You look so beautiful today
When you're sitting there it's hard for me to look away
I hated leaving her. Sure, being a Death Scythe was great. Hell, I could fly! But when it came to solo missions? I despised it. I was Maka's weapon! I can handle myself just fine by myself, but without Maka wielding me, it just felt wrong. Whenever I came home from the Death Room, I'd always have to tell her about some new mission I had to take. Without her. It was so hard.
Especially when she looked so damn amazing.
There she was, just sitting there, her emerald orbs full of happiness. And then stupid me would have to come in, with my bad news, and, for a moment, she'd look completely crushed. But she'd always wear a smile, say that it was amazing, that she hoped I did well. Typical Maka.
So i try to find the words that i could say
I know distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away
I swallowed, thinking of what I could possibly say to make this whole process hurt less.
"What's wrong, Soul?" She smiled, and I could feel my heart both skip a beat and shatter at the same time.
"I-I, uh, I got another solo job."
"Yes. I know that." The smile remained on her face, but I could see the hurt in her eyes.
"Huh?" She refused to meet my eyes.
"You got the job two days ago. You're not in Death City, Soul. You're in London. And, right now, you're talking to an image of me you cooked up in your head, because when you think you could have done better when you told me you had to leave. Again." Ah. That was it. She looked up at me. Y'know how I said my heart shattered? Well, now it ground into dust. The counterfeit Maka began to fade away. "Look around, Soul." Please dont say it. Dont say it. If she said it, even this fake, imaginary doll of Maka my imagination made, it would be official.
"You're all alone."
And I can't lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
Boom. I was back in London, staring at the empty space on the bench next to me. My chest began to ache. I wanted so badly to see Maka. The real one. I hated leaving her. I hated seeing her fake smile, just so that it wouldnt hurt so much. I hated it when she saw me off at the airport. I hated pushing down that part of me that wanted to run out of the plane, down the terminal, and back to her.
And I wanna come back home to see your face tonight
Cause I just can't take it
I couldnt deal with it. I know it makes me sound like Crona, but it's true. I mean, this isnt how normal relationships work! I'm supposed to be with my girlfriend at least once a day, right? They do say long-distance never works. I get freaked out when people say that. It scared me to think that Maka might want to leave me. I guess it's a good thing she's so stubborn.
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever
You look so beautiful today
It's like every time I turn around I see your face
There she was again. She was everywhere. She was in newspapers, on TV, signs, on one freaky occasion she was in my mirror. It's like everywhere I go is Maka. It even physically hurt me just thinking about her. Thinking about how she wasnt with me.
The thing I miss the most is waking up next to you
When I look into your eyes
Man, I wish that I could stay
Maka was just too cute for her own good sometimes. Especially when she woke up. I always teased her for her bedhead, but in all honesty, I thought it was adorable. I really missed waking up with her. I missed the little glow in her eyes. The eyes I could look into forever.
And I can't lie
Every time I leave my heart turns gray
And I wanna come back home to see your face
Cause I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever
I know it feels like forever
I guess that's just the price I gotta pay
It felt like there was two of me when I got off a plane, back in Death City. One me was thinking 'Awesome! I get to see Maka again! I missed her so much! I need to tell her about everything I saw' and yada yada yada, but the other me is thinking 'Ok, great, gonna see Maka, but then I have to leave her. Again.'.
But when I come back home to feel your touch
Makes it better
Then she'd just be right there, wearing a chauffer hat that was way too big for her (and making her look even more adorable, by the way), holding up a sign that read 'Shark Face'. It was kind of a tradition with us. It started when she went to visit her mom in... Somewhere, and Tsubaki had read this book about a long distance relationship, and began comparing me and Maka to the protagonists. Thus, the tradition was born.
When she was there, the two me's starting arguing, and my mind was overwhelmed with 'what if's'. But then she'd see me, her eyes would light up, and she'd hug me. It all went away after that. All I could think was 'God, I missed her'. That would be the best day I'd had all week.
Until that day
There's nothing else that I can do
Of course, it wasnt that part of the week yet.
But a guy can dream, cant he?
And I just can't take it
I just can't take it
Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
Because after all, it'd be worth it in the end.
But i can wait
I can wait forever
All the waiting...
When you call my heart stops beating
All the phone calls...
When you're gone it won't stop bleeding
All the loneliness...
But I can wait
It'd be worth it, if I could just be with her, even for a second.
Because I can always wait. Normally, I dont wait for anyone.
But for Maka?
I can wait forever
I can wait forever
I can wait forever.
