I'm Dieing, Because Of You
(a/n) Alright, I know I have to update my story times change, do you but, this came to me and it kept nagging to be written, and i couldnt write a chapter for time change, but i will update soon, so do not be alarmed, I hope you enjoy this story.Well This is a ONESHOT.So I hope you enjoy.This are so fun to write, but I leave it up to you to decided if you want it to stay a oneshot?!:)
'' Speaking''
'' Thoughts''
Sesshomaru's P.O.V
I stand underneath the moon, the night is clear, it shows its beauty to the world.I stand in a field, flowers cover the ground, like a blanket.In the moonlight, giving the flowers a glowlike apperance.I stand at the cliff, I can smell the sea, its salty scent, and the mist from the sea, cooling my skin.I can hear it pounding the earth, the wind picks up, I can smell her.My brothers wench.What would she being doing here?Alone?
I ask myself, 'Do I follow her?' As I continue to think, I hear her crying, the half breed must have done something.' The fool' I think.I decide that I will see what makes this wench cry.So I begin to walk to her position.
Kagome's P.O.V
Im running, my lungs are starting to burn, my legs are starting to ache.my tears stinging my face, from all the cuts I have, I keep running, I can't stop.The pain..its to much.He did this to me, its his fault, Im running.I saw them, I saw him willingly give himself to her.He had kissed her with passion, the passion I wanted him to kiss me with, not her.I saw him pund into her, with her moaning in pleasure, the bastard.I see them both moaning and panting, disgusting, I want to move but I find that my legs won't work.As much as I try I can't, but then something happens, Kikyo discovers Im there, she smiles a wicked smile that tells me ' I lost, and to get lost' Without hesitation I begin to run, without my bow and arrows, Im basically helpless.I continue to cry, and continue to run, hoping, wishing, that this nightmare would end.
Normal P.O.V
Sesshomaru began to close up on Kagome, he continued to wonder what made her cry, and why she was stupid enough not to have pertection with her.She's just human.He reminds himself.
Kagome falls down, and begins to cry harder.Her leg got caught in a tree root, and she tripped, and hurt her foot in the process.'' Dammit, this isn't what I needed.'' Kagome said with her tears falling down faster than before.The forest floor was cold underneath her, the trees hiding the moonlight, she was in darkness, total and utter darkness.Until she sees someone unexpected.Kagome stared at him, he was beautiful.His silver hair being blown by the wind, and the slight moonlight, giving him and ethearal glow, and his white kimono, making him look godly, he was indeed beautiful, but cold, ruthless, and careless, he was emotionless.
''Sesshomaru?''Kagome's says with a shaky voice.'' What are you doing here?'' Kagome says with a frightend voice.
Sesshomaru smiles inwardly, 'Shes afraid, good.' He continued to look at her.She was filthy, her hair wasn't as glossy, at it used to be, covered with mud and twigs, and kami knows what else, her face was covered with dirt, and the only clean spot was the trial of where her tears were.She was cut all over her face, and her legs were no better.She looked frightend, broken, spightful, and depressed.
Now what could make her this depressed?Sesshomaru thought, with curiousity, but held his cold demeanor.
'' Wench, why is it that you are crying?'' Sesshomaru demanded more than asked.
Kagome stayed silent, she didn't know who he thought he was, asking her questions, and calling her wench?Sure he was a lord, but that didn't mean he should be such an ass hole.
'' Anwser now.'' He said again with more force.
'' No, not with you calling me wench.And why I cry is none of your bussiness, Sesshomaru-sama!'' Kagome said with venom in each word.
Sesshomaru stared long and hard at her, she did the same, neither one looking away from the other.Some of her fire was back, Sesshomaru could tell by the glint in her eyes.
'' I may call you what I wish, you are no one to order me around,wench.'' Sesshomaru bit back with a dangerously calm voice.
Kagome growled, she must have picked it up from Inuyasha, '' Listen here Sesshomaru, my name is NOT wench, or miko,or any other brillant word you can come up with.My name is Kagome, Ka-Go-Me.'' Kagome said again with anger written all over her face.As she looked at him with spghtful eyes.
So, this miko thinks she could tell me what to do.Ill show her place. Sesshomaru thought as he looked at her again, before Kagome knew it, she was pinned to a tree, and Sesshomaru was holding her up by her throat.His sharp claws breaking her skin, and making blood fall down her neck.
'' Kill me! I don't care anymore.Im not afraid of you.So go ahead, kill me.It doesn't matter.'' Kagome said as she looked straight into his golden-amber eyes.She showed him she was not afraid that she was ready, and feared nothing.
Sesshomaru dropped her, uncerimoniously onto the floor, and Kagome fell with a hard thud, to the ground.'' You could have been gentle.'' Kagome said as she rubbed her backside vigorously to rid herself of the pain inflicted on it.
