purchase on the ground to allow myself the freedom of at least a little movement. For the first time this morning I think I felt a slight chill of fear now.

He leaned close to my face again beside my ear without touching "Stop" He whispered the spell… and without a hesitation he showed his skill and strength and whispered again "Bio 2." Almost at the same time I felt my body seize up painfully and the burning and sickening sensation of the poison to wash over me. My strength being attacked was the least of my worries. My stomach quaked and if I could have moved I probably would have heaved. Instead the rancid and sick feeling stayed centered in my gut causing a whine to wisp out of my throat. I couldn't even scream or pull away.

My mind drifted far away for a moment. A home.. large and bright filled my mind's eye. The ocean could be heard in the background. The home was strong build up with a stone façade. The air even tasted sweet and salty….

"The rays of sunlight come and beckon me..

To a sleepy dreamy haze

A sense of summer days.. Aaa

If only I could stop the flow of time

Turn the clock to yesterday

Erasing all the pain.. Mmm"

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"So Gen… you gonna let my brother treat you like that?" I asked with a twinkle in my eye. I'd just watched my brother grasp Genesis by the hair and throw him against the front wall. He'd kissed him… thoroughly right after. But still. The cinnamon topped knight allowed My brother, his General and leader treat him like this and far worse… all of the time.

"My dear Cloud… you know not of the ways and breath of love do you?" He replied with a slight glimmer in his eye. "Your brother is a man I shall look up to, till the day I breathe my last. He shall not ever return the same affection however" He said as a sadness filled his features. "But so long as I can serve by his side I will do so… with the courage and strength and want of heart that I possess"

The days were long and warm. I would watch from my window. A young and innocent being, still. I'd watch as my brother would ride in and Genesis would walk up to him to tell him of the days' report, and when they figured no one was looking I would still watch on in the moonlight as My brother would kiss him, throw him to the ground or against the wall and slap him, hit him… then take him. I would be flushed and heated in watching the moment unfurl. Genesis never cried out loud. Maybe he stifled a cry now and then, I couldn't see everything that was done to him, but he nobly would take everything that Sephiroth would give him. And be left against whatever surface he'd been taken on… to be alone.

My brother would probably have me killed if he knew I saw these things happen. But their beauty together was haunting, honestly the two most beautiful men in the kingdom. But I also watched… as he cried. Genesis would cry at being left, when he thought no one could see. His tears glinted in the moonlight tarnishing his face. Sometimes the bruises or the blood would become clearer now that he stood or lay alone. He would curl to his side or sink to the ground holding his legs. I saw a weakness that no other person would ever see. Not even Sephiroth… his lover.

My love for the cinnamon knight grew with my age, and slowly I let him know through kind words, gentle touches on the shoulder. I spent more time with him here at the estate than my brother did. As Sephiroth was always gone… doing something for our kingdom or fighting somewhere to improve our name with other allied kingdoms.

But with time I watched as the beauty in Genesis faded… and faded… and dimmed yet more. He ached, but not physically… I ached for him. I wanted him to know how I felt. I couldn't watch as he was destroyed… no more!

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I was brought back to my senses with the crack of a whip. No… not that again, My body was still raw and tender from the last time. But there was nothing I could do against it. I still couldn't look into his eyes. I ached inside and out. Why.. Why cant I save myself.. why couldn't I save you… My thoughts tried so hard to escape to the past again as the lashes began with vengeance. Laying across my stomach, not my back this time. I still couldn't cry out, shift, anything. I could hardly breathe through the pain. Another lash that was deeper than the first wave of them cut in across my bare abdomen. Bringing blood to the surface this time.

I could barely close my eyes… I think it was only gravity that was on my side for that, I wouldn't be able to open them on my own though. The pain was trying to keep me alert and aware but my very soul was aching to retreat.

"I've only memories of happiness

Such pleasure we have shared

I'd do it all again

This scenery is evergreen

As buds turn into leaves

the colors live and breathe "

My mind reeled for a moment, I thought of a time, the first time I felt the bite of the whip. My brother had returned from the front of a war with one of the neighboring Kingdoms to be abnormally aggressive to Genesis.. far worse than he normally was. I walked out into the darkened courtyard to find him beating him, kicking him so that his flesh was bruised all over and then lifting his whip to begin lashing him. I threw myself in front of it to block the blows… and instead received them myself. He had told me I was old enough to interfere so I was old enough to receive what I sought.

Instead of focusing on the first painful memory I tried to think of something simpler and happier; my days of training with Genesis as he taught me to be able to join the knights in my brother's service. Despite my brother's anger… he was a wonderful and beautiful leader NEVER betraying our Kingdom… our family… or our people.

