I'm new to all this so please be gentle with me.
PROLOGUE
In one split second I knew I would never take Blaine back. Sure Blaine had wanted to explain his actions but that meant nothing to me now. The time to talk about any issues we were having was before Blaine cheated.
I thought we were on the same page. We knew things would change when I moved to New York and sure I got wrapped up in my new home and job, but surely that was somewhat understandable.
Hell if Blaine could just turn up in New York to tell he'd cheated, then why the hell couldn't he just turned up and talked to me before he had actually cheated.
I had, had offers too. Living in New York I'm never too far from cute available gay guys, but not once did it occur to me to seek comfort in anyone of them because I missed my boyfriend or hadn't spoken to him for a day or two. I mean I'd only been gone a few weeks.
I had, had complete trust in us to get through the temporary separation. And now he stands here thinking that giving me the details of what happened, I'm just going to forgive him and move on with our relationship like it was nothing.
Seriously he truly believes that it's just a minor hiccup and now he knows for sure that we're soul mates, what he did should be forgiven and forgot.
Now I'm not saying I was a saint in this relationship. I can see my faults.
I should have made time to talk and listen to what was going on with Blaine to, but I was so excited to be moving forward with my life and finding my way after my disappointment at being rejected by NYDA. Finally having a new dream after my other one died.
Everything in my life was new, new city, new job, new home, new responsibilities and new worries. I was on a sharp learning curve, paying rent and bills and being responsible for myself for the first time. I didn't have my Dad waiting at home. If I had a bad day it was all on me.
When I lived in Lima I used to help at the tire shop now and again, but I'd never worked full-time before and if I slacked off here I could lose my job and that wasn't an option. But I didn't dump any of those worries on anyone back home. Maybe if I had told Blaine some of my worries and less of the positives he wouldn't have had doubts. So should I be sorry for not wanting to worry my loved ones?
But for me everything was about trusting the person you loved and I could see clearly that Blaine didn't trust in my feelings for him the way I did in his. And in that moment I realized that we were truly over for good. I didn't need to hear his details , I'd lost my trust in Blaine forever and as I walked out of McKinley and away from Blaine, I promised myself that no-one was ever going to hurt me like this again.
CHAPTER ONE
"RACHEL, SANTANA, will you please move your ass' the taxi is waiting and if you make me late tonight I will never bring you to one of the shows again."
Santana waltzed past, "Don't get your panties in a twist we have plenty of time. Or don't you think we know about your obsessive compulsion for being two hours early for everything you do."
Rachel threw an angry glare at Santana, "It's okay Kurt we'll make it on time. We know how important tonight is for you and I promise to make sure Tana behaves herself." Rachel pass' following Santana down towards the waiting taxi.
"Hey, Berry I know how to behave thank you very much."
Rachel stop walking and put her hand on her hip, " Really? Have you forgot hitting on my directors wife at the after party when my show opened. Or at the launch party for the Kurt's in charge of, telling Anna Wintour about Kurt's loud sex life. Or the time you stalked my ex and accused him of drug dealing and there was ..."
"Okay I get it. But in my defence that guys wife came on to me and how was I to know that was the boss at Vogue, I always thought it was Isabelle and she loved hearing about stud muffins sexual exploits. And as for that Brody guy I was right about something being off with him and you know it. But I promise you both, no making pass' at unavailable women who may have their hubby in tow and no telling complete strangers about Kurt's kinky sexscapdes, cross my heart and hope to die."
Kurt stopped Rachel before she could speak again, "Thank you Santana. Hopefully if tonight's show goes well then I could have a good shot at Isabelle job when she leaves next month. I know Izzy already said it's in the bag but if tonight's a disaster then they may reconsider my strategy."
Rachel and Santana both put an arm around Kurt, "Look Lady Lips everything will be great and if that douche Chase tries to mess it up, I have my razors in my hair ready to take him out. And if that fails then me, you and man hands can go drink our weight in those posh cocktails you fashion types love and we'll sing it out and hopefully not get arrested for disturbing the peace again."
