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Chapter 1

7 months. It's been seven months since my fiancée James Diamond and his band mates moved to from Minnesota to L.A with Gustavo Rocque to go big.

James is a member of the new worldwide known band Big Time Rush. My brother Logan is one of his band mates. When our dad was in high school, he didn't make the best decisions. Logan is technically my half brother, and when our dad's class graduated, Logan moved to Minnesota with his mom, taking her last name while our dad married my mom. Logan is fine with James and I being together. I moved out to live with Logan and his mom when I was 7. That was the year I met James. We would "flirt" with each other every day at school. When we were 10, James and I finally got together. A little young, I know, but we didn't tell each other we loved each other until we were 15. When James and the boys left for Hollywood, we decided to keep our relationship a secret, so when I got back here to Forks, I said I was in Arizona with my mom. James proposed to me the minute before they boarded the plane. He said he would come to Forks and get me once they had an album out and he found the perfect ring. We also agreed that I should get a "boyfriend" just to keep up with appearances. There came Edward Cullen. He was my "boyfriend" for all intents and purposes. Yet every time I kiss him or laugh with him, I am thinking of James.

"Babe, something wrong?" And there was the catch, Edward doesn't know about James.

"No, I'm fine," I said. I took out my iPod with only 2 minutes left in study hall. I listen to Worldwide, the song James wrote for me. It is so sweet. Then, of course, the bell rings.

I put my iPod away, and walk out the door hand-in-hand with Edward, thinking about James.

"Love, you've been really quite today," Edward commented.

"Sorry. My mind has been somewhere else."

We met up with Edward's sister Alice, her boyfriend Jasper, Jasper's sister Rosalie, and her boyfriend Emmett, Edward's brother. As usual, Alice was rambling on with Rosalie about BTR.

"So, I heard that Worldwide was dedicated to someone on the album, but they won't release who it is," Rosalie said.

I froze. See, no one but my dad knew about James and the boys.

"How did you hear that?" I asked.

"On the boys' Facebook page. It said that yesterday was a special date for the band, and that the song described their feelings." That's right, mine and James's anniversary was yesterday. That is why we were texting all day.

"So it's about a girl?" Alice asked.

"Yep." Rosalie answered.

That is when we heard the harmonizing. Big Time Rush. Every girl in the quad, Alice being the loudest, squealed. The boys were standing by my locker. Before the fans had a chance to storm, my arms were around James's neck, my legs were around his waist, and my face was in his neck. I knew everyone was staring at us, but I didn't care. I had my James back. I was sobbing silently into his neck while he whispered that he was never going to leave me again. The next thing I knew, my lips were on his, the most amazing sensation I have felt in seven months. I pulled away and pressed my forehead against his, smiling happily.

"What the hell is this?" I heard faintly but wasn't paying any attention since my focus was on James who was down on one knee with the most gorgeous engagement ring I have ever seen.

"I told you I'd come back," James said, sliding the ring on my finger. "I just didn't think it would take this long."

"Hey!" Edward shouted and my arm was grabbed, pulling me away from James. "What the hell is this?"

"Get your hands off of her!" James yelled as he pushed Edward off of me and handed me to Logan, who welcomed me with open arms.

"Hey little sis," Logan said softly. "Nice to see you."

"Nice to see you too bro," I said.

"What are you doing?" James asked Edward angrily.

"Getting my girlfriend!" Edward yelled.

James turns to me with an amused expression on his face. "You didn't tell him?"

"I didn't know when you'd be back," I said while shrugging. "You could have called first."

"And that would have ruined the surprise," James said.

"And an amazing surprise it was," I said.

"What is going on?" Edward asked with his fists clenched, ready to punch James.

"We were never really together," I said, pulling away from Logan and standing next to James, taking his hand in mine, our fingers interlacing.

"What?" Edward asked, stepping forward.

"I have been with James," I said, gesturing to our hands and the newly placed ring on my finger. "He left seven months ago to become a band, and we've known each other since we were seven. Logan is my brother."

"Half-brother," Kendal added in.

"Whatever," I said, but my eyes held amusement.

"So wait," Alice said, suddenly joining the conversation. "Worldwide is about you?"

"Yep!" Carlos said proudly, tapping his helmet. "James missed Bella, so he wrote the song about her and dedicated it to her."

"I can't believe this," Edward said. "You used me!"

"I used you?" I asked. "Then how come Jessica saw you walking out of the supply closet with Tyler?"

It was Edward's turn to turn bright red. "What are you talking about?"

"Don't lie to me Edward!" I said. "You know what I'm talking about!"

"You bastard!" James shouted. I squeezed his hand to calm him down.

"Ignore him," I said. "He doesn't matter. Nothing matters but this." I lifted our hands up.

"Well come on!" Logan said. "We need to get you home to pack."

"Pack?" I asked.

"Duh!" Carlos said.

"You're coming back to L.A with us," James said. "Now that we're famous I don't want you anywhere else but by my side."

"Look at the love," Kendall said jokingly.

"What about Jo?" I asked. Kendall chuckled and turned red. "Aw!" I said. "Kendall's in love!"

"Shut it. You should see Logan and Camille."

"Kendall!" Logan said, scratching the back of his head and now was as red as Edward was.

"It's okay dude," Carlos said, patting his back. "Wait. I'm alone!" He fake-pouted and everyone laughed at Carlos's antics.

"Come on Bella," Logan said. "The limo's waiting."

"Hold on guys. I need to clear something up with them first." I pulled away and faced the Cullens and Hales. "Sorry I lied to you guys. I had to. If things were different, I would have told you the second I met you."

"It's okay Bella," Emmett said. "In a way we understand. You weren't trying to use us, just trying to get through the time without your boyfriend."

"Fiancée," James interjected.

After I talked to them, I turned to Edward.

"I understand why you used me Edward, but you will never understand why I used you. I hope one day you forgive me, because I really would like to be friends with you." After I had my say, I turned back to James and kissed him. "I love you."

"I love you too," James said.

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO," I heard Tanya scream. "You are supposed to be with me!"

"Get over it Tanya. James is with Bella and I can guarantee you he doesn't want some blond haired, fake boobed, plastic nosed slut!" And yes, that was Edward.

"Thanks Edward." I said.

"No problem Bella, and I have to thank you."

"Why?"

"Because without you, I never would have realized how much I love Tyler."

"Well your welcome, and I'm glad we can be friends." As I turned to walk away, I got the most brilliant idea.