I could smell the salty air as we would train by the cliffs on the sea side. I could feel the light weight first sword that he trained me to use. I could see the beautiful Ruby like glint of his own. Maybe he hadn't faded in beauty and spirit as much as I thought. Or dare I have thought that perhaps I revitalized a little of his beauty. Ohh how little I knew…

The whip met painfully across my chest biting into one of my nipples, the whine gurgled out of my throat and my breathing seized for a moment. What happened… what made it all go wrong… The shock to my system caused me to finally black out… thank Gaia…

"This scenery is evergreen

Your tears are falling silently

So full of joy you are a child of spring

With a beauty that is pure

An innocence endures.. Aaa

You flow right through me

like a medicine

Bringing quiet to my soul

Without you I'm not whole"

Blood covered the floor in splatters, and it stained in splashes across his chest and his pants. He'd taken his shirt off before gathering Cloud up into his arms. He wanted to feel his skin. He wanted and ached to touch him taste him feel him… But his journey and all their losses couldn't be in vain. He needed to conquer this flower… needed him by his side. And he needed to face it. He loved the games they'd played in the beginning. But now… months later he ached for the boy… He wanted so badly to get him to snap out of this struggle. To break… so that he could be there to hold him while he pieced back together.

He bit back the urge to scream. There was more at stake than his own personal conquering. If only Cloud understood that there was far more out there that mattered. But… also his time would be narrowing down now.

He grinned and spoke aloud. "Big brother will be coming for you soon… you best awaken my dear… and maybe…" His voice lowered to a whisper as he reached up to stroke clouds cheek. "Maybe you can love me now…" He released the spells and cured the boy enough to make due, he took care of the poisoned status and hoped that Cloud's stomach would feel good enough to hold some food when he awoke.

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"This scenery is evergreen

I need you far too much

I long to feel your touch"

For once my sleep provided me a reprieve… maybe it wasn't sleep. Maybe I was finally not breathing at all. But as consciousness slowly enveloped me with light and pain, I knew I hadn't been so fortunate. I am caught in place again. This constant and endless waltz. What good am I? I looked to the window beside my bed, making out the dark green of the damp forest that surrounded where I was held.

I tried to roll my tongue in my mouth again. But failed and almost gagged. Maybe the remnants of my body's reaction to the poison still remained even though the poison itself was gone. Though he put me through pain… he always took away a lot of it when he was done. Never leaving any effects active for too long. Never pushing me past the point of no return. He was talented, and compassionate, the same as he was ruthless and cruel. But… then again, that wasn't his fault, he wasn't born that way. He'd been groomed to be that way.

Though my strength was still mostly gone, my wounds were at least partially healed. The ones from the previous day were almost gone only leaving scabs instead of raw streaks on my back. My wrists sported new marks that ached and my stomach, chest and abdomen now felt raw instead. The burning ache was soothing though. As much as I wished myself dead in some moments there was always still too much to remain alive for. The pain and ache reminded him he still was here on Gaia… not in Hell…

Cloud sat up to the edge of his bed, somehow he sensed that he was alone this time. A thankful reprive right? He looked around not missing the disappointment that lay fertile in his sould giving birth to emptiness again. This empty ache that was more painful than the physical ailments that he sported. Cloud wrapped his arms around himself in a hugging motion, careful not to hurt the sore and tender parts of his body. He only wished he was being held by someone else right now…

"This scenery is evergreen

You've always been so dear to me"

He made his way over to the door, maybe it was left unlocked for him this time. Had he earned the right to venture out again? He wanted to quench his thirst. And he didn't want to be alone right now.

His bare feet scuffed along the floor. He wasn't allowed to wear clothes. Thank Gaia it wasn't cold now like it was when he'd first been brought here. With only a sheet to cover with at night it was torture, more so than the literal torture. He lifted a shaky hand to the door handle, when he pulled it gave. He was surprised; he didn't think that it would have actually been open. He was relieved. Maybe he could drink and eat something. But really that wasn't the main reason he was venturing now was it.

Cloud tried to hold himself upright as he ventured into the breakfast room that his suite opened up to before the main doors to the hall. The room was sunny and bright overlooking an open plot of land next to the massive house. It was beautiful, and Cloud didn't think he'd been so happy to see something more than the evergreens that he saw out his bedroom window… which only tugged at his memories further.

He quietly tried to lift his feet higher so that he wouldn't be making so much noise, despite the weakened state of his body, which led him to want nothing more than to ball up in the corner and sleep. He knew that if the door was open that he would not be alone. But surprisingly he entered into the end of the room with the table and chairs and no one was there. His heart dropped, and sped up at the same time.

He looked at the double doors. Maybe now was his chance to escape? But something made him look to the right by the large glassed in area passed the table. There, the normally chained off handles of the doors to the small breakfast balcony were wide open. Fresh air and sunlight streaming in unencumbered made Cloud close his eyes and take a deep breath in. How could he have not noticed that right off?

That meant that he was out there. Cloud looked again at the doors to the hall way. This really was his chance. He strode towards them purposefully a few paces. But stopped. Dropped his shoulders. Felt the last bit of strength drain out of him as he slowly turned on his heels. His head dropped. Something wasn't right… he knew it… He also couldn't fight his heart.