"Don't listen to her Kurt, it will be fine. You have every detail covered now let's go." All three climbed into the taxi.
Rachel and Santana stood at the bar watching as Kurt moved around the party talking. "You know he really is great at all this stuff. The fashion show for up and coming designers was amazing. He even manage to post the article straight to the site as the last model started to walk and he still looks so unfazed by it all."
"Our boy is good and no offence to Isabelle but when he takes over fully he is going to soar." Santana stared across the room, "Hey is that, that idiot Warbler over there?"
"Oh my gosh I think you might be right. Stuart...no Steve...emmm."
"Crab."
"No Santana, his name started with an S. I sure of it."
"Yeah I know . Sebastian... the crab from the little mermaid film."
"Yes that's it. I wonder what he's doing here?"
"That I can't answer. But what I do know is he hasn't taken his eyes of Kurt yet and I don't want him doing something to spoil my boys night." Santana strode of towards Sebastian as Rachel followed close behind.
"Well, well, well, long time no see. You finally crawled out from under your rock after getting busted for steroid abuse."
"Wow if it isn't the wicked bitch of the west and for your information the steroids had nothing to do with me. I walked away from the Warblers when that started. But it's nice to see that one; you're still ill-informed and two; stuck in the past. How is it waiting tables for a living and living?"
Santana was about to lunge for Sebastian when Rachel stepped in front of her, "He's not worth spoiling Kurt's night remember you promised him?"
Santana glared at Sebastian and walked off muttering death threats in spanish. Rachel turned and looked at Sebastian, "I would've thought you'd matured over the last few years?"
"She started it. I was minding my own business she dragged the past up and she is in no place to judge me and from what I've been told she did some pretty shitty things in her past."
"Yeah but you've got to admit, it seems strange seeing you in this setting. And you can't deny you and Kurt never really liked each other. Santana was just being protective, this night is important to Kurt and the last thing he needs is you making him feel worthless again."
Sebastian looked puzzled by her last comment, "Look you may seem to forget I apologised for what I did back in high school."
"Look you can stop the innocent act. Blaine never said who it was but we kind of knew it had to of been you because it happened so fast. It just had to of been someone Blaine already knew. Kurt has never got over what you and Blaine did. It really has affected every relationship he's had since. Well you can't call them relationships really. The poor guys never last longer than a month. As soon as they start to get serious he runs. I've told him it's not good for him acting that way but he doesn't listen to a word I say and you know Santana she encourages him because of how things ended with her and Britt then there was that Dani girl..."
Sebastian held up his hands, "Hang on, what are you talking about Berry? Me and Anderson?"
"Well, yes, you and Blaine." Rachel said matter of factly, "I mean Kurt had only been gone a few weeks before you jumped into bed together. I am however surprised that you didn't rub in his face that you had won."
"Wait you think I slept with Blaine? When?"
"Blaine and your senior year, Kurt left to start work here in New York and you and Blaine hooked up."
"No we didn't. Blaine told me they broke up because they could handle the long distance thing." Sebastian thought for a moment, "I always thought there was something weird about that. So Blainers leapt into bed with someone else as soon as Gay Face left town."
Rachel stepped into Sebastian's space, "Don't call him that. Kurt had been bullied about who he is ever since I've known him and I can't remember ever not knowing him. He doesn't need someone who is gay themselves taunting him when they should be supportive."
Sebastian looked at Rachel for a second, "You know you're right. We're not children anymore. But for your information I didn't sleep with Blaine behind Kurt's back. If I had, knowing me back then, I would've rubbed in his face in it like you said. So don't worry, I'm not going to do anything to spoil Kurt's night, in fact I think we may have to work together soon. I've been told the guy running tonight's show is taking over from the old senior editor when she leaves, I'm part of the firm that does all the legal work for Vogue, that's why I'm here tonight so Anna can introduce me to the new boss."
"Oh my god...he got it? You're saying Kurt got the job?..." Sebastian nodded, "Where is he I have to tell him?" Rachel span around looking for Kurt.
