Monsters are real. and Ghosts are real too. They live inside of us. And sometimes they win. Sometimes it just isn't worth it; life isn't worth it. It's not worth all the pain and hurt you have to face on a daily basis. Sometimes you just have enough. You just give up on everything. You give up on life. You feel pain all the time. You just want it to end - you want the pain to stop. You don't necessarily want to die; you just want to stop the pain. You want to stop living in what feels like hell. Hurting people - you don't want to do that. Hurting the people you love and who love you is not something you want to intentionally do but it doesn't stop you. Inall truthfulness, you don't believe that anyone will miss you when you're gone. Suicide - it's the only way out. It's a one way ticket to freedom.
Even though you want to stop the pain so many people will miss you - you just don't realise it. People never realise what they have until it's gone. It's funny when you're dead how people start listening. It's all true though; so many people will miss you. People you wouldn't even realise care. You're parents may not be the best and your friends may not be perfect but no one's perfect. People will miss you but it doesn't stop you. It won't stop me. I have to do this - not just for myself but for them too. Once I'm gone they'll all be able to start to enjoy life more and not have to worry or put up with me. I just want the pain to stop and suicide... well, suicide is the only way out. If I don't go through with this now then I never will. I can't back out - I won't back out. I lay down on my bed and think about how awful my day has been. I think of all the times I've been let down by the people I love and the times that I've let them down. I think about all the times I've disappointed them in some way or upset them - just like that time I kissed Danny while he was dating Cat. I remember how horrible I felt and I just feel sick to my stomach. I get up off my bed and pace. I remember all the names I've been called and all the bad grades I've got. I remember all the times I've not only let myself down but other people do.
My mind is swarmed with negative thoughts. I have to get out of here while I've got the chance...
A:N- Hey guys. This is just a quick update. I have an idea of a story in which I am going to do different versions for each Tori, Jade and Cat. I wrote this because I feel like ya'll deserve an update and I want to see what you guys think about this. I want to know if you think I should carry on or just delete this and start a different multi-chapter. I'm working on the next chapter of 'A Happy Mistake' and it should be uploaded by next weekend. I'm also in the process of writing more one-shots for 'Jori Collection'. I have loads of ideas for multi-chaps but I wanted to try this one. Let me know if you like it or not and what you think by reviewing or PMing me. Thanks :)
