Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural

Warning: Male pregnancy.


Chapter One

Sam didn't want to get into the middle of any arguments involving his brother and his brother's angel but the noise level was starting to make his head hurt. According to what he was hearing, he realized that Dean was breaking up with Cas for the fifth time this week. The angel was trying to ease Dean out of it but it seemed his stubborn genes were coming into play and he was outright denying any requests that Cas had.

The younger brother definitely felt sorry for Cas but that didn't mean that he thought Dean was the one that was sorely responsible for this. Cas kept taking him back whenever Dean felt like getting back together and with the mind blowing sex that Sam had to listen to on occasion, it was wonder why Cas wouldn't just dump him and have enough with it. The angel didn't get sex and only knew what Dean had taught him.

He winced when Dean slammed the door behind him and left the dejected angel in the middle of the motel room. Sam thought it would have been better if they were to remember that he was here but ever since Dean came back from hell, their bond suffered. It only worsened after Dean found him with Ruby exorcising a demon with his mind. Sam closed his eyes and rubbed away the start of a migraine.

Cas seemed to hate him as well which, considering the fact that Sam was only the boy with the demon blood to him, it stood to reason. He couldn't help himself though. He was transfixed with those piercing blue eyes and he figured that if Dean wanted to dump him so much, he didn't really deserve Cas at all. Of course, Sam probably wasn't any better but at least he wasn't treating the angel as a constant rebound guy.

"You know you don't have to take that," he told the angel before he could stop himself. Cas looked his way and Sam froze wondering why he would say that out loud knowing Cas barely looked in his direction as it was.

"Why are you here? Did you listen to our full conversation because that's just-"

"Well it's a nice thought you could have had before you started arguing," Sam quickly snapped. He looked over and realized what he did, trying to fix it quickly. "I mean, I was here and I didn't want to disturb you and leaving meant that but I didn't want to hear all that…either. Why do you have to pretend I don't exist when you guys argue? Go fight somewhere that I don't have to have that chance to-"

"Sorry if my argument with your brother is too tedious to even reach your ears," Cas slammed back and made Sam actually blink.

"I didn't mean-Cas I know it's important and that's not what I was getting at. I can't listen into what you guys are saying because it's none of my business and not that other thing," he cut himself off, going back to the computer and surmising that Cas would leave right away.

Cas however hovered over him and Sam thought that the angel really didn't know personal space like Dean had once told him. Sam gulped trying to slow his racing heart before looking back up at Cas who seemed mildly confused even. This brought curiosity to his eyes but he tried to hide it, something he wasn't good at.

"Dean doesn't like being with me for long periods of time. He ends up getting pleased by women and he breaks up with me so that he doesn't feel like he's cheating."

Sam nodded wondering why Cas told him this.

"He also says I have no feelings about anything and while I don't get them, I do know a joke or two."

Sam continued to listen, closing the lap top which seemed to be the wrong thing to do. Cas smirked and edged over, making the younger hunter already uncomfortable and worrying if he knew about the hidden crush he held for the angel. It didn't matter though because he wasn't Dean and he was a virgin in that way. He fought the heat from rising to his face but Cas seemed to still be interested.

"It's weird that someone who says that it's none of their business and then listens without any harm done."

"I was listening to you Cas. You sounded like you wanted someone to talk to." Sam gulped nervously noticing that if Cas was any closer, he would be right on his lips. "It's different because then I'm not listening to you argue with Dean, I-I'm being a friend and letting you get it all out-"

"Because you care?" Cas asked suddenly and Sam found himself nodding before he could even reply. Cas snorted before backing away and Sam found himself breathing easier. "I don't need you to care enough to pity me."

"I'm not pitying you," Sam told him before he could stop himself. "I've been in a similar situation before. I dated this girl in college before I met Jess and she would cheat on me all the time. She didn't even tell me to my face that she was but it became knowledge soon enough. I finally got to realize that she wasn't worth it-"

"Dean is worth it though," Cas told him slamming his fist on the table.

Sam jumped and blinked, wondering what his issue was.

He nodded seeing as how Cas seemed to be ranting and raving. He was going to be moping until Dean took him back but seeing as how they had a case in South Key West, Florida, he felt like it was going to be a while. Supposedly there was a haunted house that people weren't taking seriously. He may have found a connection but until Dean came back, they couldn't really go there and get a head start.

"Dean is worth every single wait-"

"Maybe you just need to stop complaining and keep yourself occupied until he gets around to realizing that he was taking you for granted. I mean he doesn't seem to care and the more he sees that you can't stand being broken up, the more he's going to do this-"

"Why would I want to sleep with anyone else knowing that there's no one else for me?"

