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Groove Armada - Paper Romance
AN: June 4th I'm getting too many random ideas and I'm trying to keep them out of my other stories. I don't want the stories to become entangled messes. Anyway, if enough people are interested, I'll see where this goes. I have an idea for who I think the Daddy will be, but haven't outlined a plot for this story. So your guess is as good as mine where it's going. This was a nice distraction before going back to my other stories.
AN#2: July 14th Been busy and need a little break. I'm cleaning this up a little and may write a rough draft of a chapter two for this. Could be fun.
My obnoxious alarm went off; a Taiwonese chick shrilled in her foreign language for me to wake up again and again a little louder each time until slam! I batted the annoying hello kitty knock-off bitch. Time to replace that stupid alarm clock from fifth grade. I thought to myself for the umpteenth time. With a groan at 2am I sat up and glared at the evil digital alarm. There was a conspiracy to make sure I never enjoyed a full nights rest since the day Sam had disappeared. I barely slept the entire time he was gone. He had come back after two weeks, we'd tried to work things out. I was just starting to sleep a little easier if not the entire night and then wham! He dumped me for my cousin. A full nights sleep entirely escaped me again. But I'm a strong girl. I had worn my big girl panties and life went on. Then wham! I turned into a giant wolf with my younger brother and shared my mind with my ex-boyfriend followed by a helping of my father dying. Fucking awesome! The truth was all too clear. Fate had it in for me. My ancestors hated me. The Great Wolf had made me his freak science experiment. I had stopped playing by the rules this week. I was Miss Independent even as a baby. I didn't have to please anyone but myself. Well, maybe my Alpha. I had to please my Alpha too. Oh! And my mother. Definitely had to please my mother. But other than that. I only had to please myself. Oh! And Seth! I had to be there for my brother. But other than that... Oh who was I kidding? I was way down on the list of people I had to please. Fuck my life...
I sleepily stumbled into my yellow hot shorts without underwear and a pale pink tank top without a bra. They looked horrible and semi-slutty together. I didn't need to put them on before going out on patrol, I could just tie them to my leg and head out. But I was a creature of habit. I decided not to look in the mirror. I brushed my teeth pondering if I even needed to. If we healed and didn't age, what would happen to my teeth if I didn't brush them? It's not like I experienced morning breath anymore. I decided I was too chicken to find out. I'd let the guys with their disgusting hygiene habits forge that path and find out further down the road.
Now I had run out of things to occupy me before patrol. There were some things that I would prefer not to share with anyone while phased from the past week. I didn't want Seth to catch anything before he phased at the end of his shift or Jared when he took over at the end of my shift. I crossed my fingers and headed for the backyard. Pulling off my clothes by the backdoor my clothes to my ankle strap and brought down gentle heat to phase. I felt a sharp pain at the base of my spine shutting down the phase immediately. It wasn't horrible pain or anything. It was more frustrating.
"Fuck man." I grumbled. Who even knows what the hell my problem is? I have to go now. I tried to phase again. No trembles down my spine. Just the stupid pain. I stomped one foot on the spot in frustration.
"Leah," I voice whined from behind the shed. "what the hell are you doing? Phase already. I'm ready to go to bed." I recognized Seth's voice before seeing him trying not to look at me.
"I'm trying to phase!" I huffed at him. "You dumb shit. But there's no heat and no shake up my spine. I just get a sharp pain in my back. I'm trying again." He stepped forward focusing his eyes on my face. I concentrated harder and tried to force my body to bend to my will. The pain definitely hurt this time.
"Arggh!" I screamed. I dropped to my knees panting. Tears stung my eyes.
"Leah!" Seth jumped out and ran to me. I could see from the corner of my eye his hands reaching out for me but he wasn't sure where to touch his naked sister and it still be appropriate. So he gave up and patted me on the head lamely. "I'm calling Sam." He announced like the annoying little brother he was. It reminded me of when he used to go run and tell Dad on me. He took off before I could recover my breath and argue with him.
