No, I can't do this, this is just impossible. But I can't call it off now everybody is counting on me. I am 19 years old and eligible. A few days ago everything started when I announced that "I Prince Maxon Shreve of the heir of Illia will have a selection and I am going to choose a wife."
And it was also only a few days ago when Daphne told me she loved me and that I don't know what love is even when it's right before my eyes.
Uh, I can't do this anymore every day I have been replaying the scenario in my head, and even while as. I'm sure I did not love her in such a way I can't shake the feeling that Daphne might have a point.
I mean my father has raised me never to show your emotions always be composed and be the strongest person in the world.
But still, I don't believe he sabotaged me in not showing me how to love. My mum is the greatest and most generous person in the world I mean she had done so much has always treated me with a gentle touch and never even screams at me. I looked at the clock for a few seconds. Oh no, I'm late already for dinner.
I Started running meanwhile a maid came up to me. I stopped, and she started talking, "Sir would you like the colour blue or green or beige for one of the rooms". I replied very blunt but still, "I don't know I suggest that you choose a colour since you will know better what colour a girl would like".
The maid nodded and left. I started running again and thinking. Really what colour would I like I am a man who never even met a girl from the outside world.
Not even speaking of the cities, I haven't even seen a girl's room before. Finally, I arrived at the dining room and bowed.," Mother Father I am sorry I am late" my dad stood up and started talking, "Maxon you are over 7 minutes late you know dinner starts at exact six o clock".
"I know father I was just settling something for the selection". My dad looked mad but wasn't able to say anything for mother started talking.
"Maxon dear why don't you sit down and we can start eating". I nodded and said, "yes mother that would be lovely" well depends on what you think lovely is. A dinner with my dad no. We had a 4-course dinner like always appetisers, small treats, main course, and dessert. Once we were finished, my father started talking.
"It will be only a week till the young and lovely ladies will be proclaimed father said. I replied as indifferent as I could," yes I look forward to it" well that I half right I'm looking forward to finding a girl I love but not exactly to these girls.," this year there are a bunch of lovely ladies and a good stack of 2s and 3s".
"I noticed" I replied well then Maxon you the I have to talk to your mother about some serious business'," I said and left.
I ran to my room not being able to wait for the whole castle to go to sleep. I like taking photos at night of some kind things.
I also like walking through the garden it is just so lovely as. My mother loves the garden too but is never allowed to go in it father is too scared that some rebel will go and shoot her.
I lied on my bed and waited for the maid. A servant must become since father let me go to my room. This is how it is most times I go to my room, and after a few minutes, I get a letter that says I have to go to him for business. It is like he wants me to do more exercise. Not only after a few minutes the maid arrives.
"Where shall I go," I ask her the maid looks at me in confusion I ask again, "why does father want me so see him?" the girl looks at me and says "your highness your dad has not requested you but as ordered you to stay in your room".
I raised my eyebrows father doesn't want me to do anything that is odd he must be up to something.
I didn't feel like going down to check it out and so decided I would do what father asked of me. I waited till it was 11 o'clock and then took my camera oh it was so lovely to have the place to my I can't believe in a few days 35 girls will be here.
Now that it was night and nobody was here I started thinking again what if. What if none the girls liked me.
What if Daphne had been right and I do love her what if I could not love any of this is exhausting all the what ifs I went back up to my room and started sleeping.
