AUTHORS NOTE: Yes a new story. And not a one-shot xD. Kaicloud is my personal obession. Don't like, don't read. Let me know what you think so far! :) XOXO
His arms were like a barricade around her. They showed no love, no caring. The love had long since gone. As she leaned against him, she was already planning. She couldn't keep him forever. The end would come soon enough anyways...and she would not be able to last through the pain. She knew she wouldn't. It would be easier to do it now..before feeling the real pain, she thought idly. It would be quick and painless, and she could stop pretending. Stop pretending he loved her. Stop pretending he wasn't going off to be with her any chance he got. Stop pretending that any of it mattered. He still came home every night to go through the same routine. It was almost robotic. Even when they were like this, lounging comfortably on the couch, watching a movie, it was still cold and emotionless. He only did it for her benefit, for he knew her fragile state. Did he know that this was hurting her even more? She doubted so.
Every sane thought in her head told her not to. Told her to think, she would be hurting so many people. Cloud will always feel guilty. Namine will miss you like crazy. And Riku and Sora, what about them? They both love you too! Don't do it. The voices wouldn't quiet. But that did not make Kairi's determination waver. She knew. It was pointless. After a few weeks, her death would merely be a memory to them. They'd get over it, like they got over so many other deaths. It was easy. They could forget about her. Cloud wants to leave anyways.. she told herself over and over. This would make it easier for both of them.
Cloud, even if he did not want to be with Kairi any longer, still cared about her. He was just more caught up in his fling with Tifa. At least she showed him how she cared, or at least that's what he thought. Kairi had stopped, so had he. They gave up. They no longer wanted to be together, or at least Cloud didn't. But he had no clue how to leave her. She's too weak. She can't handle it. If I have to, I'll stay with her forever, just so she can stay breathing. He had no clue she was already planning just the opposite.
As the two of them become lost in thought, they both slowly start to miss when they first met. When everything was innocent. When nothing was this bad. When color still rose to their cheeks every second they were around each other. When they were in love. That came to fade quickly after marriage, and neither had any clue why. The love just stopped, and they became like this. Cold.
The darkness covered the outside of the house. Pitch-black. It was well past midnight. But neither Cloud nor Kairi wanted to move. Kairi, barely paying attention to the movie they were watching, was groping for any more minutes she could have with Cloud, even if it were like this. Cloud, when it became too late to stay up any longer, leaned forward and whispered in Kairi's ear just loud enough for her to be able to hear. "We better go to sleep now Kai. It's really late..." He murmured softly, almost falling asleep. She nodded, and slowly broke out of his clutch, ambling off to bed. Cloud, following suit, drifted off into his own world again. He had no clue that tomorrow he would be fighting to keep the fragile girl in front of him alive, because of his actions.
