Hi guys! So this is basically what I've been working on for the past few months, which is why there has been ZERO updates. But I wanted to make something that was finished and get it over with. So this is technically finished, well all the way till Chapter 11 =.= So yeah this is actually one of the longest stories I've written so far so I'm proud of that XD
Second this is another one of those cliche Lucy leaves Fairy Tail cause of Lisanna blah blah. I can't stress exactly how important it is that if you don't like these kind of stories then don't read it. I've seen enough writers get so much crap because of this so no. Just no. I do acknowledge that criticism helps writers to become better, but half of these negative reviews are just people hating on pairings. So yeah.
Finally, I do understand that Lisanna is actually a really nice person and that Fairy Tail would never do any of this to their members, but you know what? This is a fanfiction. This ISN'T official at all. It's just my imagination and if you don't like it fine. I respect that. Don't read it then, it'll definitely save you energy. This is also a Nalu/Stinglu fic so if you don't ship either of them then don't bother reading either.
This is my first (Actual) Fairy Tail fanfic so things might sound either too detailed or not at all so go easy on me on that. Also, this happens before the Grand Magic Games and extends to it. I haven't decided if I want to include the Eclipse Gate. Thank you, for clicking on this story and I hope you enjoy :)
Chapter I (One Person to Destroy it All, One Person to Save it All)
Lucy's pov,
A bright light was bothering me as I slept. I cracked open my left eyelid and looked around. Weak sunlight was pouring the crack of my curtains, cold wind blew the curtains about. Making the sunlight look like jig saw puzzles of light. I yawned and rubbed my eyes. This was unusual, the sun usually never wakes me up around dawn.
I glanced at my alarm clock, the numbers 6:01 stared back at me in shining a bright red. I yawned again. Yup, this was definitely unusual. I crawled out of my sheets and looked out my window. The wind blowing my hair into my face roughly. The streets usually strewn with by-passers and noisy walkers were silent.
I sighed and stayed at the window for a bit. Thinking how peaceful it is. I mean I loved Fairy Tail's non-stop ruckus but the peace felt nice somehow, like a private show with me as the only audience. Sometimes it was good being away from the guild.
I sighed, thinking about all that time that we wasted on the island. It wasn't our fault really, but I can't help but blame myself. After all, my father had died waiting for me to come back. For me. He died without seeing his daughter for seven years. Maybe this was what they called revenge for the way he treated me after mom died. Or maybe it was just unlucky luck.
Thing have changed at the guild though. I can't really guess if it's a good thing or a bad thing. But it just feels constant tension. Like a string pulled to it maximum, any disturbance threatening to break it in half. I sighed and looked up at the grey sky, when little specks of white began to drift down from the heavens. I smiled.
The first snow fall I've seen in seven years.
Maybe this means a new beginning. A new year, a new start. I was going to live for my father's sake and Fairy Tail's sake. Cause I was a Fairy Tail Mage and nothing like a little lost time could bring me down.
I gently traced my Insignia on the back of my hand smiling. Memorising every detail of the moment I first got it.
I closed my window after a few minutes after getting a chill from the falling snow outside. Walking back to my room, I made the bed and when to brush my teeth. Getting dressed was harder as some of my winter clothes had been taken by the land-lady. I finally settled for my usual outfit but with a heavy dark cloak to protect me from the falling snow.
I closed my closet tiredly and sat down on my bed, gently stroking my leather belt. It felt nice to hold it again. It was then I realised I had forgotten breakfast and ran to my fridge. I was grabbing a carton of milk and glancing to look at the expiry date when a knock echoed through my apartment. I dropped the milk on the counter and walked to the door.
Opening it, I found the youngest of the Strauss family smiling at me. I smiled back. "Hi Lisanna." The white haired girl nodded looking a little solemn as her smile dropped. "Lucy I need to talk to you." I looked questioningly at the girl but nodded. "Come in." Lisanna nodded but didn't say anything. I gestured over to my bed which she sat and waited.