This human, wishes for death?She does not fear me?Is something wrong with this human?Sesshomaru thought as he stared at her.Kagome felt Sesshomaru stare at her, and didn't like it, so she began to talk.
'' What do you want?'' Kagome said with a monotone voice.
He stayed quiet.
'' Look, if your not going to talk Im leaving, Im going home and leaving this place.This hell.'' Kagome said as she stood up, carefully making sure she didn't step on her sprained foot.
'' Sit.'' Sesshomaru said as he seated himself on the ground.And looked at Kagome, telling her to sit.
'' Hmph, fine.'' Kagome said as she limped back , and sat down infront of him.
'' Now, tell me, mik-Ka-Go-Me, why were you running?'' Sesshomaru said, with a stoic voice.
Kagome decided to awnser, he did use her name.'' Because, Inuyasha, doesn't love me.'' Kagome said as she hid her eyes with her long bangs.
'' And how would you know, did the half breed tell you?'' Sesshomaru inquired.
'' No, I saw him and Kikyo together.'' Kagome said with her tears, ready to fall.
Sesshomaru began to think.So, Inuyasha betrayed her, for the corpse known as Kikyo.Ineteresting.Sesshomaru thought.
'' Now, have you got all your anwsers?'' Kagome questioned with a shaky voice, but bit her lip to stop herself from crying.
'' No, I have one more question.Do you still love him?'' Sesshomaru said and for the first time ever, he let a bit of softness enter his voice.
Kagome couldn't contain it anymore.She bagan to cry, and with doing that she launched herself onto Sesshomaru's chest, and continued to cry.
Sesshomaru stayed still, she was..hugging him, the fearful demon lord, who would kill you if you got in way, she was hugging him.Kagome continued to cry, but anwsered his question.
'' I-I I still love him!But I don't want to!'' Kagome said in between her sobs.Kagome felt so warm when she jumped into Sesshomaru's chest, she felt safe, but she didn't know how she did, she just did.
Sesshomaru said nothing, did nothing.He couldn't he was to shocked.But he didn't push her off, he let her cry on him, her tears soaking his haori, the scent of her tears, flowing into his nose.
Why are her tears affecting me so?Sesshomaru thought as he looked at Kagome's crying form.And without thinking he allowed himself to hug her back.
'' Do not cry Kagome.It is not worth your tears.'' Sesshomaru said with a calm voice.
'' But, but I loved him, and he-he went to Kikyo!'' Kagome said again beginning to cry even harder.
Kagome stopped for a moment, her tears still fell, but she stayed quiet.'' Did-did you just say my name?'' Kagome said with surprise.
'' Yes, I did.And this surprised you?'' Sesshomaru said with his stoic voice again.
'' Well, you just called me by my name, and before when I asked you to, you didn't.Its just..surprising.'' Kagome said with a honest voice.
'' I see, now may you as so kind as to remove your person from me?'' He said with a demanding voice.
'' Oh, right sorry.'' Kagome said with a slight blush, as she wiped away the remainder of her tears.
'' So, why did you even come here?I mean, why did you come looking for me?'' Kagome said with curiousity.
'' Well, when I smelled your tears I thought my brothers wench had been, hurt so I followed you.'' Sesshomaru said with a monotone voice.
'' You thought I was Inuyasha's wench?'' Kagome said as she grinded her teeth together in anger.
'' Yes.'' Was all he said.
'' Why?!'' Kagome said with anger.
'' Well, anyone would asume, seeing as how you are around the half breed, most of the time.'' Sesshomaru said.
'' That doesn't mean Im his.'' Kagome said with a sigh.
Sesshomaru said nothing after that.He just stared at her.
'' Sesshomaru, may I ask you something?'' Kagome said with hesitation.
'' You have already.'' He said with an inward smirk.
'' No, may I ask you another then.''
'' You may.''
'' Why is it that you hate humans, and hanyo's so much?''
Sesshomaru stayed quiet for a long time, and when Kagome thought he wouldn't awnser he did.'' Humans, are greedy, filthy, arrogant, and have no dignity.And hanyo's are just as bad.They do not belong in neither human nor demon kind.''
'' But not all humans are like that, and niether are some hanyos.Sure Inuyasha is...difficult, but hes not that bad.Well, atleast thats what I used to think.'' Kagome said with a downcast voice.
'' And now, what do you think of him?'' Sesshoamru said with a curious voice.(a/n:OMG hes using emotion in this story.)
'' Well, he did betray me, but.Its not like I didn't know he would.I just would have wished tha he would have chosen me and not Kikyo.But I guess, I was just fooling myself.Inuyasha will only see me as a friend, and nothing more.'' Kagome said with a mono tone voice.
'' I see.So you have easily forgiven him have you?''
'' Yes, I think I have forgiven him.Its not his fault for loveing her.He just does.''
