I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now
Watching. Forever, that was all I did. I watched, from behind corners, trees, swings, posts. That's all I did. I wish, sometimes, that I had the courage to speak up, just to speak to him. No… I was a coward, that's all I ever was, and all I ever will be.
Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all
Sakura, though, she was strong, bold. She had the courage to go up, go straight up there, and ask the guy she liked out. And she was rewarded, after bringing him back, she finally got to date Sasuke, while I remained in the shadows, just watching, as the one I loved died, ever so slowly, on the inside. Naruto… he would always smile.
I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow,it seems colder now
Laughing. Smiling. He always appeared so happy, just lightening the air wherever he went. He put up this act, and cheered Sakura and Sasuke on as they dated, never giving into grief. That is, on the outside. On the inside, you watch with eyes of sadness.
Where has my heart gone?
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything
Jealousy. It's such an ugly emotion, no one should have it. No one should have to put up with it. But I suppose I am as ugly as the emotion its self, ugly enough to feel it. No one else sees it, they all complement Neji-nii-sama and myself on our 'Hyuga' looks, but on the inside I am ugly. Jelousy that someone else holds your heart, envy at the fact that you will never see me. And self hatred, at the fact that I am too cowardly, even now, to approach you, distract you, try and help you.
O Jesus, King most wonderful
the conqueror renowned
the sweetness most ineffable,
entirely desirable.
Naruto… you fought… fought for everything. To get Sasuke back, to make Sakura happy again, only to hurt yourself at the end. You fought the Akatsuki, you approached the ones who hated you, you stood up to the whole village. You have so much strencth, both inner and outer, while I am too weak to even approach you.
"As the years pass by
Before my face,
As wars rage before me,
Finding myself
In these last days of existence,
This parasite inside me,
I forced it out.
In the darkness of the storm
Lies an evil,
But it's me."
I stand here, watching, as you interact with your teammates, training with them. Kakashi-sensei calls you over for something, and then they both kissed. You just watched, eyes sad, but a sad grin still on your face.
Where has my heart gone?
An uneven trade for the real world
Oh I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything
Stupid grin, you always wear a stupid grin. Always, at anything, you grin. Someone offers your ramen, you grin. Someone asks for your help, you nod and grin. Someone says they hate you. You grin. You always freaking grin. Someone forgets your birthday, you grin. Someone dies. You shed some tears, but still grin.
Oh where, where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
Oh I, I want to go back to
Believing in everything
I hate your stupid grin… but, at the same time, I can't help… but love it.
I still remember.
Maybe… I love you… because someone has too.