As he stepped out onto the balcony he ached to just grow wings and fly away… away from the pain..the need… the hurt… the longing. But when he turned to the left once outside the door what he saw made all his own sadness and hurt fly away without him.

"This scenery is evergreen

It sorrows at the sight

of seeing you so sad

This scenery is evergreen

I wish that I could dry your tears"

Clouds mind played back a moment in time… He went back to the courtyard one time after his brother had left on a mission of peace this time. He had been in the stables when once again his brother had opened up in a fury towards his cinnamon knight. The beautiful angel that was always there for him when he returned. Defending him, the kingdom, their family… anything that Sephiroth would have wanted in a Knight by his side or a lover to hold.

He'd spyed from the stable door only 20 feet away as Sephiroth beat and pummeled the fallen angel. Genesis cried silently with his eyes closed, Cloud knew this from watching the knight so many times from afar as he cried alone. He hid it so well. The silvery haired General pulled out his sword a long Katana that glinted a pale silver like his hair in the sunlight and threw the cinnamon haired man over on his face on the ground. He pushed the tip of the sword through the man's clothes and to gouge into his back. He then sliced across in 5 different strokes.

Fresh blood poured from the wounds and Genesis still was silent. Only a muffled moan escaping his lips. The general pulled the bloodied man onto his knees and ripped his pants down enough so that he could access his opening, and see the knights swollen and red member. Sephiroth pulled his own dripping member out and without any warning shoved in to the balls. He thrusted hard and fast into the now slightly torn opening. He pumped quick deep and without remorse. Now blood was welling up from the abused opening as well. Still… Genesis did not cry out.

Cloud watched in horrifying detail as his mighty brother raped and left Genesis for dead. Yes he'd seen them both climax and he'd seen Genesis' face tighten in delight for a brief moment. But in the end yes… simply left for dead. The knight was bleeding and hurt far worse than any time before. Sephiroth simply pulled his pants back up and sheathed his sword that he'd still held in his hand before. He glanced back once at Genesis, perhaps saying goodbye in a way, then mounted up on his horse and galloped hard and fast like everything he was… far away.

Cloud cried out and ran without a second thought to the beautiful red haired man that had become his idol, his mentor… and something more in his eyes. He gathered him up in his arms and cried. The knight was passed out but his face too shone with tears now. Cloud tried not to hurt him but no matter how hard he tried he would brush his wounds and suddenly Genesis' eyes were open and filled with fury.

"How dare you touch me!" Genesis cried out. "How dare you see me like this!" He accused. How he found the strength to fortify his pride right then Cloud didn't know. The man was even more of an enigma than he'd realized.

Cloud simply allowed his own tears to fall and turned his head. "There, now I can't see you" He said with a shaky voice and slowly began rocking the man in his newly tightened embrace. He couldn't see Genesis' reaction but his body didn't fight the rocking embrace at all. He felt the Knights head turn towards his chest and felt the heat of his tears soak his shirt.

Part of Cloud died that day… He may have saved Genesis or may not have, he would never know. He'd brought the man to the main front room of the house to allow him to sleep on the futon while cloud went to get something to clean his wounds.

When the blond boy had returned there was nothing on the futon but a bloody few lines and stains. Cloud had felt his eyes refill with tears again. He knew that this man… this angel… this enigma was too far out of his reach. And not for him to know, or understand. So like a senseless baby he stood there that day crying.

The following days and weeks had led to a new type of coldness and aloofness from the knight. It would be a long time before he trained with the boy again. But Cloud would still see and hear his abuse once his Brother had returned home again. Only this time he stayed inside with the shutter closed and would hide his face in his pillows or busy himself in the house when he heard it. Still… the sound of the cries and knowing there were tears, would eat at him.

Again Cloud was faced with those tears. He turned his face towards the clearing and tried to stifle his own. Yes, if ever there was a time to escape… Now would be it.

Looking back at the beautiful cinnamon topped angel that sat curled up and quivering in the corner of the balcony. Cloud could once again not stop himself. He tried to cover himself some as he walked forward.

"Please Genesis… don't cry." He said in a meek, dry, and unused voice. He reached forward to wrap his arms around the Once-Knight and kneeled down beside him. "you can cry… here… I can't see you… let it go" He turned his look towards the stone façade of the building to Genesis' back and began to rock him gently.

"The bells have rung

The time has come

I cannot find the words

to say my last goodbye

This scenery is evergreen

You've always been so dear too me"

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~End of Chapter One~

A/N 2:::: Ok guys… please don't flame… I guess I needed a poetic/twisted outlet and this awesomely beautiful and inspirational song (series of songs really… but for this chappy… this song :P) moved me for this sort of a setting. The music video itself (Japanese softer version) really inspired me from the visuals, but the words and music of the English rock version really moved me A LOT! Check it out on you tube if ya'l aren't familier with hyde. If you need a link lemme know J

Keep watch I'll be posting more soon I hope J