'' You do not hold anything, no hate, no malice, no spightfulness.Why?''
'' Well, its just the way I work.Im not a hateful or cold person.But you are.And I have yet to know why.Can you tell me?'' Kagome said with a questioning voice.
'' I am like this for many reasons.If I showed emotion, my enemies would find a week spot, and therefore, I cant show emotion.And I hate because, it is the way I am, and being a lord, I cannot show these things.''
'' But, Sesshomaru, you don't know what your doing to yourself, your just making yourself miserable.If you never love you'll never be happy.Sure love is weekness, but its also power.''
'' You know nothing.You are human, you show your emotion freely.And that is what causes your races death.'' Sesshomaru said with a bit of anger.
'' No.What causes my races death is its pride, we have pride, and we will stand up for what we love.Just like you protect Rin...you say you don't protect anything, when you do.You protect Rin, and Jaken, and your lands.Your protecting things when you say your not.That would make you a liar, and Sesshomaru you aren't a liar.You a lord, a powerful demon, strong, noble, loyal, but you need to let lose, your father loved.And yes he did die, but he died because he wanted Inuyasha and his mother to live.That isn't weekness, thats love.'' Kagome said with honesty in her voice.
'' Love, it is a pathetic emotion.'' Sesshomaru said with a cold voice.
'' Sesshomaru, love isn't pathetic.'' Kagome said agian, with determintation in her voice.
'' Why do you even bother telling me this?''
'' Because, I care about you.'' Kagome said, but went wide eyed at what she had said.
'' What I mean is, your an aly, and well your sort of a friend, minus the times you tried killing us.But none the less I consider you a friend, and I guess that why I care.'' Kagome said with a mater o factly tone.
Sesshomaru stayed quiet.This human, does not see darkness for some reason.She has a pure heart.Sesshomaru thought as he looked Kagome straight in the eyes.She was an open book, her chocolate brown eyes, giving away everything she had so freely to him.
'' Why do you show me your emotion so freely?I could use it against you.'' Sesshomaru said with a serious voice.
'' I don't think you would.Your not like that.'' Kagome said with a calm, and happy voice.
''Hn.'' Was all Sesshomaru said.Kagome looked at him, maybe from what she has been told he doesn't want to be like this, maybe he really does want to love someone, to have someone, to be loved by someone.
Kagome kept on looking at him, and finally Sesshomaru looked straight at her.Golden-amber clashing with chocolate brown eyes.Sesshomaru continued to stare and Kagome seemed to be in a trance.And without thinking, grabbed his cheek with her small, soft hand.And began to caress his cheek.
'' Sesshomaru, some how, I don't think your going to be like this forever.I know you'll change.'' Kagome said with a small, and yet cheery smile.Sesshomaru stayed still, but relaxed underneath her touch.
How could this girl,... nay, woman, have such and affect on me.She is just a human, perhaps a miko, and powerful, but she is human.Although she is different.Sesshomaru thought as he relished in the moment.
'' Sesshomaru, tell me do you honestly want to be cold, and alone?'' Kagome said with a small and yet sad smile.
'' Miko, what I want, is none of your concern.'' Sesshomaru said with a cold voice, as he pulled away from Kagome's soft and warm hands.
'' Sesshomaru.Some how I know your not always going to be like this.Your not ment to be alone, and cold...your ment to be loved, and to love back.'' Kagome said as she stood from her sitting postion, infront of Sesshomaru.
'' Hmph, that, Miko.Will never happen.'' Sesshomaru said, as he stood to his full height, towering over Kagome.
'' Thats what you say.But I'm sure sooner, or later, you won't be the same.'' Kagome said with a sad smile.
'' Hn.'' Was all Sesshomaru said as he walked away, into the forest, and as soon as he left Kagome whispered one last thing.Knowing he wouldn't hear, she said her deepest darkest secret.
'' Of course I love Inuyasha, but somehow I don't think I really did.I think, I've always been in love with you, Sesshomaru.'' Kagome whispered into the wind, as she took one last look at where he went, and then lead herself back to her friends, acting as if nothing accured.But secretly, smiling about her talk with Sesshomaru, she knew,he wouldn't be as stoic, and cold as he thought he was...she knew.
Some where off in the distance, stood a heavenly demon lord, looking up at the stars again.Thinking about the wonderous miko he had spoken to.Silently, and lovingly, he whispered.'' I've always loved you Kagome.'' As he looked up at the sky, he closed his eyes, and pictured her.But then as quick as the thought came the wind blew it away.And he took one last glance at the moon, before returning to Rin, and Jaken.
FIN
(a/n) Well what do you guys think? Was it good?Was it bad?You tell me, and you know I honestly don't know if this should stay a oneshot, but thats completely up to you, if I get reveiws asking me to make this a story, I think I will.So let me know.And I hope you enjoyed!
