Afraid to lose his touch.
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Ever's POV
Will... I love him so much. I cannot admit how much I really do. The thing is…I love him to the extent of being in pain when I am not touching him... It doesn't just hurt, it burns and kills. It is unbearable. I don't know why it is that way. If you can explain, please do.
Right now he's in class, getting ready for the finals, so I can't tell him how I feel, not yet anyway. If I do it'll ruin his future and its not fair to do so if I'm not going to be involved in it... Well I hope I will be but when I tell him this deep, dark secret he will dump me for sure... He isn't that kind of guy though, he is sweet and caring. I just keep thinking that I'll get too clingy and he will leave me.
Ugh. I just wish I could be self secure for once!
But that isn't going to happen, its me: that freak Ever who has a messed up life and got her best friend killed.
Yeah, that's what they all call me, I'd say they call me that 'behind my back' but technically it isn't since they yell it in my ear not being discreet at all.
Jheez... I have far too much time to think. I mean, here I am, running around the field with my iPod on full blast and I am 'training', well, they've pretty much given up on me because I have killed more stigroi than some of them so I just run. I run and run hoping I'll get out of this nightmare sooner.
I'm hoping that I can ignore the severing pain in my heart and body.
I need him now... I can feel the pull. The pull to him... I stumble forward and crash into some random guy. Never a good move when you're the most hated girl in school.
I slowly pull out my earbuds: fearing the words that are coming my way.
"Hey murderer. Watch where you're going. Just remember you'll be next, you'll be following Emily's footsteps." He sneers at me.
I shrug. Violent words and empty threats. That's all I think. They don't mean anything.
But deep down I am afraid of everything they say, I have learnt how to switch off that feeling a long time ago but sometimes I forget and my fear comes bubbling up in one go... That's what causes my 'mood-swings' as Emily would always call them. That's why I try so hard to hide my feelings.
Sometimes I wish I didn't have to and then Will could hold me close... Tell me everything was gonna be okay. But no. I can't tell him, not yet.
I don't know what I am going to do.
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That's when I see Will... There he is in broad beauty. I run into his arms, ignoring the glares from that guy, glares like daggers.
''Is he giving you problems?'' Will sneers as he catches me in his arms. My heart melts and I instantly feel relaxed. I love this.
''No, baby, I'm fine...'' I whisper and kiss him softly.
''Honey, I wish you would tell me things...'' He sighs and kisses my cheek.
''I wish I would as well...'' I laugh quietly.
''Then why don't you...'' He says painfully.
It breaks my heart.
''Because I don't want to lose you.'' I sigh.
I'm afraid to lose him. I'm afraid to lose his touch.
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