Sorry this is such a long chapter but here it is! I hope you guys enjoy this one, I spent a lot more time on it. :)

Oh, I should probably warn: this story DOES have a fair bit of course language and WILL have some smut in later chapters.

Chapter 1

No POV

In a perfect world everyone could get what they want when they wanted it. Of course that is easier said than done. First off, you have to actually know what you want. It's in this instance that most of the world's population would fall short. Cracking under pressure when asked the ultimate question: "Are you sure this is what you want?"

This is the issue Hanna Marin has been facing for a few long months now. Single as of 6 months ago, Hanna knows she wants something but she can't be sure. This has been the single most indecisive time period of her life. She wants love again but doesn't, wants sex but with who? Wants everything and nothing.

Unbeknownst to Emily Fields, she will soon be the subject in Hanna's quest to find what she's craving after. However, unlike Hanna, Emily knows exactly what she wants. She has short, wavy blonde hair, utterly kissable pink lips and a body young women kill for. Emily wants Hanna. Of course she'll never admit that out loud though, being gay with an incredibly attractive straight best friend is definitely not easy. Luckily for Emily though, she's able to push her little crush to the back of her mind and focus on being the best friend Hanna needs.

"Emily will you please come with me! I don't want to go on my own, you know what these places are like! They can be dangerous if I don't have my girl by my side!"

Hanna was going to Noel Kahn's party tonight, she was in the middle of picking out an outfit from her immense wardrobe when she started to chuck a wobbly because Emily informed her that she would not be attending.

"Stop being dramatic Hanna, you'll be fine. Besides, I have a freaking truck load of homework to do."

Hanna stuck out her bottom lip at Emily. Making her signature puppy dog eyes.

"No, no. Stop it. That's not gonna work."

Hanna turned it up a notch and somehow brought tears to her own eyes. Emily knew it was completely staged but still couldn't help feeling like she just slapped a kitten.

Emily ran her fingers through her long dark hair and let out a much exaggerated sigh. Hanna took that as a yes and immediately started jumping up and down with joy.

"Yes! You won't regret this I promise! And I also swear to make this the best night of your life!"

Emily just shook her head, still feeling majorly defeated. Hanna took Emily by the arm and guided her to her closet.

"Get in there and help me pick out an outfit and then we'll go to yours." Hanna said excitedly.

"Um, no thank you, I've come out of the closet once and I don't plan on doing that again to an audience of Hanna Marin." Emily retorted sarcastically, still annoyed she had even agreed to this.

"Ha! That's a good one." Hanna replied with equal sarcasm. "Now come on misery guts, help me out here."

Emily let out one last heavy sigh as Hanna pushed her into the massive pile of clothes literally falling out of Hanna's closet. She definitely wasn't looking forward to this party but she couldn't shake the feeling that, for some reason, tonight may just surprise her.


Emily gawked at the immense amount of people filling up and surrounding the Kahn's property. Noel Kahn always threw big parties but this had to be at least twice as many people as last year. She looked over at Hanna with concern etched onto her face, Hanna just squealed in excitement. Emily rolled her eyes and started up the long driveway.

After Hanna had finally agreed on a classy yet sexy more-on-the-short-side red dress to complement her new, white 4 inch strappy heels the two girls had made their way to Emily's house. Emily told Hanna she'd feel a lot better if she dressed for the cold-ish weather but Hanna convinced her she had to at least look a little bit sexy. They ended up compromising on tight black jeans that hugged Emily's ass to perfection, cute black knee-high boots with a small heel and a deep green tank top with a dark leather jacket. Sure Emily would be practically invisible in her clothes if it weren't for Hanna's bright attire but Emily didn't mind blending into the crowd.

It was impossible to find anyone they recognized within the sheer amount of random people surrounding them, eventually the two girls just decided to get there drink on and make some new friends instead.

Walking straight to the nearest keg they could find, Emily poured a drink for both Hanna and herself. Skolling their first drink, they quickly refilled their cups and wandered into the house.

Noel Kahn's house was massive but Hanna and Emily were still swarmed by a sea of faces when they stepped in the door. Emily couldn't help but appreciate all of Noel's attractive friends. This had to have been the first party she had been to where easily more than half the people attending were incredibly hot. Like, model hot. Both guys and girls.

Hanna subconsciously licked her lips when she noticed all the gorgeous people surrounding them.

"Hey, listen Hanna" Emily said into Hanna's ear so she would hear her over the loud music, "I know you've got a lot of boys here to choose from but-"

"What do you mean I've got? And what do you mean boys?" Hanna interrupted, giving Emily a smirk. "There's lots of hot girls here too in case it escaped your attention Em, we could both take advantage of that." She said with a wink.

Emily let out a nervous chuckle, slightly distracted by the thought of Hanna hooking up with girls tonight. It was a hot thought but still a jealous thought none the less. Emily shook the image from her head as she leant over to finish what she was saying.