Sam paused quickly telling himself not to do it. He didn't want himself infiltrated with the drama that was Cas and Dean but he really liked the thought and the angel. Dean really shouldn't take the angel for granted either which would truly be such a shame but Sam swallowed to keep himself from thinking about Dean now. This was all about Cas. It wasn't techniqually cheating if he offered and Cas accepted. He would stop moping and Dean would take him back faster. He only hoped his fingers weren't shaking underneath everything to cue Cas in on how nervous he was.

"Well you could pretend to sleep with Dean all the while keeping yourself controlled. Dean will come to his senses and chase you instead-"

"Like I would have someone I would pretend to be Dean! You Winchesters are stubborn; I don't know why I even talk to you! You are just like Dean in that regard Sam-"The angel seemed to realize it though and instantly shook his head. Sam waited to know what was going to be said but the angel instantly rebutted that statement. "I'm not going to use you to pretend to be Dean. What if something happens and you find yourself liking me? You are already an abomination Sam and even if you weren't this could send out the wrong message. Do you really want to do this when you could find someone you like for you? "

Sam furiously shook his head.

If he really thought about it, he didn't have any thoughts based on this. He already had a crush on Cas and any other relationship was not going to happen. He ruined that when Jessica died. But Cas was definitely not going to feel different about Dean nor was he going to have sex with someone else whilst he was still pining over Dean as well.

"You are a fool then," Cas told him.

Sam then found himself all alone.


It didn't seem to happen right away but soon Sam found that Cas would look curiously at him and it didn't stop there, he seemed to notice Sam more and would even try to bring Sam into the conversation. Dean seemed a small tad irritated by the attention Sam was actually getting now and Sam tried to tell him that he had nothing to do with it. Dean believed him but he could tell he was getting jealous.

On the case, it turned out that it was the spirit of an old lady who used to saw up kids and hide them in the back of her house because the kids pranked her one too many times. It seemed her sick fetish had even survived being dead. Just seeing the bodies in the basement had to make anyone sick. Dean had lit the house on fire before Sam could even stop him and before he could go on about it, the older hunter pulled him against the car, fisting his jacket.

"Listen Sam, I am tired of all your games. You pretend to think you are so smart but I'm not stupid. I don't even know what you're doing with Ruby but at least that has stopped. Just because you feel bad ass taking demons out of people with your mind doesn't mean you could criticize this. I know the lady's bones are in this house and it would take too long to find! I also know that if they find the bodies, there's going to be too many depressed parents and the last anyone wants is to lose hope after finding out their kid was dead all along-"

"You can't do that Dean; they deserve the right to bury their kid and to have some closure. What's going to be better huh? Thinking that their kid doesn't love them and ran away-"

"Like you? Oh, so you could go on and on about someone's mistakes but when we bring it back to you, it's wrong? I forgot that Sam can't make mistakes-"Seeing Sam stare in silent shock, Dean sighed before pulling himself away from Sam's jacket.

"I don't care about this anymore, we're done." He turned back to Sam and added, "If you think they would be just as happy to find out their child is never coming back, be my guest. Stop the house from burning but don't come crying to me later when you realize you regret it. Otherwise, get in the car!"

Sam hesitated knowing closure was better than all those thoughts but then he stopped. Wasn't it better hoping that their child would come back instead of the alternative? Nobody liked realizing their kid was never coming home and knowing some of the stuff he's seen alone, he knew he wanted to tell them differently. He finally turned away from the house and got into the passenger seat of the car. Dean looked smug and triumphant and maybe he had every reason to be.

But he was wrong about one thing because doing this was still wrong. Because those kids were dead no matter what their parents hoped for and those family members would die before they ever found out the truth.

Sometimes this job sucked.


Sam knew that driving so many hours during the day was exhausting and it was the only reason that the younger brother decided not to go to the bar with Dean. It wasn't like he was disappointed by the fact and he wiggled his eyebrows, giving Sam the message not to bother waiting up for him. Sam sighed and took a shower, all the while pondering how his and Dean's relationship could be so messed up. He wanted to rekindle it and he knew that wasn't going to happen if he fought him in every step of the way so he'd back off a bit.

He knew he had to.

Stepping out of the shower, Sam dressed himself in a simple t-shirt and green and red plaid boxers. He quickly brushed his teeth before heading over to his bed with every intention of getting under the covers. It was the cold Kentucky wind and if it hadn't been so cold, Sam knew that he would have skipped the comforter completely. He turned off the light switch and laid back and closed his eyes.