"What's wrong?" Lisanna was silent for a few minutes before looking up at me angrily. "I want you to leave the guild Lucy." I frowned. "What?" I asked hoping that I had misheard her. "I, want you to leave the guild, Lucy." Lisanna repeated. I frowned. "Lisanna... You know I can't do that." Lisanna glared at me, tears in her eyes. "Why not?!" I stepped back.
"Lisanna, what's got into you?" I asked gently trying to pat her shoulder, but she shrugged me off. "I can't do this anymore, Lucy!" She screamed sobbing. "Lisanna..." "I can't do this anymore Lucy, YOU HAVE TO LEAVE!" I shrieked. "Lisanna, what's this about?!" Lisanna scowled at me. "Don't act like you don't know. I love him Lucy, I've loved him all my life. Y-you can't take him away from me."
I stared in horror as it hit me what she was saying. Natsu. Natsu, she's talking about Natsu. I blushed furiously. "Lisanna... I don't.. I don't..." Lisanna cut me off pointing her finger at me. "Lucy, you can lie to them, lie to my friends, my family, even yourself. But. Not. Me. I've known him all my life, you... You've haven't even begun to know the depths of the man, Natsu Dragneel." I flushed and stared at the floor.
No, no, no, no she is taking this way to seriously. I don't like Natsu.. Do I? "Lisanna. I don't know what your talking about. I don't like Natsu. He's my best friend and partner and that's it." Lisanna glared at me viciously. "I don't care, ever since you arrived at this guild you've been nothing but a problem. You threw them in danger because of your petty father, your keys and finally because your too weak to solve your own problems, you worry them with selfish acts. You don't deserve them." Lisanna bellowed, red faced.
I opened my mouth to defend myself further but I couldn't anymore. Because she had already cut me off. Lisanna's hand came in contact with my cheek, leaving a red mark behind. "Get out of my home." Lisanna whispered her eyes usually bright blue now dark as burning coals.
Lisanna then grabbed me and kneed me to the ground. I didn't even have time to react before she grabbed my keys and threw them aside. Then she began to kick me and pummel me with attacks, the end of a kick was the beginning of another. I couldn't withstand the pain.
"Lucy Heartfilia, you will die before you lay a finger on Natsu Dragneel or my family again." She yelled before landing another one of her vicious kicks to my side. I screamed in pain as the pain coursed through my stomach. "S-stop." I whispered. "Never." She yelled viciously.
She kicked me again harder on my left arm. I winced and drew it to my side. But the pain was too much to bear. It wasn't long before the world disintegrated to black.
"Luce? Lucy?" A voice whispered, to my foggy head it sounded clear at one point then cloudy after. I couldn't tell who it was. "Lushi, come on wake up. We bought fish..." Another voice begged. I groaned inwardly. I was too comfy right now. Why would I want to wake up. "Luce, come on.. You gotta wake up." The first voice cried. I stiffened. Crying? Natsu?
I snapped open my eyes to white light which slowly melted into two figures. Or rather a figure and a cat. "Natsu? Happy?" I groaned as I lifted my arm to my face. I winced as I tried to move my arm. "Don't Lucy, it's going to make it worse." I groaned again as my body began to throb with pain.
"What happened Lushi?" The blue exceed whispered teary eyes. I froze as memories of Lisanna declaring her love for Natsu came back. I was silent. "Yeah what happened? Why are you all beat up?" Natsu asked worriedly. I frowned but closed my eyes and tried to push myself up. "It's nothing Natsu."
Natsu laughed tightly. "Doesn't look like nothing Lucy." I frowned. "It really is nothing, I just slipped that's all." Natsu shook his head. "You can't slip and break your arm and ribs at the same time. And there's someone else's scent here, did someone break in?!" Natsu asked getting angrier by the minute.
I shook my head frantically. Crap I should have known, he could have smelt Lisanna a mile away. So why couldn't he now? "Natsu, it's nothing." I muttered tiredly as I got up trying to push him away not even bothering to yell at him for coming into my house again, without me inviting him in. The pink haired dragon slayer froze. "I think your lying." He whispered angrily.