"Whoa, you can't tell him. You'll get me fired. I'm sure I saw him talking to Anna just after Santana started to threaten me in Spanish. So hold your excitement for a bit until the big announcement, then you can smother him."
Rachel looked back around at Sebastian, "Look I don't know why I believe you about Blaine but if you do anything that hurts Kurt I let Santana follow through with her threats."
"Look Rachel, what went on between me and Kurt happened years ago. I would like to think we've all grown up a bit since high school."
Everyone's attention was suddenly taken by Anna Wintour when she started to make her speech.
Kurt hurried over to Rachel not noticing Sebastian, "Did you hear that? I got it Rach, I got it. You are looking at the new Senior editor. How cool is that?"
"I know I'm so proud of you." Rachel pulled Kurt into a hug.
Sebastian cleared his throat, "Congratulations Kurt. Nice to see you again."
Kurt looked up and stared at Sebastian and without one word walked off headed towards Santana.
Sebastian went to call out after him but Rachel stopped him, "Leave him. Like I said we all assumed it was you. Kurt never said he thought it was you but his friends including myself were very vocal about who we thought it was. Finn and Puck wanted to hunt you down but Kurt just wanted to forget the whole thing so they left it. Most of us had graduated so we didn't have any contact with Blaine after. We concentrated on Kurt. For the first two years all he did was work. His original plan was to reapply for NYDA but he never did."
"Why because Blaine cheated? I may have been awful to him but even I could see he was born for the stage. I mean I watched the Boy next door performance hundreds of times once Blaine posted it to his Facebook. If he'd auditioned with that he would have got in."
"He did."
"What?
"He did audition with that. When he got to New York and was still intent on applying again, he was going to ask why he was turned down. But then Blaine did what he did and Kurt refused to talk about any of that stuff anymore. He just carried on making Vogue his new life and here we are."
"Wow, that's kind of sad."
Rachel shook her head, "Don't you feel sorry for him. He's the best at what he does and he's made a good life for himself doing something he loves. But I'll give you fair warning he's not the same person you first met back in Lima. If you screw up he will destroy you and if you don't believe me wait till he takes over from Isabelle and then go ask a guy called Chase."
"What did the guy do to him?"
"When Kurt started at Vogue Chase was really friendly but once he saw that Kurt was someone whose opinion Isabelle trusted and valued, he tried to sabotage Kurt at even turn. He would change articles Kurt wrote or their layouts trying to make Kurt look bad. Kurt having had experience dealing with smirky self-important guys before, always covered himself. He'd saved his articles and layouts and double checked it all before it got to Isabelle and Anna."
"Why didn't he just tell them what this guy was doing?"
Rachel started to laugh at a confused looking Sebastian, "Oh Sebastian. Kurt always said to his bullies that one day they would all work for him and believe me Chase will learn the hard way that Kurt isn't the weak person they think he is when they first meet him."
"Should I be worried then? Sound to me as if I'm number one on his list."
"You just need to talk to him before you start working together."
"Easier said than done, considering he just walked of after seeing me."
"Look give me your number and I'll talk to him."
"Okay give me your phone." Sebastian entered his number, "I swear I never laid a finger on Blaine and the last time I saw him we didn't even speak. And by looking at how Kurt's grown since I last saw him, I'd say Blaine was a fool to mess that up."
Rachel started to smile. "Oh really, you liking what you see mister?"
Sebastian smiled as he looked over to where Kurt was standing with Santana. "I'd have to blind and dead from the waist down if I didn't." Sebastian wrapped an arm over Rachel's shoulder and turned her away for Kurt's and Santana's gaze, "So Miss Berry he's single, right?"
"Very and you don't stand a chance."
"Get him to talk to me then we'll see. I let you go back to your friends now before Santana tries to kill me. You have my number, use it." Sebastian walked away.
Well there's the first part of my first story. Please let me know what you think, it's really important to me.
Should I continue?
All mistakes are mine. I know there will be mistakes I've missed so please don't be too harsh no-one is perfect.
I Am happy to answer any question so don't be shy ask away.
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