Rebuilding
Spoilers: Season 1, Season 2, Season 3(Olivia, The Box, The Plateau, Do Shapeshifters Dream of Electric Sheep, Amber 31422, 6955 kHz, The Abducted, Entrada, Marionette promo).
Disclaimer: If I owned Fringe...Olivia would have made it home with Peter in Over There Part 2 instead of this insanity
It cut like a knife, every word he said to her and now hours later after she had bagged up most of her stuff and after she had cried till she couldn't anymore, Olivia knew deep down in her heart that she couldn't NOT forgive him.
He told her that her alternate had begun to fall for him too and at the moment that had cut, her only reassurance was the look in his eyes when he said it was her he cared for, the one he had worked with for years. His eyes held honestly and love, that was the only thing that made her know he was hurting deeply as well.
Olivia noticed something in the corner and picked it up, she found it was Peter's notebook. He always seemed to have one on hand to write random things down. She opened it to the last page and found an entry from the night she sent a message to him.
Olivia is stuck on the other side, everything I have enjoyed with her had not been with her. They are so much alike but so different, I knew and yet I denied it because I wanted to believe that I was the reason for the change.
Olivia, my Olivia, said I was one of the smartest people she knows but how could I be a genius when I can't even tell its not the woman I love? How can I look her in the eyes, my Olivia's eyes again? How can I have a future with her, have all that I imagined when I betrayed her before we had a chance, with her alternate?
My dream of a life with Olivia: a wonderful crazy marriage full of arguments and love, daughters with her eyes, maybe a son, and a lifetime of happiness has come to a halt and possibly will never happen. How can it when she's stuck on the other side and when I've cut her so deep before she even knows it?
I've never loved anyone like her before, I don't even love my mother...mothers, like I love her. When we met, it was hate at first sight and for some insane reason I stayed. I was a nomad, someone who conned people for a living and I was good at it but in a second everything changed and I became the person I was meant to be...Olivia did that.
I want to believe I can be the man who won't hurt her, won't betray her like her step-father, like John and Lucas but I already have and she doesn't know it yet. The only thing left to do is bring her home and tell her the truth, because there have been enough lies between us.
Perhaps I can salvage our relationship with truth instead of running or lying, of everything in the world...of everyone, Olivia is the only reason to stay, she's my life and perhaps even my soul. I now know that no matter what world we are from or how much betrayal occurs...I belong with her.
I will get you back Olivia, even if it takes my last breathe to do so...you will live even if I die. You will see Ella's laughter and Rachel's smile, you will find satisfaction in your job once again even if it means I take your place. However, if I do take on the machine, I know I could change things and destroy that world and not ours. I love YOU my Olivia and I vow to get you back, that's my promise to you.
Olivia closed the book but tipped the book in the process, a picture fell out and she picked it up to find it was of her and Peter from before Jacksonville. He's been trying to get something from her and his arms were around her, tickling her sides as they both laughed.
It started the water works all over again and she turned over the picture to find something written on the back in Peter's handwriting.
When deep down in the core of your being you believe that your soul mate exists, there is no limit to the ways he or she can enter your life.
Olivia knew at that moment he considered her his other half and that everything that had occurred was cutting at him too. He's hurt her without knowing, loved her without loving her and was willing to sacrificed everything, even his own life, for hers.
Getting up, Olivia grabbed the house phone and quickly hit speed dial. The phone picked up and she was silent as his voice came on. "Hello? Hello?"
"Peter..."
She heard him take a deep breathe in, "Olivia, are you alright?"
"I need you Peter, can you come get me...I can't stay here any longer."
"I'll be right there, Liv..."
"I know, I forgive you...just please come get me."
With that she hung up and sat by the door, only two things in her hand as she waited: a picture of Ella and Rachel and his notebook, the picture tucked safely inside.
She waited and ten minutes later she heard the knock and then a key turning in the lock, it took her a minute to remember that shortly after her first cross over she'd given Peter a key. The door opened and he looked down at her, dressed in the hospital scrubs she had wore home a week before.
He bent down next to her, "do you need anything?"
She shook her head, "I have nothing here that's mine anymore," she looked at the walls. "It's no longer a home or sanctuary for me...just a reminder of everything that has happened. I'll come back and get what matters most later." She looked at him, "I just need to get away."
"Okay, come on." He held out his hand and Olivia took it, he pulled her up.
Neither noticed the small whit stick that laid between the garbage can and the wall in the bathroom that had only one word on it: Pregnant.
The Other Side
On the other side, Olivia Dunham sat at the DODH waiting when the Secretary came in with Brandon.
"How are you Olivia, we haven't had a chance to talk since your arrival back."
"I'm good, I'm glad to report Project Gemini was a success."
The Secretary looked at Brandon and he nodded, "the embryo is approximately two weeks gestation and looks rather healthy, if you'd like to know...all DNA scans show that the sex of the embryo is male...its a boy."
"Good, you will be compensated for this Olivia, once the child is born you'll hand it over to me and return to your career at Fringe Division."
Olivia eyed him, "sir, its my child too...just because its a mission doesn't mean I won't care for my son. I know our agenda, I know what our mission is and every day I will remind him why he is here and that is to save the world, our world."
"And what will you tell him of his father?"
"That he betrayed his world for another, that he'd rather stay for a woman on the other side then be with him. His anger at that world will grow daily from that and that is what will make him want to destroy that world."
The Secretary nodded, "very well, you'll keep the child and raise it but I want regular updates and to see the child on occasion."
"Understood sir, its the only link you have left to your son and you don't want to loose it."
In the locker room after changing, Olivia sat down and let a hand fall to her belly. She closed her eyes and remembered when the baby was conceived, it had been two weeks before, right as she had started to fall for Peter.
"Your father would love you, he just loved her more...more than both of us." She opened her eyes and smiled. "Just know one day he will pay for that betrayal at your hand, his own son's hand. He'll wonder in his last hours as he holds her close who was managing to destroy it all and he'll never know it will be his ultimate betrayal...his son." Looking down she smirked, "so let him have a few years with her because in the end...when he chose her over us, he made his choice to die just as if he was one of them."
A/N: That cold hearted bitch...not that we didn't already know that. Project Gemini or the baby Alt-Livia has with Peter will be explained later on and just for the record...she did start to fall for him and is bitter he still chose Olivia over her, and Peter does NOT know about the baby.
As for Peter and Olivia, its a long road to recovery but they'll manage.
It'll be only three chapters, this one, one about a year later and then another a few years into the future. Let's just say that Alt-Livia does something that the Secretary least expects.