"What?" "I think your lying to me Lucy. Don't. Lie to me." He said firmly. I stared at him. "Natsu..." He began to walk towards me slowly. "Lucy, what happened, I'll beat him to a pulp for hurting my nakama." Natsu bellowed. I backed away slowly, trying to laugh. "You can't kill my floor Natsu."
"Lucy, I know it's not your floor." Natsu said surprisingly seeing through my lie almost instantly. Was I really that bad? Suddenly I had my back to my bedroom wall. "Natsu... Please. I.. Slipped." Natsu wasn't paying attention and slammed his fist into my wall. His face close enough I could feel his breath on my cheek.
"Lucy, tell me who it was." I glared back at him, knowing full well the consequences are when I stared back at him. Standing my ground as much as he was. "No." His dark onyx eyes bored holes into my forehead. "Your a terrible lier Lucy." He muttered before grabbing me and slinging me onto his back.
"Put me down!" I yelled punching him. He didn't budge and called for Happy. "Let's go buddy, we're going to find who did this to Lucy." Happy brought his hand to a salute. "Aye sir!"
We arrived at the guild five minutes later,
Natsu slammed the guild's wooden doors open with a bang, shocking the rest of the guild members. Natsu dropped me onto the floor roughly and stood up. "I hope you took care of her Lisanna." Erza said into the silence. I looked up and stared.
Erza? "Erza, someone attacked Lucy!" Natsu was yelling at the red haired re-equip Mage. Erza scowled. "What are you talking about, Lucy was the one who attacked Lisanna." Natsu focused his eyes on Lisanna and noticed the cuts and bruises that resembled fingernail scratches.
"Natsu... I'm sorry, I was weak. I couldn't fight her. I had went over to her house to say hello but when I got there, she started hitting me for no reason.." Lisanna already shaky tone drifted off as she got off her chair wobbly.
Natsu stared at her wide-eyed then back at me.
I stood up shaking on my own knees staring at the guild's disbelief. I tried to laugh. "I..I... You don't understand I had to..." I said noticing that my own voice was actually shaking. The guild was silent until Erza stood up. "Lucy you should leave." I stared at my friend with wide eyes. "Erza..." "Leave!" Mirajane screamed, her face red with fury.
I backed away towards the guild door in horror as I stared for the first time at the receiving end of Fairytail's true power. "Come on.. Guys you can't believe this." Gray looked away. "Get out." He muttered. Wendy looked at us frantically and ran to the back of the guild. "Levy, please." I cried as Erza headed towards me with her Heaven's Wheel Armour. Levy shook her head, tears flying out of her eyes. "You are not my friend."
Finally my eyes landed on Natsu. He stared at me half in horror and half in disgust. "Natsu, you don't understand..." "Understand what Lucy? That your a traitor, that you would hurt my friends. Who else are you going to turn on next? Me or Erza? Or even Wendy. Get out. I never want to see you again." He yelled, eyes blazing. Erza glared at me pointing one of her many swords at my neck. "Get out, and never come back, coward." I gulped, holding the tears from my eyes, I stood up wobbly and met Erza's gaze. "She's lying Erza." I uttered as my last defence. "OUT!" Erza bellowed.
I nodded and left holding my tattered cloak to my chest, letting the tears fall as I ran out the guild's doors.
I ran for what felt like hours, my brain desperately saying that this was all a dream. But the wounds were real, physically and mentally. I couldn't stop the tears from coming. It was true, I was weak, useless.
I didn't deserve them.
When I finally arrived back to my apartment I collapsed onto my bed sobbing until I had no more tears to cry. My heart was torn apart and begged for tears to relieve it, but I didn't have any more. They were all gone.
It was then when I had, had enough of crying. I had to do something, and that something wasn't crying over spilled milk. I summoned Virgo from the Celestial Spirit world and told her to pack my things. Everything I would need to never see Magnolia again.
As she packed I glanced through the thousands of letter I had written to both my parents. I sat down at my desk and stared my novel manuscript. Realising it was for nothing.
Tenroujima.
Fairytail.
Magic.
Writing.
