Diary
November 4, 2004-Day 43
Dear Diary,
Today, he exposed me. He exposed me to everyone. Now everyone looks at me like I'm a terrible person, and even if I am, it still burns a hole in my chest. If he would have just let me have the spot on the raft, let me runaway from it all, this wouldn't have happened, I would have been able to tell him how I feel. I don't know what its called. I try to figure it out every night, when I cry myself to sleep because he is leaving me, and going on the raft. I will probably never see him again. He's probably better off with out me, I screw up every good thing that happens to me anyway.
If I could just figure out that one word for what I feel for him, I could tell him. I could tell him how I have dreams about him, and tell him what I did, just tell him everything. Maybe I should just give him this diary, let him think of the word, but I can't do that, I need him to think I'm strong, even though I'm weak, and could break down any minute, I need to appear strong. Just be strong, be strong.
Sawyer put down what he had just read, walked over to Kate, and wrapped his arms around her. "I love you too Freckles."
A/N: Okay, do you like it? It just came to me. Oh yeah, in case your wondering, Kate smiles and kisses him and the whole 9 yards, but I liked that ending so oh well. Read and Review Please!
