Okay so hello to all. Here's the disclaimer – no I do not own twilight or its wonderfully amazing characters, just the plot of this story. And yes Esme is in this story, rarely speaks, and she is Edward's mate. As for everyone else in the Cullen family, they have the same mates, except Carisle. Thanks for reading and please review when done. Let me know what needs to be worked on and tell me if you like it. But no flames and no harsh over the top review either please. Another is yes this is going to be rated m for mature – as in sex, language, possible violence. If you are under the age of 18 I will mention it before it happens in the future chapters. If you have a problem with it then skip it and go on. For this first chapter there is no sex, so sorry.
"You know Carisle, you're not the only one who thinks like you do."
Her voice so full of disappointment. "You are not the only one whose is lost and grieving. Why do you not believe my words Carisle? Are you really that selfish?"
"Why can't you open your eyes, yes this life is not exactly best, but is any kind of life."
"You will never understand this life. You were right when you said I didn't belong in this form of life, but you are wrong if you think I belong here. Right or wrong I will not be controlled. If I can not feel, then I am not my own, only then will I cease to exist."
"Traitor"
"Liar"
"How could you Carisle? You betrayed me."
Her turning away from me, head bowed in defeat. "I no longer believe you or any of your lies."
"I know what you do to yourself. How you sit in your corner, watching everything burn around you. Take your leave Carisle, know that the next time we meet, I will not be your sacrifice."
"-isle"
"CARISLE"
"Sorry, what were you saying?"
"I was saying, what's with the melancholy. It's unlike you."
"Just some bad memories. Nothing to be worried about Jasper."
Edward opened the door to Carisle's study roughly, slamming it shut behind him. "Jasper, I need to talk with him alone. Can you get everyone to go out for a little bit? I'm sure Alice will know when it's okay to return."
He took the chair right in front of Carisle's desk, staring hard at him.
"Sure, but we will want to know more later." Jasper left, not bothering to close the door.
When they could no longer hear them, Edward stood and began to pace. "You need to stop this Carisle. Like you said it's in the past, nothing you do now will ever change that. You need to let her go."
Carisle quickly stood and slammed his hands onto the top of his desk, causing it to crack under the pressure. "Don't talk about things you don't understand. You haven't got a clue about what happened, you don't know anything about her!"
"I've read your thoughts, I've heard her voice, the things she says, the things you thought but didn't say in return. You fucked up, I get that. You need to understand she's gone. No one, not even the tracker from the Volturi could find her. I think if she wanted to be found she would have made herself known along time ago."
"It was my fault."
"Then tell me. Explain to me what you did that was so wrong."
"I betrayed her, Edward. I promised I would help her escape them. How I would not allow them to control her."
"Her? Them?"
"The person I had come to love, my lovely little Isabella. And the ones who rule our kind, the Volturi. Isabella is a unique vampire. She was turned when she was only 16 by Aro himself. He desired her as a weapon, but also feared her power. Isabella has the ability similar to yours and Aro's, except on a whole know scale. She can get inside someones mind, read their thought and in plant her own. She-
"I get how that would be useful, but why would Aro fear her?"
"No, he didn't fear her, just her power. Isabella had other abilities of the mind. She could create a shield, both mental and physical. She could also move objects, but I have only ever seen her do this when she was enraged."
"Aro would have been after her in heart beat."
"Yes he was and he did get her, at least for a while. He took her from her home and turned her against her will, along with her weakling little brother. Aro then preceded to use him as a means to control her and it worked for a while."
"Aro would sink so low as to do that? How sickening. Why did his plan stop working?"
"Yes he would do anything for power. It stopped working when I showed up. We kicked it off from the start. We were inseparable. Aro began to think that with me there, she would be more easily contained. When I finally learned of her situation, I promised to do everything I could to help her and we started to plan ways of escape. Aro of course knew of my intentions, he knew what I felt, still feel, for her. On the night we decided to put our plan into action, Aro called a group meeting. When we got there, there was a young boy being held down beside Aro. Isabella began screaming, begging, fighting her way through the guard to get to them, but she got there to late. Aro had already had the boy decapitated and his body thrown into a pyre."
"The boy, was he her brother?"
"Yes he was. Aro had him transformed, but he was just a child, he was to weak. After is was done, Aro then passed the order that if she didn't want the same fate to befall me, she should learn this was her place. To be forever at his side, taking orders only from him. It was years before she began talking again, but she still acted as nothing more than a shell. I was helpless to do anything for her. When I went against Aro about it, only then did I begin to lose hope. That was when Isabella and I began fighting. It was about two years later I made the decision to leave. Of course this started an uproar with Aro, with out me by his side how would he control her. Isabella then went before him and told him, even he were to kill me, she would still leave. I broke her heart. I haven't seen her since that day. It has been over 150 years since I've seen her, held her."
"She blames you as well doesn't she?"
For that Carisle had no comment.
Okay so here it is the first chapter of my hopefully somewhat okay story. I am sorry for the rough feel of it, grammar and punctuation mistakes – I promise I will work on it for future chapters. The next chapter is in the process and I will try to have it up as soon as possible. I am thinking of making the next chapter in either Bella's or Carisle's view – maybe both. I typically don't like third person writing, but I felt it was the easier way to go to explain things. Please do leave a review – no flames please though, for I have low self-esteem as it is.
And I do plan on starting back up with my other story as soon as possible. I have just been having a large brain fart and no clue as to what to do.
went back a did a small revision
