Realizations

This is my first fic. I will probably have a lot of errors, but I hope it's clear enough that you don't get lost.

Chapter 1

In all the possible scenarios that went through HG's mind as she was bronzed, meeting Myka was never one of them. She was never part of her equation, and for the longest time the Inventor did her best and buried all thoughts of the woman. There was a reason why she had asked to be bronzed. It wasn't because she had hoped to wake up in a better world. She knew a life without her Christina was never going to be a utopia, so she created a facade to gain the Regents sympathy. She told them the lies they needed to hear. She wanted to bronzed, but used it as her own form of self-punishment, to live a life filled with darkness, and to remember that forgiveness was never an option. To do so meant betraying those she left behind, the ones that died and gotten hurt because of her. Still, Myka had managed to spoil her destructive plans and in the process saved her. Myka Bering taught her that it was okay to forgive herself, and that it was okay to continue on living.

It took a lot for HG to gain the trust of those she betrayed. Myka had been the most accepting of her. The Victorian wasn't sure how Myka could easily forgive her, but she swore never to do anything that would jeopardize that until one day when everything changed.

Helena should have known. She should have seen it coming, but love has a way of just creeping up to you without realizing it before it's too late, before someone else was already in the picture. Myka had talked about Sam. How he died and what he meant to her. That day was one of the first times HG felt a sting of jealousy, but she had long forgotten that feeling, not since the death of Christina's father. Besides, Sam was dead. She couldn't possibly be jealous of a dead guy, she thought.

The second time jealousy struck her was when she met Sam. HG and Myka had plans to go out one day, but as the inventor opened the B&B front door she was met by a man.

"Hi, I'm looking for Myka."

HG knew right away that she didn't like the stranger. "And you are?"

"I'm-"

"Sam?" Myka and the man locked eyes at each other and for the first time in a very long time HG felt like she was once again invisible to the world. That night, instead of spending time with Myka, HG had found herself doing inventory at the warehouse. There was one thing Helena did so well when something or someone bothered her. She buried herself with work, so it wasn't hard to tell even for Pete that something was up. In fact he already knew the reason why.

"HG?" Pete called the inventor a few times before he was close enough to shake her from her deep thought.

"Pardon?"

"You okay?" He asked sympathetically. Helena and Pete weren't always the best of friends, but as the saying goes: all wounds heal in time. Pete has seen HG has sacrificed herself to save the world. She helped bring Myka back, and she makes her happy.

"Yes."

Pete looked at her quizzically. One word? That's it?
"Okay, Wells, lay it on me."

"What in heavens are you talking about?" All HG wanted to do was to be left alone with her own thoughts.

"Ah!" He pointed a finger at her. "More than one word. That is progress. Now, tell Doc Petey what else ails you my friend?"

The inventor wanted no more of Pete's antics. "I'd just like to get back to work, if you don't mind Peter."

"I do."

"Pardon?"

"I may not be Myka, but you know I can be a good listener when you need me to be." Pete meant it. "Especially if you want to talk about Myka and all of that feels you have for her."

"Feels?" I...what...what in the bloody hell are you talking about?" If Pete meant to get HG's full attention, he had all of it now.

"You know..." Pete paused to see if she really didn't know, "...you're in love with Myka."

The inventor scoffed at the very idea. "Are you suggesting I have romantic feelings for Myka? That is—well I mean I—"

"I am not suggesting. I am telling." Pete wasn't exactly sure if being so blunt would end him in some Kempo lock, but he also knew that Helena loves Myka and Myke's loves HG.

"I do not have romantic feelings for Myka." HG corrected him. She was on the defense, and he could tell it. Still, Pete would have none of it. He wanted both women to be happy. "Come on HG. You two are like peas in a pod. You love her. Why won't you just tell her the truth before it's too late?"

Helena had enough. She hasn't grasped the idea that she has indeed fallen for Myka, so to hear it from somebody else wasn't making it easier for her. "Agent Peter Lattimer," she started to say, "I-do-not-love-Myka." She said it slowly and loud enough to make a point.

Unbeknownst to either agents someone close by was about to join them until she heard the very words that came from HG's mouth,"I-do-not-love-Myka" Myka hastily retreated from the shadows.

Pete gave up eventually, leaving HG the freedom to do some thinking. Somehow the words she just said,"I-do-not-love-Myka." kept echoing in her mind. Had she really fallen for Myka? She asked herself. She tried to make sense of it, whatever it is. She tried to treat it as one of her experiments, but nothing was making sense. In fact anything that had to do with Myka never made sense. She was always the unique part of the equation. The undefined solution, and then she allowed herself to go back. She thought about Christina's father. He was a brilliant fool, but he was her brilliant fool. His work had always kept him at far places, but nevertheless he was a family man. He would visit Christina and Helena every chance he got. He had a notion of being a jerk with a blatant size ego, but it was different when he was home. Still, when tragedy struck HG could never forgave him or herself. He tried to save her so many times, but she was already dead inside. She tried to recall happier times. The first time they kissed, first date, first dance. The first time they met at the Chicago World Fair in 1893. A tear escape from her right eye, forgetting for a moment how powerful a memory can be, and then she thought back to Myka.

HG thought about the first time they met, the time she tried to use the Minoan Trident. She recalled how scared she was to actually go through with her plans. How she wished subconsciously that Christina's father would miraculously show up to stop her, and then there she was instead, Myka. Neither agent's knew at the time that they shared a connection they just hadn't realized yet. Helena G. Wells has fallen in love with Myka Ophelia Bering.

TBC if liked by people.