Realizing that my ex-boyfriend was headed my way and I was naked in my back yard I put my clothes on. Once I was clothes in my ugly slutty outfit I sat on the wet grass glaring out at the woods. I would have been happy if it meant that I could go back to bed. But of course it wouldn't. All it would mean was drama, drama, drama, blah, blah, blah! My bed was so comfortable before the alarm screamed at me to wake up. Why couldn't I be there? In bed. I was so tired. I thought about my failure to sleep and realized something. I had had a full nights sleep. I had slept twelve fucking hours today. As wolves, we needed less sleep. We usually needed about two to five hours a night. I still wasn't sure how I had managed to sleep for twelve freaking full hours. My thoughts on my sleeping patterns were disturbed by the sound of Seth coming out of the house. I thought I'd try to phase once more. Just as I stood up thinking about the heat, I was hit with pain and threw up in the bushes.
"Fuck! We're not supposed to get sick!" I complained like a whiny bitch. I observed the disgusting carrot like looking pieces in my vomit. I didn't eat carrots. Where the hell was my brain? My thoughts were becoming more erratic and some where downright disturbing. I looked away from my vomit before I could make more observations.
"Stop trying okay Leah?" Seth whined. He rubbed my back sympathetically before examining my skin with his hot hands. "Leah, why aren't you warm?"
"Huh?" I then noticed the goose bumps on my arms and felt a shiver roll through me. "It's cold out here." Everything seemed to feel differently lately. But I couldn't quite put my finger on it.
Just then Sam and Jacob showed up walking loudly around the house. They were clearly not pleased with us. "What's happened to patrol?" Sam asked crossing his arms across his chest as he scrutinized me from above. Jacob gave me the evil eye, clearly grumpy about his early morning wake up call.
"She's cold, she can't phase and I would expect you can smell the vomit." Seth stepped forward and listed my symptoms for them.
Fucking boy scout. "Shut the fuck up Seth. So, I'm sick! A good little brother would have covered my shift and left them the fuck out of it." I ground out at him trying to edge my voice with venom. Of course, it didn't work when he was my baby brother and I felt like crap. As if on cue to prove Seth's observations correct a stronger shiver rippled through me. I crossed my arms struggling to stifle it. Sam and Jacob came over and touched my arms. They shared a look.
"Let's start by going inside then. You're going to freeze out here. You feel about the same temperature as Emily when she's cold." Sam ordered gruffly. I growled at Sam but the intensity was off. Usually, there was rumble in my chest when I growled since the day I started phasing. But it felt empty. As though the wolf was gone. I suddenly felt scared and alone. Defenseless. I felt defenceless!
"I'm alone!" My voice went up an octive and was tight with fear and panic. I held felt strong and confident before phasing. Turning into a wolf had turned up the volume on my inner strength. But losing all of the power of my wolf so unexpectedly was terrifying. I wasn't used to being a vulnerable human. I had seen all of the things that went bump in the night now. I didn't mind when I could defend myself. But suddenly I didn't feel like I could defend myself from packmates rough housing with me let alone an enemy.
"What are you talking about?" Jacob asked curiously. A mixture of concern and confusion crossed the three young men's faces.
"Usually, I feel the wolf inside me. Her feelings, her instincts, her strength. She's gone! I'm all alone!" I cried out feeling like I lost a lover all over again.
"Maybe this means you'll stop being such a bitch." Jacob muttered. I whirled around and threw a punch in his face that would usually deck him. But it didn't.
I screamed out in pain holding my fist. It was like punching a brick wall. I jumped on the spot in anger and pain while the three of them tried to calm me down. I sat down on the spot and sobbed pitifully. Which isn't like me. Well, I hadn't been immune to crying before I phased. I used to feel scared and alone sometimes. That feeling disappeared when I started phasing. I had the wolf and she made me strong. I'd always been brave, but she made me fearless. Now I was a scared nineteen year old girl. Usually I felt like a woman. But right now, I felt like a child.
"Would women stop hurting their fists on my face? It hurts my feelings." Jacob chuckled trying to examine my hand which I pulled away from him. I gave him the evil eye but he didn't seem the least bit intimidated.
I felt Sam pick me up and I elbowed him to get his hands off me while I was still holding my hand in pain. He picked me up anyway. My elbow was already sore and I seemed to be entirely ineffective against him. This was frustrating and disheartening.
"I heard a crack. I think she broke it." He commented setting me down on the couch. The three men stood around me in a semi-circle sharing looks.
