"Darry! Darry!,"

Ponyboy screamed as he ran through the door slamming it behind him.

It had been at least four months after Johnny and Dally died and the thought still rest in everybody's mind.

"what the heck are you yelling about kid, I'm in the kitchen," darry said in an angered tone.

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"darry I got an A on that assignment Mr. syme gave me, I'm gonna pass!" pony screamed with joy.

Darry's eyes widened into soft gentle circles almost like johnny's.

Johnny pony thought

don't remember just don't remember johnny

he had been the one most turned by johnny's death he still hadn't gotten over the thought that johnny killed the soc

it was me not johnny me, why must all these things end up having to be in johnny's hands

"pony, you okay? Your looking kinda funny?"

darry's words snapped him out of his thoughts "oh uh yeah I'm fine darry notin really"

darry tried to check his forehead but pony scooted backwards before he could even put a single finger on him

he looked behind him

"wheres soda?" he asked

darry sighed "been cooped up in the bedroom this whole time don't know whats wrong with em" he stared down at his feet "maybe you can get him to come out"

"why me?" he asked sounding confused

"look kid just go check on em" darry said starting to sound frustrated

"okay okay I'm going" gee sure don't wanna start up trouble with darry again, he thought

pony knocked on the door "soda? You in there?" he asked

he was silent for a moment but then pony heard a quiet answer "yeah come on in pony" he whispered trying to hide the sorry sunken in his voice

ponyboy opened the door to find soda sitting on the floor with an envelope in his hands. It wasn't the one he gave sandy either this one had purple ink on it. Almost like the pen sandy used. "whats that" he asked as he walked over to soda's side

soda sighed and the room was quiet for a moment "a letter from sandy" he said as he clutched the letter tighter in his hands, pony could see the sweat from his plams on the envelope as it became wrinkled and almost torn

pony had to lean in closer just to hear the words coming out of soda's mouth, he tried to bring out something good to bring soda's spirits up "i uh I got an A on that childhood memory thing I did for my english teacher" he said

soda just nodded approval and mumbled something to quiet to hear

ponyboy tried to change the subject hoping to start a conversation "how was work today?" he asked

soda shrugged "fine as always" he whispered

pony spotted a cigarette by the bed and knew something was up "whats been bothering you today soda?" he asked

he shrugged again "just life I guess, it's nothing pony" he whispered hiding the sorrow in his voice

"i know somethings getting on your damn nerves and it ain't gonna do you no damn good if you don't tell me what the heck is going on!" he yelled not noticing how harsh his tone was

soda's eyes teared up like a flood on his face "it's sandy" he said with a quiver in his voice

pony's surging anger cooled off into a deep swelling sorrow, a knot caught in his chest as if the sympathy for his brother was caught up in him "is it about the baby" he whispered

soda sighed again "yeah, something like that" he said

pony's face turned pale white as he almost fainted feeling the hurt from yelling at soda so harshly

darry surged into the room "what the heck is going on in..." he stopped and took a look at soda's face, he walked over to him and put his arm over his shoulder "you okay little buddy" he asked, the expression on darry's face was full of sorrow as if somebody had just stabbed soda in the heart killing him in one blow

soda looked up at him as the tears kept coming down, he handed darry the letter, his hands shaking with every time he put it closer and closer to darry's huge hands

darry looked at the letter occasionally rubbing his eyes to make sure he wasn't going crazy or nothing "sandy" he whispered "it's from sandy"

"it's about the baby" soda whispered. There was a long pause of silence then he spoke again "the baby was born early" he whispered

darry's face turned paler than pony's and as he looked over at his expression pony noticed it was the same look he had when johnny was beat up pale and lifeless almost like a zombie

soda looked up at him tears running down like a waterfall from his eyes as he choked the words to come out, he shook his head in silence then answered "it was a miscarriage"