Nightmare

I'm in the darkness

My own nightmare

It all seems unreal

None of this can be happening

Not to me, at least not now

The light has gone

Tears stain my cheeks

Never stopping

Leaving my skin raw

I've even lost myself

When I scream no one hears me

When I cry no one notices

I've become invisible

Your not here to hold me anymore

Though I still yearn for your gentle touch

Torture is what this brings me

Tearing me apart

Ripping at my very soul

Pain is what I feel

Lost in this once peaceful world

I'm shivering with fear

From what I'll never even know

I can't understand myself anymore

I've become a rag doll again

Chained and weighed down by hatred

I guess I have to let myself be tossed around again

I'm told there's no way to stop it now

Look what has become of me

And this time I know

Love might not be enough to save me

If there's love left that is

There is no more I wasn't strong enough

I couldn't keep it I let it go

It was falling and fell

So I'll just sit here all alone

Holding onto what is left of me

I'm broken again

My eyes have gone dull and lifeless

My wings have failed me

It feels as though I can't

Pick up the pieces again

Maybe I'll leave it on the ground

I no longer want it

It's a broken heart, for good

Fate has hold on me again

Crying my eyes out

Is all I seem to know how to do

I refuse to move anymore

I think this nightmare is all I deserve

All I'm worth

Friends can't pick me up anymore

I'm beyond reach

I keep falling deeper and deeper

Into this black abyss

There is no turning back

Once I slip over the edge

No angel to come

No comfort no shelter

The time has come to put on my mask again

My mask of lies I hide behind

Playing pretend can be my life

Seeing as its all I'm good at these days

And it's for the better so I can't hurt anyone anymore

Now I've learned my life is a game

Played by the devil and his cruel ways

I'm sealing myself away and

My shattered heart will freeze over

I feel as if a thousand knives have stabbed me

But it cannot compare to the pain of others

The pain I cause, it was all because of me

And I, I caused this pain

After all the pain the cold

Rain starts to pour now

Its cold but I'll take it

I do deserve it don't I?

As the rain pours a sea of confusion

Washes over me

Someday maybe I'll take control of myself again

But it's a very small chance

For now I just can't

I fear I'll hurt others like I always seem to end up doing

So right now,

I'm in the darkness

My own nightmare