"Stop with the quiet looks. I feel like I'm stuck in a soap opera. I have more than enough drama as it is." I muttered in bad-humour.
"Quiet, the men are thinking." Smirked Jacob holding back a laugh. Jacob knew exactly which buttons to press. I choked on hot rage while they talked.
"We need to talk to Carlisle. That's not a good sign." Sam said with finality.
I glared at him. "I don't want to go to the leeches. I will not go see the leeches."
I could see Sam tried to be patient. His face was stoic and calm. "Leah, you will stop fighting with us and come with us to Carlisle." Sam finally commanded in his Alpha.
I gleefully felt only a tiny tug on my spine. "Make me!" I sneered at him.
Jacob, Seth and Sam looked confused yet again. "What?"
"I just did. I used my Alpha command. You didn't feel anything?" I thought about Sam's question seriously while trying not to laugh. It felt so good to be free of his commands. I went back over what just happened before answering carefully. I wondered if it was a good idea to tell the truth. But I felt compelled to tell him the truth. I could kick myself for my stupidity. But I was curious myself.
"I felt a small tug on my spine. The same spot I feel when I try to phase but it doesn't work. Nothing strong enough that it would really compete with my not wanting to comply. It's like my wolf has been shut down. Like someone locked her in a room." I started crying. Again. I thought with a grimace. It was lonely. I wanted her back.
"This crying shit is ge-ge-getting old." I sobbed trying to get in a breath. "I can-can't stop crying. Someone shut me up. Knock me out. Please!" My sobbing became heavier and I fought for a deeper breath.
"Well, it looks like she's out of commission. Seth, can you patrol for her?" Seth nodded with a serious frown looking older than his years. "We're taking her up to Carlisle." Sam announced. I jumped up to run up to my room. A hand struck out and pulled me back. Sam was carrying me bridal style out the door as though he were afraid I would break.
"What? No fireman's carry?" I huffed. For some reason it bothered me.
"You just threw up. I'm not putting you're weight on your stomach so you can throw up down my back." He explained gruffly. I folded my arms and glared up at him. He avoided eye contact. This wasn't doing anything to improve my hurt self-confidence. I wanted to hit him and throw a fit. But my hand freaking hurt and my elbow was sore. I wasn't going for a third injury. What did I do to deserve all of this? For the love of fucking God!
Soon we were walking up to the door of the vampire mansion. It was a cool, damp night. My body missed Sam's warm body. It was unsettling how cold and alone I felt again. I hadn't realized how Sam's arms had helped me feel a little less vulnerable. I remembered my last trip to the mansion and noticed something was off. I couldn't smell the vampires. I didn't hear loud alarms going off in my head. I only felt a whisper of instinct suggesting that something was different about them. But it was so easily ignored. Knowing how I usually felt around them, I was disturbed.
"Sam, I don't smell them. My instincts are missing!" He stopped and sniffed me. And shrugged.
"I can't tell a difference in your scent." He said.
Carlisle was waiting at the door with a warm smile. Without his smell and my instincts, I melted under his gaze. Butterflies rose up in my stomach and I suddenly understood why Bella didn't cringe around the Cullens. I focused on the knowledge that I was not jelly and he was a fucking vampire. A gloriously beautiful creature who I would like to... I shook my head to free myself of this line of thinking.
Carlisle's face changed from welcoming to confused."Leah, you smell human! An orchard and spices and ..." A look dawned on his face. He grinned widely and waved us in.
I frowned, I didn't like it. I didn't like it one bit. His smile was a panty dropper and I'd never noticed before and it only served to emphasize just how low I had fallen when the practically harmless bloodsucker's charms were working so well on me.
Esme stood by the couch with a warm smile. We stood tensely in the living room. The house was a monstrosity of modern living filled with clean lines and lacking flavour. It wasn't homey at all. I still hated it. Human or werewolf. I hated this place. I could never live there. I finally noticed Sam telling Carlisle what they had observed. Including my stupid broken hand.
"Sam, I'll fix her hand but the rest of it's really not that big of a mystery. Working in medicine for a few centuries I know that smell." Carlisle smiled knowingly. "I need to talk to Leah privately." I looked to Sam feeling anxious. I didn't want to be alone and vulnerable with a vampire. Sam understood the look on my face. I would probably regret bringing him with me, but I couldn't be alone with leech.
