Someday- Kagome's thoughts wonder. She ponders how she feels about InuYasha. Oneshot, Kagome P.O.V

Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha, Kagome, or any other characters…. They belong to Rumiko Takahashi. -Sob-

A/N: I just wrote this because I was bored, and it's basically nothing new plot-wise, just a random peice of junk I only posted 'cause I liked how I wrote it.

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I looked out my window. The night was a warm, comforting purple. I love nights like these, when the stars are clear and cast an ethereal glow over the earth.

I absentmindedly wondered when InuYasha would come to fetch me, so that we could continue our search for shards of the Shikon no tama.

I hoped he wouldn't come too soon.

I needed to study for a math test… or, at least that was my excuse for wanting to stay in my time.

The truth was, I couldn't care less about school.

If school were my only reason for staying in my time, then I'd never be here.

I would also tell InuYasha that I needed to visit my family, but that wasn't really true either. I had just as much family in feudal Japan as I do in modern times; Sango, Shippou, Miroku… and InuYasha.

The real reason I stayed away was because sometimes I just need a break from the torrent of emotions that comes whenever I'm near InuYasha.

I love him, that I know. I think I've loved him from the moment I first saw him, pinned against the Goshin-boku. He looked like some sort of fallen angel as he slept there, a look of peacefulness, and yet at the same time a deep sadness, woven into his face.

Ah, that face, that beautiful, handsome, amazing face.

That face, that looks so content when he is asleep, but so distraught and angry when he is awake. I often wonder what it is that handsome hanyou dreams about.

I hope that sometimes he dreams of me, but all reason makes me think that it is not I he dreams of, but another raven-haired maiden.

I'm in love with him, deeply, deeply, in love with him, and I love to be near him, but it makes me miserable also. Miserable to think that he is not, will not be mine. He belongs to Kikyou, he made his decision. It shattered my heart into a million pieces when he chose her over me.

But instead of leaving, like many others would have done, I stuck by his side, as a friend.

Mostly because I don't think I could have left him.

Every time we part, it breaks my heart a little to know that he could go to Kikyou while I'm gone. But it breaks my heart even more to know that there is no reason why he should not.

Every time I leave, I always hope he will look back and smile at me, with love in his wonderful amber eyes. But he never does. I continue on, knowing I shouldn't have expected him to in the first place.

I've tried so many times to get myself to stop obsessing over one who is not mine, but alas, I cannot. I've tried in vain to love someone else, but I don't think I'll ever be able to feel for anyone else the way I feel for InuYasha.

So, for now, all I can do is stay by his side, and hope against hope that someday… someday he'll be mine.