Ragna X Saya

Living Without You

Chapter One: Confusion

Ragna couldn't sleep. The harsh storm outside pelting the windows with rain, and the thunder shook the walls. Ragna looked over to look at his brother, who was sleeping peacefully. Ragna sat up, and walked into the main corridor of the church. Luckily the sister who looked after them had finished her prayers come time ago, and had gone to bed. Ragna sat down, head in his hands, and sighed.

"Man, what kind of life is this anyway?" Ragna had lived at the church for almost eighteen years now, living with his brother and sister, then Ragna started to think about something, "I don't really actually know everything about myself. What happened to my parents, and are Jin and Saya really my siblings? There's not much reason for me to believe that other then we look alike. Speaking of Saya, she's been acting pretty strange recently."

Ragna had noticed recently that Saya had seemed to been avoiding him, and spending a lot more time with the sister. Saya never got along well with Jin, who was jealous of her because Ragna spent more time with her because she couldn't really get along with Jin for some reason. Saya was very shy, and never really said much. Ragna did his best to understand her through more subtle means, and they got along very well. However, Saya suddenly began to avoid him, almost seeming embarrassed during supper.

"I wonder what could be wrong." Ragna sighed.

He heard light footsteps coming from behind him, and jumped to see Saya was leaning over his shoulder.

"Oh!" Ragna stood up, looking at her, "Saya, you startled me. What are you doing up?"

Ragna heard Saya mumble something he couldn't make out. He leaned in closer, cupping his hand with his ear, knowing Saya didn't like to talk.

"Sorry Saya, I didn't hear that. Could you say it again?"

Saya took a deep breath, a deep red visible on her face. Ragna did not know what was wrong with her. Suddenly, Saya hugged Ragna tightly, her mouth next to his ear.

"I...I love you Ragna." Saya whispered. Ragna wrapped his arms around her gently, hugging her back.

"I love you to Saya, of course I do. We're brother and sister after all."

"No. Not like that." Saya whispered again, tense and nervous, "I love you, Ragna, not as family."

Ragna pulled Saya off him, staring into her eyes. Wait, does Saya mean, she loves me as something more than family? Ragna could hardly believe himself, ashamed of himself as his heart began to beat faster. Why am I suddenly thinking of her like this?! It's wrong!

"I love you Ragna. You're so kind to me." Saya had begun to speak in a normal tone, surprising him, "Ever since you helped me cheer up after Jin was being so mean to me, I started to love you as something more. I want you Ragna. Please." Saya pressed her face against Ragna's chest, hearing his increasing heart beat, "It's not wrong to love Ragna. Will you accept me?"

Ragna's mind was in turmoil, his heart yearning for Saya, his mind fighting his desires, and Saya's eyes bored into his. Staring with a special love, and need, for him. Ragna's heart beat faster and faster, his own desire for her growing larger. If we both do really love each other, Ragna thought, Could it be allowed? Do I even care?

Ragna finally accepted his emotions. He loved Saya, whether she was his sister or not was irrelevant. Ragna placed his hands on her shoulders, making her jump and look up at him.

"Saya." Ragna began to draw closer to her ear, "I do love you."

They held each other gently, a soft kindness in their newly confessed love. The storm outside finally ceased, the rain still failing, but softer now. Ragna gently placed his hand on Saya's cheek, tilting her head up slightly to look at her. They looked into each other's eyes, then Ragna gently pressed his lips to hers. Saya breathed softly, causing Ragna to feel her warm breath inside his mouth. Saya began to kiss him in return, placing her hand behind his head, pulling him closer. Saya, being strangely forward, slid her tongue into Ragna's mouth. Ragna began to gently lick at her tongue, before sliding it into her mouth. Saya then withdrew her tongue, and sucked on his. After several long minutes, they stopped, gazing into each other's eyes.

Ragna looked back on those days. His coat brushing against the bushes as he walked through the forest. He should have done something to save her. To protect her from that bastard Terumi. Jin betrayed him, Terumi kidnapped Saya and made her into the Imperator Librarius. Ragna remember Saya's voice. It was changed, void of emotion.

"Terumi." Ragna muttered to himself, hot in his pursuit. Ragna was going to meet Rachel and Jubei, as they knew that Terumi had to die here, and now, "I will make you suffer for what you've done."

Ragna gazed at the city he never thought he would see Terumi return to. Kagutsuchi, the place where he had killed Lambda, who then gave him the idea engine, allowing him to almost defeat Terumi, but he fled after Terumi lost consciousness in order to break Rachel free of her bonds. It was time for Terumi to die by Ragna's hand, and he was prepared to get Saya back.