"I'm her Alpha, I'm coming with her." Sam declared.
Carlisle shrugged. "Once Leah talks to me, she may feel differently. I know you're a pack, but she's not really a shape shifter right now. She's female. It looks like the rules are the same for her as they are for you. If you insist, I'll go ahead. I just want Leah to understand, some things are best private." He watched my face and I felt an odd mix of arousal and fear. I snatched Sam's hand and positioned him between me and Cullen. He glanced back at me strangely. I knew he could smell the mix of arousal and fear just as I would have smelled it when I was able to phase. I ignored his reaction as my first priority was staying back from Cullen. Carlisle sighed and led the way upstairs. I held my swollen and bruised hand to my chest and followed him up to the study. Sam followed at my side. He took my hand and gently pressed a handled stick for what appeared to be an ultrasound of my hand.
"Usually, I'd be taking an x-ray." He looked at me apologetically. It hurt.
Once my hand was finally in a cast, he sat us down across from him at his desk. The sun was dawning out the window in a brilliant but unusual display. Usually the cloud cover hid beautiful sunrises from us. It was a lovely distraction.
"This is too early for blood or urine tests but I know that smell. You're a few days pregnant Leah." The bloodsucker paused to let the information sink in for a moment. Then he proceeded cautiously. "Before I go any further, I need to know if you intend to keep the pregnancy?" We both stared at him. My mind was blank. I didn't have any thoughts. My stomach dropped. Sam eyed me with an expression on his face that I couldn't read. His next words brought me back to reality after several moments of silence.
"Who?" I was relieved to see that he didn't look hurt.
"I'm not sure I can say anything just yet." I sighed. I couldn't say anything because I didn't know who. Well, I knew who I slept with. But which one? Oh God that sounded bad. Slap me on Jerry Springer.
A tense resolve covered Sam's face when I failed to tell him who. I knew he wasn't going to let it go but was silent for now. I moved onto the question that pressed down on me.
"But I don't have a period, how could I get pregnant?" I asked Carlisle.
"Is that what you thought? You could have asked me. I've smelled your cycle before. With your healing abilities your cells just don't die at the end of the cycle, I would expect the lining is reabsorbed." He explained. My head spun. I felt like such a fucking idiot. I didn't even use birth control. I knew they were disease free and I thought that I knew that I couldn't get pregnant. Carlisle continued. "Can you answer my question?" Carlisle patiently reiterated. My brain raced to catch up.
"Yes, I'm keeping it! I was so upset when I thought I couldn't. I'm not throwing this away." I choked through tears. What was with all of these tears? All of these stupid vulnerable pathetic emotions that I just wasn't used to having. They were from another lifetime. I didn't realize how many I had left behind.
"Congratulations Leah!" Carlisle beamed at me. "Now, to explain my theory for what's happening with your ability to phase. In wolf form, you'd probably reject a pregnancy as a foreign entity and your immune system would attack the zygote or embryo. Your body seems to be smart enough to shut down those genes for gestating. I would expect from what I can see, you're going to experience a normal human pregnancy. All of you were born through normal human pregnancies. There was nothing unusual until you started phasing. Human DNA should take the lead here. The only thing that concerns me is Leah learning to live in a normal human body. You don't want to be getting into fights and striking members of your pack right now Leah. You're responsible for your own behaviour." Carlisle warned me.
Then turned his eyes to Sam. "Sam, could you help out with the packs behaviour? Don't taunt her. When she experiences anger, she's still going to need to phase. But she's just going to feel pain. And make sure they're gentle. It's not like you she can harm them anymore than Emily can. There are lots of hormones and mood swings with pregnancies. Based on the situation, I'd expect anger and hostility. She's lost a lot of control here. Also expect weepiness. The pack is different and I just want you to lay down some ground rules from the beginning." Carlisle stated. Sam nodded curtly with resolve.