"It hasn't escaped my notice" Emily admitted "but what I was saying is that I'm still way too sober for this, we should go somewhere quieter and find some more drinks. There's got to be alcohol lying all over the place here. I need to get in the mood to party if I'm gonna be here any longer."

Hanna just nodded and grabbed Emily's hand to lead her upstairs. Emily was used to touching Hanna, they were best friends, but it still sent shockwaves through her body whenever it happened.

Finding an empty room down the corridor they were in proved harder than they anticipated. They walked in on 3 couples making out and one all-out threesome before Hanna and Emily finally found a deserted room.

Looking around Hanna spotted a whole unopened bottle of Bourbon.

"Fuck yes Em you were right!" Hanna said as she threw her arms around Emily for a quick embrace. She was so obviously stoked to be here.

After a fair few swigs of the bourbon, Hanna and Emily were definitely starting to feel the effects of the alcohol now pulsing through their veins. It was at this moment that Hanna suddenly jumped up and stumbled over to the door, she got down on her hands and knees and stuck her nose underneath the door.

"Oh my god" was all Hanna said as she made her way back to where Emily was sitting. Emily couldn't help but giggle at Hanna's sudden antics.

"What are you even doing, Han?" Emily asked with a chuckle as Hanna knelt in front of Emily, placing her hands on Emily's shoulders and lightly shaking her.

"Can you smell that?"

Emily couldn't tell if Hanna was excited or alarmed. Maybe both.

"Smell what? Han what are you on about?" Emily asked with a slight slur.

"Bud, dope, kush! Emily we have to find the marijuana before they smoke it all! It's really close I can still smell it Em we have to get some!" Hanna jumped up again and made her way back to the door.

"Woah, woah hold your horses Marin" Emily said as she slowly and carefully rose to her feet also.

Emily and Hanna had both smoked weed before on numerous occasions but still quite infrequently, they both still had quite a low tolerance to it but this was a party. Noel Kahn's party. They had to let loose a little bit.

After wandering into the room across the hall, the two girls were overwhelmed by the welcome scent of marijuana wafting around them. There was a small group of people sitting in a circle, each with a hose in their hand as they inhaled the lovely illicit substance from a hookah.

Hanna and Emily both immediately recognized Noel himself within the circle, surrounded by even more beautiful strangers.

"Hanna! Emily! You made it!" Noel called over to them, through his squinty eyes it was already quite apparent how glazed his eyes were. Noel was utterly cooked. "Come and sit! These are my friends Tod, Ruby, Justin and Amanda." Noel gestured to his friends as they moved around to make room for the two girls.

"Do you mind if we join in? Em and I haven't smoked in months" said Hanna as the two girls joined the circle.

"Yeah, yeah of course, there's plenty to go around! We were actually just about to play a game of spin the bottle" Noel exclaimed with a wink.

Emily and Hanna both nodded their heads, a silent agreement to play. This still made Emily nervous however, not just the fact that Emily had noticed Ruby checking her out the second she walked in, but also the prospect of possibly getting to kiss Hanna. If luck was on her side that is.

Emily and Hanna both helped themselves to a few tokes on the hookah. The girls felt the hit almost immediately and had to resist the overwhelming urge to just lie down and do absolutely nothing for the rest of the night.

Once the girls were done Noel moved the Hookah out of the way while Tod, a tall guy with huge arms and a chiselled jaw line, grabbed an empty beer bottle to place in the middle of their circle.

Noel then threw his hand up into the air and shouted "I'll go first!" He spun the bottle so fast it took a full 10 seconds before it stopped spinning and finally landed on Amanda, a gorgeous blonde with huge boobs.

"Fuck yes!" Noel said before proceeding to stick his tongue down poor Amanda's throat for 5 seconds.

To the left of Noel was Ruby, a short girl with full lips and a petite body. Her spin landed on Justin, a fit blonde with striking blue eyes and the perfect amount of stubble. Hanna couldn't help but notice Ruby's quick side glance at Emily, looking a little disappointed. Ruby (quite obviously reluctantly) hooked up with Justin for less time than Noel's kiss with Amanda. Hanna didn't know why, but she decided she didn't like Ruby one bit.

Next was Amanda, her spin landed right in between Emily and Justin, Justin looked disappointed but Emily looked relieved. After spinning the bottle once more, quite to Hanna's dismay, it landed right on her.

"Finally some girl on girl action!" Noel said, hooting and whooping with Tod and Justin joining in.

Hanna quickly glanced over at Emily but couldn't read her expression as Emily was facing the other way. Amanda looked pretty excited, probably just keen to give Noel a show. Hanna inwardly grimaced as she leant forward to meet Amanda's lips.

It wasn't a terrible kiss but it wasn't great either, it was sloppy and Amanda used way too much tongue.

Next was Hanna's turn, she secretly hoped for… well anyone but Ruby pretty much. Maybe Tod, he seems cute enough.