Strong lips attached themselves to his mouth and he had to fight not to make a sound. There was a shushing sound and it became apparent that it was Cas. He wondered frankly if Cas meant to get into Dean's bed and forgot he wasn't here until Cas spoke up.

"I've been thinking about what you were saying and you are right. I'm too hung over with him. If I were to lie with you and pretend you were Dean to make it easier, then I wouldn't be so smitten and Dean won't leave me again. He says I'm too clingy and Anna even says that the problem is that I don't make my own decisions. Don't worry though because it'll be great. It can't mean anything though."

Sam knew that. He was a little anxious though since he never actually done this before and offering himself up was really an extremely stupid thing to do but seeing as how he would only get one chance, he took it. He nodded and barely got the answer out before he was thrown back and the lips were back over his.

Cas's tongue begged entrance and he let him in, letting the angel explore every cavern of his mouth. A part of his mind told him that this was really wrong but he turned it off. He hesitantly wondered if he should bring his hands up so he was doing something with them, but it flew right out of the window when Cas started attacking his neck. His shirt was removed before he knew it and Cas was licking and biting down his chest and stomach.

Sam moaned before he could stop himself and only seemed to goad the angel further on. Cas removed his own clothes and he removed Sam's boxers lastly, making Sam anxious all over again. He was able to forget it when Cas had his hands on him before but now this was all he could think about. The angel had a knee between his legs and he used the other to nudge them apart.

"Relax yourself," Cas instructed him.

Sam nodded.

He couldn't say anything and when Cas brought out the tube of lube, Sam thought momentarily that he was going to faint. Cas didn't seem to catch that and continued to spread them on his fingers before going back up and kissing him on the mouth again. Sam got right into it again, what was going to happen had become forgotten until he felt fingers encircling his entrance. He let out a squeak that was muffled by Cas's mouth and was glad that it was all. He still wasn't happy but all thoughts went right out the window when Cas pushed two fingers in. Sam took a shuddering breath to combat the painful burn he felt right about now. He tried to convince himself that he had wanted this, especially when Cas shoved a third in there rather roughly and was scissoring it open. Sam shuddered and held on, hoping the pain would go away.

"You're not a virgin are you by any chance?" Cas's voice nearly startled Sam and he quickly shook his head.

"No."

Cas seemed to find something interesting about what he said because before he knew it, something much bigger than the fingers was being pushed in. He seemed to be holding his breathe and steeling for the pain.

He felt he was being ripped open bit by bit but he didn't want Cas to know that he had never done this so he kept his mouth shut. Cas didn't even give him time to adjust after he was buried to the hilt before he started going into a rhythm, pounding into him. Sam let out a moan when pain gave way to pleasure. It didn't take long before Cas fell on him and drew him into a bruising kiss.

When Cas pulled out though, he saw what Cas seemed upset about. The condom broke and it had probably been halfway through as well. He stopped himself from telling Cas that it was okay and it meant nothing anyways because regardless of the reason, it was still sex and it could still end in an infant. To his surprise, Cas threw it in the trash and threw his clothes back on.

"Don't worry about it, Dean and I had this problem before too. Condoms break and angel babies aren't easily made. It takes a real pure person to make one and if Dean can't then you definitely aren't."

Sam nodded reassured.

Before leaving though, Cas went to open his mouth but Sam already understood. He was dressed back himself and realizing that he would need another shower soon but all in all; it had to be worth it. Cas was gone and only then did he let himself feel what he had previously denied himself. Although Cas was rather harsh for his first time, he hadn't known and it ended up being good. Sam never imagined it being like that but he figured that was okay because even though the condom broke, that hadn't meant anything.

Dean came back whistling and seemed surprised to see Sam asleep. He glanced at the clock and noticed that it was only eleven. He was about to shake his brother awake and ask him himself when he happened to see the condom in the trash can. He grinned wickedly before going to the bathroom and getting ready for bed.

By the time he was all ready and under the covers he tenderly said a goodnight to his baby brother and turned over to sleep. He didn't notice that Sam was awake. Sam really couldn't sleep because even though he knew what he was getting into, it didn't stop the fact that his feelings for Cas already existed before Cas finally agreed. It would take a while for him to sleep and all he could think about was the way Cas seemed to worry about hurting him.

A small smile appeared on his face at that.

Maybe Cas did give the littlest bit of damn about him after all.