Carlisle returned his attention to me. "Leah, just try to keep in mind that you are not indestructable. I don't expect you to treat yourself like a china doll, you can still exercise and such. But no fights, dress for the weather, eat properly. Lot's of things you've probably forgotten about, you need to be aware of now. Especially remember that you won't be healing quickly." Carlisle tapped my cast. "You're looking at six weeks." The room was silent. He was giving us a minute to think and respond. Sam spoke first.
"You need to talk to the father, start with telling us who it is." Sam ordered me. "I didn't know that you were in a relationship to start with." He said with bewilderment.
I blushed and looked at my hands. Crap, I haven't felt bashful in a long time, this isn't me. Since when does stuff like this embarrass me? I shouldn't be embarrassed anyway. I hadn't been laid in ages. So I got laid. Big fucking deal. The guys got laid all of the time. One day, I had a sudden and uncontrollable urge to have sex. I was satiated for a little while. But then it happened all over again. "I'm not. I just wanted sex. It's been two years since I had sex and something set me off twice in one day..." Sam looked uncomfortable.
Carlisle looked a mix between excited and fascinated. "I've been wondering about this since you you started shifting eighteen months ago. I'd take a guess that I know what set you off. Your new body probably matured and was ready to mate. Wolves have a mating season. Your cycle isn't 28 days like a human and it isn't yearly like a wolf. It's every three months. One for each season. After you give birth, I would be interested and willing to help you prepare for your next ovulation. I suspect you would prefer to choose your partners in advance and not be a slave to your hormones." Me and Sam stared blankly at Carlisle. The dude was crazy and probably reading too much into what he had observed. I didn't have mating seasons and he could go fuck himself. I glared at him and suddenly his beautiful face wasn't enough to overcome my hostility. He shrank back in his seat.
"What are you saying Leah?" Sam asked entirely ignoring Carlisle's monologue.
"Well, I may have waited two years to have two partners in one day. This is the first patrol and first day I've tried to phase since Sunday. I didn't think anything of it." I flinched at the look on his face. "Yeah, Sam. I know it's all very Jerry Springer. I get that." I rolled my eyes. Sam looked disgusted with me. I was feeling a little better about Carlisle's explanation. But that didn't make Sam's reaction any less hurtful.
"Sam, don't upset her right now. Besides, in my experience, it's more upsetting for her than it is for you anyway. You don't need to add to the stress." Sam was shaking a little before he took a long calming breath and ignored me to talk to Carlisle. I felt relief and realized my bottom lip had been trembling. It's as though I had become that little girl that Sam first dated when I started high school. I was going to kick her arse.
"Will she start phasing again after the pregnancy?" Sam changed the subject to something less upsetting and more practical. Was he down a man. I wondered if he had considered I would be home with my child, not out on patrols.
"I can only guess and say yes, I would expect so. But we really don't know. Can I suggest something though?" We nodded. "Her life has revolved around the pack. The pack is her support system. Keep her involved with the pack. One of the worst things that could happen right now is for Leah to feel isolated."
I fumed. "I can take care of myself." Carlisle looked at me sympathetically and Sam rolled his eyes at me. I felt so patronized.
"Please, listen to my years of experience Leah. In my three centuries of experience, single pregnant women tend to be vulnerable. I just don't want to see depression or anything like that. Your personality changes with phasing. It's all going to be a lot of changes to how your brain works along with all of the hormones women experience anyway. I just expect it's going to be harder on your emotions than it would be for most women because you're not going to be used to human instincts and thought processes. You've been heavily influenced by your phasing for more than a year now. Do you understand what I'm trying to say here?" Carlisle asked me sincerely.
"No!" I spat out at him like a petulant child. For some reason, I was feeling very combative hearing him suggest that I couldn't do this on my own. I felt blind rage. I preferred this. I could be hateful and it felt more comfortable for me than vulnerable.
"I understand what you're saying." Sam said solemnly. "Leah, I don't care if the Alpha command is currently working or not. You're still a member of my pack and you will be expected to act like one. I might not be able to force you with an Alpha command, but I have Sue and when you phase again you will be expected to take on new duties within the pack. Do you understand?" I didn't look up but nodded. "Thank you for your time Carlisle." The doctor nodded and stood up.