Hanna spun the bottle absentmindedly, taking a few seconds to register that it had stopped right next to her. On Emily.

Emily met her gaze with a nervous look in her eyes, but Hanna saw a glimpse of something else too, anticipation? Hanna and Emily had kissed before on a dare but never actually hooked up. Hanna couldn't deny she was feeling some anticipation for the kiss too. It's not like she's never thought about it before.

Hanna just shrugged and thought what the hell, this is a party. Leaning in she could smell Emily's peppermint lip balm and peach conditioner, Hanna's favourite.

At first Emily didn't even close her eyes, she was too aware of Hanna's lips on her own, too shocked at how fucking soft Hanna's lips felt against hers. Eventually she closed her eyes and began moving her lips against Hanna's. Her heart was beating a tattoo into her chest as she felt Hanna trace her tongue on her bottom lip.

Hanna felt Emily open her mouth wider, allowing her entrance. The alcohol and marijuana flowing through her body inhibiting any nerves she may have been feeling before. For the first time, Hanna felt her tongue brush lightly against Emily's, this only stirred her to deepen the kiss. Soon Hanna found herself sitting on Emily's lap facing her, melting into her embrace like nothing she's ever felt before.

Emily always pinned Hanna for a good kisser but this was next level. Hands now wrapped around Hanna's waist, she dissolved into the feeling of Hanna against her, her breath hitching when she felt Hanna practically climb on top of her, getting closer than she ever has before. Emily couldn't think at all. Just feel. Just Hanna, filling her senses. Emily was wrapped up in her and she never wanted this to end.

Hanna gasped as she felt Emily bite down on her bottom lip, Emily sucking Hanna's bottom lip into her mouth. Hanna was about to let out a moan when she heard a cough behind her. Suddenly hyper aware of her surroundings, Hanna pushed herself off of Emily and back into her seated position on the floor.

"Um, I-I just… sorry." Hanna said. Her face turning a deep shade of red as she glanced back over at Emily who was still quite obviously flustered from their moment.

Noel punched Tod hard on the arm "Good one! Your stupid coughing fit interrupted them! They so could've gone at least another three minutes!" Noel said, obviously distressed the "show" was over.

"Three minutes?" Emily said giving Noel an incredulous look. "That's bullshit it was barely thirty seconds."

"Three minutes and twenty seconds to be exact, Fields. I was counting." Noel replied with a smug smile.

"And if my calculations are correct, that's, like, forty times longer than the rest of us." Tod said with a chuckle, still rubbing his arm.

"Yeah, you guys must really like each other. Who knows how far you two would've gone if this spastic didn't interrupt." Noel said with a wink for the girls and another slap on the arm for Tod.

"I, um… need some air…" Emily said before standing up and rushing out of the room.

Hanna stood up after that and looked over at the rest of the circle, "Thanks for the good game guys, I think we're just gonna, um… join the rest of the party…" With that Hanna quickly followed after Emily.

Emily had only gone back into the deserted room across the hall to find that bourbon they'd left behind. A few more swigs and Emily was pacing (more like stumbling) back and forth, trying to wrap her head around just what had happened minutes before. What the hell was that? Did Han love that kiss as much as I did? Is that why she didn't stop? These were all the questions stirring a whirlwind in her mind. Eventually she just cleared a space on the couch, she need to rest her head.

Emily had said she needed air so Hanna's first instinct was to check outside. It was already 1.30 in the morning at this point and a few people had passed out on the grass but otherwise the party was still going strong. After Hanna couldn't spot Emily anywhere she took out her phone and sent Emily a quick message asking where she was.

Emily got Hanna's text and was tempted to not reply, she wasn't sure if she was ready to look Hanna in the eye after everything before. Thankfully Emily's better judgement kicked in when she realized Hanna didn't have anyone else to go to at this party, it wasn't fair to leave her on her own.

Hanna sighed with relief when she got Emily's text stating she was back in that empty room. She rushed upstairs and back into the room only to see Emily peacefully dozing, clutching the bottle of bourbon from before.

Hanna walked over to her a placed the bottle on the floor, grabbing a blanket from the corner of the room to drape over Emily. Hanna shifted Emily's feet onto her own lap so she could sit on the couch with her.

Hanna looked over at Emily's sleeping form, noticing how stunning Emily looked when she had seemingly not a care in the world, (while she's sleeping anyway). Hanna was now overcome with dread for tomorrow, surely Emily will remember this. What would she say? What would I say?

The feeling of dread suddenly washed away when Hanna was hit with a realization. She now knew something she wanted, I mean, she was still clueless as to what she wanted overall, in the big picture. All she knew was that she wanted to kiss Emily again. That was way too good to pass up as a one-time thing.

Hanna laid down and got comfy, she wanted to kiss Emily again. And she was going to do it. All the questions and confusions and uncertainty that comes along with that act, she can worry about that another time.

Laying her head down next to Emily, Hanna dozed off to the sound of Emily's steady breathing.

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