Love&Life

I lay awake thoughts going through my head, do I or don't i? The clock is ticking minutes going past, my chest is tight, shallow breathes are coming out. Sweaty palms, racing heartbeat, shaking, feeling useless feeling weak, feeling there is no other way but to end my life. I walk into the en suite with the pills in my hand, locking the door behind my self ready to end my sixteen years of pain, but as I take the first few pills I start to cry, tears streaming down my face as I take more, more going in my body, the door knocks, I shoutout out who is it and the voice I hear reply is Stef, its 2:35 in the morning why is she awake why is she here? Stef starts talking to me on the other side of the door, telling me how she is worried about me, how much her life has changed for the better since me and jude came into her life, she continues to talk, I just listen to her speak. Time goes past, not sure how long but after a while I drop the pills and open the door to a worried Stef she hugs me and tells me how much she loves me, how proud she is of me and she leads me away to her and Lena's bedroom.

Maybe death isn't the only way out.

Hope you enjoyed this, i know its super short but i needed to distract myself as im feeling very suicidal today, Please read and review, I may add other chapter if people are enjoying it.

stay strong

-M