None of it mattered. Because I left a piece of myself back at the guild that I knew they had all stolen. My heart.
They were my heart and soul, my light when everything was dark. And to realise that the light was the very thing to devoured me, kills me like nothing else.
I slowly picked up my pen and stared at the blank paper in front of me. I couldn't tell my mother this, it would just make her unhappy. What joy would it bring her, to know that her daughter was unhappy. But I picked up the pen and wrote something anyway. It was then I promised, no swore to myself that I would never be beaten like that again.
They maybe family. But family doesn't beat you to a pulp and kick you out of their house. No, it was more than that. Family doesn't betray you in a single blink of an eye cause someone said so.
The next day,
I made my bed for the last time that day. Virgo already had all of my stuff in the Celestial world and was waiting for me. All I had to do know was leave. I glanced one more time at my apartment and frowned at all the memories it held. Tears threaten to be spilt so I left my keys at the land lady's hands quickly. Telling her about some of what happened. She pat me on the back and told me not to hurt myself.
"I liked you girl. You were a good tenant." She smiled for the first time to me and handed me this month's rent. "You'll need it more than I do." She gruffly and pushed me out of her office.
I stumbled into the street, looking back as I left the land lady's office. I turned around wanting to thank her but she was already gone.
Later,
It was different arriving the next day at the guild. It was really early so no one was there yet except for Master. I walked in through the backdoor just in case.
"Master Makarov?" I whispered. "Why, hello Lucy. " Master smiled looking up from the mountains of paperwork on his desk. I sighed and looked down at my shoes, not bearing the master's cheerful smile. "I.. I need you to get rid of my Insignia. I'm.. I'm leaving the guild." Master broke his carefree smile and and just stared.
"Child, you can't really be saying..." "Yes, master I want to leave Fairytail. You don't understand... Something happened yesterday and... And I'm not sure... No I know I can't have live with it." Master frowned shocked. I sighed. He shook his head. "If that is what you want."
I looked up at him shocked as well. "What?" "I asked. "If that is what you want. I don't know what happened yesterday because I had to leave for something important but if it really makes you uncomfortable you may leave the guild. But remember you will always be welcomed." Master said solemnly.
Tears made their way down my cheeks. "Welcomed, heh. Not really." Master smiled at me gently. "I hope you find a better life in another guild someday that my guild could not provide." I nodded. "It's not your fault." "They are my children, you are my child. I will always take responsibility." I looked down at my shoes.
"Thank you for respecting my decision." Master patted me gently on my back and took away the Insignia. Suddenly he swept me into a hug. His tears falling onto my cloak. "I hate it when one of you brats leave." He whispered. I hugged him back softly. "Don't worry, I promise you'll see me again." He nodded.
I frowned inwardly. This was a promise I knew I couldn't keep. "Goodbye." He nodded and I opened the door and left. I didn't look back.
I left that day,
With one promise,
That I knew I couldn't keep.
But what I could I do?
I couldn't leave a crying old man alone.
Cause in stark truth. Aren't we all crying inside anyway?
Normal pov,
It was late morning in the guild hall, everyone was busy eating, drinking and talking, getting on with their business. It seemed like everyone had forgotten what happened yesterday.
Cana was drinking with Macao and Wakaba, both so drunk that they couldn't seem to form coherent sentences. Erza was sitting with the rest of Team Natsu eating her cake. Wendy was talking quietly with Carla no doubt whispering their opinions on Natsu and Gray's fight.
"You wanna go flame-brain?!" Gray yelled his eyes blazing with white fury. He threw of his shirt and got into a fighting stance in front of the Fire Dragon Slayer. Natsu growled. "Anytime stripper!" Natsu yelled back, lifting his fists up in a fighting position.
They were both going to land a punch when the whole guild fell silent.
Makarov stood solemnly in the middle of the guild, eyes blazing. His anger barely contained. "YOU ARE ALL FOOLS!" He yelled, eyes wide and threatening. "What are you talking about Gramps?" Natsu asked putting his fists down to his side. "YOU IDIOTS, DO YOU EVEN KNOW YOU'VE DONE?!" Makarov bellowed.