"Leah, to start with, we need to know who the potential fathers are." Sam addressed me. I smiled smugly, knowing that he couldn't force me to speak up. I began to plot ways to keep the guys silent long enough to get away. "I'd place bets that it's two members of the pack who aren't imprinted or barely out of junior high school. That narrows it down to Jake and Embry." I glared at him realizing how predictable I was. He smiled wanly. "You realize that Jake probably just heard this whole conversation?" He pointed out and I groaned.
"Esme took him out of ear shot asking that we give you privacy." Carlisle said gently from the closed door with his hand on the door handle. "I try to be sensitive to patient privacy." My head perked up.
"In that case, I'm leaving the fucking state. No one has to know anything. I'm keeping my privacy! If I'm lucky, I wont start phasing again after I have the baby." I was feeling better already. I then saw Carlisle's frown and Sam's look of horror.
"You bitch! You'd take fatherhood away from a pack brother and a father from your child?" Sam gasped.
"Hell yeah fucker!" I said enthusiastically. The idea of Jake and Embry spending the next nine months hand holding, fighting each other and me was something I'd like to avoid. Besides, they wouldn't miss what they didn't know they had. "New York has a lot of people, I bet it would be easy to hide there!" I looked at Carlisle. Then realized it would be hard to hide there when I just said it front of Sam. That's not very sneaky. What the hell was with my brain? I was starting to understand what the leech had been saying about getting used my brain working differently.
Carlisle stifled a laugh. "Yes, you said that outloud. Like I said, your mind isn't going to work the same way it did as a werewolf and throw in the hormones. You really shouldn't be taking off on your own. You should be accepting help." He looked at me sympathetically and I quickly turned my eyes away before he dazzled me again. He walked back to Sam creating a unified front. I felt unnumbered.
"I don't want help! I'm a grown woman, I can take care of myself." I stood up and marched out of the room. I didn't hear anything behind me. I glanced back and could see their mouths moving. Crap! Human ears, I couldn't hear what they were saying. "Are you plotting against me?" I knew my horror was written plainly across my face.
Sam grinned seeing confirmation that I couldn't hear them talking. I seethed. He quickly replaced his grin with serene calm. "I am your Alpha, these are my pack brothers. I will keep my pack intact. That is my responsibility. Whether you can refuse orders or not, you are my pack sister. I will try to give you free will, but I will not allow you to break up my pack. We're starting with a pack meeting." I huffed and stormed downstairs. I portrayed anger, the rage that I usually felt. But I was feeling so many conflicting and strong emotions and in some ways they were harder to withstand than what I was used to. I used to phase and go for a run to escape it. I didn't have that outlet now. I walked past Esme, with her lovely sweet scent and outside to sit in Sam's truck and wait. This sucked...
By eight thirty in the morning the pack were gathering in the living room of Sam's house. "Sit down Leah." Sam pointed to the couch. He'd been standing over me at every turn. Inescapable. We had a staring competition and the pack immediately noticed the outright defiance.
"Make me!" I yelled at him still seething. There had to be a way to get to New York. The pack watched with interest quietly.
He nodded to Jake standing beside me. "Gently." He said the one word. Jake pulled me by the waist and sat beside me. I saw Embry looking tense.
"Everyone, take a seat and we can get this done." Sam sighed. Emily stood by the kitchen door watching. All too quickly everyone was seated and Sam started. "Leah got pregnant on Sunday, we found out quickly because her body knew well enough to stop phasing. To be more precise, Seth observed that it physically hurt when she tried to phase and when she ignored her body giving her signals she threw up. We took her to Carlisle this morning, he said it's too early for tests but he could easily recognize it. She smells human and pregnant to him already. She punched Jake in the face and as you can see, she doesn't heal quickly and the broken hand shows she's as fragile as Emily or any other human for the time being. After talking to Carlisle I've come to the conclusion she needs a detail on her." Sam announced as though he were sharing information from any other regular pack meeting. I was just another problem for the pack to deal with.
I interrupted before Sam could continue. "I don't need a babysitter!"