Erza suddenly stood up. "Master... We couldn't.." "ERZA, YOU DISAPPOINTED ME." Makarov yelled, jabbing a finger at the Red Haired Mage. "YOU OF ALL PEOPLE." Erza sat back down, her gaze inverted towards the wooden floors.
Natsu stood up and stood in front of Erza protecting her from Makarov's burning gaze. "What's wrong Gramps?" Natsu asked softly. Makarov met Natsu's eyes, his face stained with tears.
"Lucy left the guild this morning." Makarov whispered. The guild gasped in horror. Lucy. Left?
Natsu gasped wide eyed. "No, no. Gramps you gotta be kidding me." Makarov didn't even react, his hand tightening around a piece of paper. "She gave me this letter this morning. It was addressed to the guild but I read it already. She said we were her family. She trusted us with her life." Makarov then turned away leaving the crumpled up piece of paper lying on the floor.
For a few minutes the guild was too shocked to even touch the paper. Natsu was the first one who picked it up.
He smoothed the paper on a nearby table and slowly began to read out the letter to the rest of the guild.
To the guild, Wendy, Levy, Erza, Gray, Lisanna and Natsu
By now you should notice I'm gone. This letter isn't me apologising if that was what you were expecting. This letter is me telling you the truth.
But first of all, I would like to say thank you. Thank you for making me realise, that no matter how much you trust someone they will turn their backs on you. That' family' is a fairytale story we tell children before their bedtimes. That happy endings don't come to people like me. Don't worry, I understand that now.
Second, I left the guild not by Erza's words or even Lisanna's. I left because I wanted to, I wasn't going to stay at a place where I am not welcomed.
Thirdly, I didn't attack Lisanna. Most of you are probably thinking that I'm lying, that I'm trying to save myself. But I can't loose anything else that you haven't taken away from me. I am not risking anything anymore. Cause I don't have anything anymore.
Finally, I wish the guild a better life. That's what you wanted right? A life without me. It's not like I've been here that long, I'll save you guys now after you've saved me so many times.
To think it was from myself, how ironic.
I will not say who attacked me or what happened that day, because that is my final gift to you, my ex-family, to you Lisanna.
But mark my words Fairy Tail, I will never be pushed around like that again. The next time you see me will be the day when justice will be payed. And trust me, you wouldn't like it.
Stay alive Fairytail, I won't let anyone but me destroy it.
Till then Fairytail,
Lucy Heartafilia.
Natsu finished reading the letter stunned silent. The rest of the guild was laughing nervously, not sure nether to take the Celestial Mage seriously. They knew in truth she was weak. But the way she sounded was anything but her old self.
Team Natsu looked at each other blankly for a few minutes. Dazed by their former friend's words. They hadn't just let their friend down. They had put the guild in danger for a future threat. Something even Erza knew was something not to be messed with.
Lisanna frowned. "Natsu?" Natsu looked up at her anger evident in his eyes. "What have you done?" He muttered. His tone ice cold. "Natsu, you can't really believe this. She's trying to save her own neck." Lisanna stammered. Natsu shook his head. "A lier doesn't cry." He said holding the letter up and pointed to the place where three wet tear drops had fallen and smudged the ink.
"Natsu, that's enough." Erza began but Natsu cut her off. "She did to us Erza. She made Lucy go away." Erza nodded stiffly. "I know." "It's not just her fault, don't blame it on Erza and Lisanna. We're part of this too." Gray snapped at Natsu. Taking Natsu seriously for once.
"But... I have my reasons.." Lisanna began. "And what's that Lisanna? What could have possibly been so important?" Lisanna stiffened. She knew this would happen. She knew it.
And she couldn't blame anyone but herself.
She stared at her feet, her cheeks bright red, tears falling down to the wooden floor boards. This wasn't suppose to happen. No, no, no. Her Prince Charming was suppose to sweep her off her feet as soon as he lost sight of her rival. Why wouldn't he want her?
Lisanna stared down at her feet in utter shame. She did this, Natsu was right. She hurt someone by being selfish. But what else could a love-struck girl do? She loved him and no on else. She couldn't bear the thought of him loving someone else.
"Because... Because..." Natsu started to look more and more impatient. "You know what? It doesn't matter, cause I'm going to bring her back." he said and began heading towards the guild doors. "NATSU!" Lisanna found herself yelling. Her feet flying forward to catch up to the Dragon Slayer. "Wait!"
Natsu stopped but didn't look back. They were outside the guild now. The doors clicked close with a resonant bang. "Wait." Lisanna uttered again. Her heart beating against her ribs. "The reason I had to hurt her, Lucy. Was because... I.. I.. I love you." Lisanna whispered.
Natsu looked back at her, his eyes sad, unmoving. "Natsu." Lisanna said again, her eyes tearing up again as she realised the severity of what she had done. And she didn't even get the guy, it was all for nothing.
"I knew it." Lisanna whispered after five seconds of silence. "I knew it!" She said it louder this time. "You love her don't you? Not me, not anybody else. You love her." Natsu couldn't help but laugh. "I don't love her Lisanna." Lisanna was getting angrier by the minute.
"Then why are you trying to find her?" Lisanna asked. Natsu shrugged. "Because I can't live knowing that she's not here." "Then what am I?" Lisanna asked fiercely jabbing a finger at her heart. Natsu shook his head. "Your still my friend Lisanna. But we can't... We can't be what you wanted."
Natsu dropped his arm after finishing his sentence and turned away. "I'm going to go find her, I'm sorry Lisanna."
Lucy's pov,
I was still in Magnolia when I heard the yells and explosions. One word rang in my head and I knew, they had read my letter.
I couldn't help but grin, these people are such idiots. Especially Natsu.
I looked behind me pulling my cloak tighter around me, I noticed the cries were getting closer and it hit me. Natsu could still smell me. I groaned and slapped my forehead. "Baka." I muttered to myself and began to run. It was a stupid move I knew. Natsu could easily outrun me even at my fastest.
But I did it anyway.
Far away he was yelling my name ferociously. "LUCY! LUCY WHERE ARE YOU?!" He was screaming. I laughed, I wasn't going to let him drag me back to the guild. He was stubborn, but I'm even more stubborn. If anything I'll keep running as long as he can't catch me.
"LUCY!" I looked behind me and I realised. He found me. His feet skidding against the stone pavement. "LUCY!" He was screaming I turned away and ran faster. Rounding several corners. Outrunning him wasn't an option this time. I had to find something else.
It took me a few minutes when I realised where I was running to, I was running to my apartment. I guess where it was, had been imprinted into my brain.
I ran even faster even though a stitch was running it's way down my side. "STOP!" Natsu yelled. His hand inches away from my cloak. I ignored him running straight into a dead end. "Lucy?" Natsu asked as he stood in the alleyway with me. I stepped backwards breathless towards the wall, spotting the dumpster tucked in a corner.
"Lucy!" Natsu said harsher. "I'm not going back Natsu." I snapped coldly. He shook his head and grabbed onto my cloak.
Time stopped as I realised, I was doubting my leave, because of my partner. Because of him. "GOD DAMN IT LUCY!" He screamed pulling fiercely at my cloak. "Let me go!" I hissed. Natsu looked even more determined then. His eyes blazing brightly with determination to get his friend back.
"COME BACK LUCY, YOU CAN'T JUST LEAVE US." I was silent, he was lying. He was lying. No one wanted me back. They all hated me. Every single one of them. "I can. And I will." I whispered. I unfastened my cloak and looked back at him. "Stop chasing me Natsu. It's no good chasing someone who doesn't want to be caught." I said not meeting his eyes.
He was silent, the cloak blowing in the wind. "Why are you doing this Lucy?" I smiled and chuckled. "Because I'm tired of family, tired of friendship, tired of you." I jumped up on the dumpster and climbed over the wall behind it. I didn't mean any of it, I knew but I also knew that my words weren't just hard to get out for me. It had hurt him too.
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