Sam cocked an eyebrow at me. "Leah? Really? I didn't want to say anything but seeing as you're putting me on the spot. Embry, Jake. I'm sure you've figured out that one of you is the father. Just so you know why I want her watched, her first little plan was to take off out of state and hide the pregnancy." The pack growled staring me down. I felt fear and panic bubbling up and tears stinging my eyes. I brought my knees to my chest and hugged them to myself looking down in my lap. Sam spoke gently now. "Leah, between the mood swings and tears in just the last few hours and that you would hurt your pack brothers like this, I can't leave you to your own devices, I have a pack to take care of." I felt Sam's eyes on me and I fought tears all over again.
He spoke to the pack again, leaving me to feel alone and separated from the group. "Carlisle had some requests for the pack. Her pregnancy should be very much human, her experience will probably be more pronounced. She's been phasing for a year now. She's shifting back to entirely human emotions, vulnerabilities along with pregnancy hormones. Carlisle warned to expect hosility and weepiness. Knowing Leah, she'll fight the hormones, so I won't ask her to. But guys, please don't engage the pregnant woman in arguments. She can't hurt you anymore than Emily can. We've been asked to include her still. The pack is a support system for us. She's going to need us. I'd usually hand over responsibility to the father. But given we don't know which man is the father and both candidates are within the pack, it's officially pack business. I can't think of anything else he's warned us about right now, but I think I've covered the basics. I'll call you once I have the updated patrol schedule and detail on Leah. Any questions?" Sam sighed.
The room of werewolves looked stunned. After a brief pause I raised a hand. Sam nodded biting back a smile.
"Sleep with one eye open asshole. Pack business my ass." I glared at Sam. He found this so fucking funny. I'd give him funny.
"Leah, that's not a question. Now observe one of the two emotions Carlisle predicted. Hostility. And not five minutes ago, she was weepy. I've been watching this since nearly three in the morning. Remember, do not engage her in an argument." Sam attempted not to smirk before looking around the room.
"How the fuck did she get pregnant?" Paul exlaimed with his hand up.
"Carlisle said she was having cycles and he already knew about it, but her cells weren't dying off so she didn't have periods. She was a wolf, the cells repaired themselves and didn't age. Looks like she's just as fertile as the rest of us. First time in two years and she's pregnant straight away." Sam discussed my body in front of the pack as though I wasn't there. I felt like a pet. I felt an unfamiliar blush creep up my cheeks and I demanded my body to will it away.
Quil immediately noticed and pointed laughing. "Oh my God! Leah blushing! I didn't know she was capable of being embarrassed!" I lunged at him. He flinched and then laughed as I bounced off him and whimpered.
"That's too cute! It's like being attacked by a kitten." He pulled me down by the waist grabbing my cheek and squeezing it like a child's. I slapped angrily at him with my hand that wasn't in a cast. It stung my hand.
"Quil let go. No manhandling the pregnant chick." Sam ordered. Disapointment reigned on the faces of the pack.
"You fuckers! I'll rip your faces off and shove them down your throats!" I spat at them. They ignored my threat.
"Oh come on Sam! How many times has she made sneak attacks and run off too fast for us to catch her? I just want to pin her down and get an apology. Promise I won't hurt her." Paul sounded exasperated and gestured toward me.
I jumped up and backed towards the front door defensively. I feared what Sam would agree to.
Jacob read my move differently. He responded by jumping up and standing by the door. "What the hell Leah! You were going to take what might be my kid away from me before I could even know about it? You're not going anywhere. I can't believe you're so cruel." That seemed to wake up Embry.
"You've seen in my head how I feel about not having a father and you would do this to your own child? I don't believe you Leah." Embry looked hurt. I felt a stab of guilt.
"Don't look at me like that." I felt a lump in my throat and tears burning my cheeks unexpectedly. A bunch of emotions crashed down on me out of nowhere and I was now sobbing with my shoulders shaking.
"Oh my God Leah's crying! Leah's like a normal chick!" Quil yelled.
"Shut up!" I spat at him and ran for the bathroom.
"I'm surpised how turned on I am by all of this." I heard Paul say followed by a chorus groans yelling at him "Seriously, she's still got that rocking body but she's all human now, she's not going to take a chunk out of my ass. Makes me realize just how hot Rachel is. Can I go yet? I want to see Rachel now."
As they carried on talking I realized how royally fucked I was. It was only a matter of time before Embry and Jacob each singled me out for a "chat". I really messed this up. What was I thinking on Sunday?
