Nightmare
I'm in the darkness
My own nightmare
It all seems unreal
None of this can be happening
Not to me, at least not now
The light has gone
Tears stain my cheeks
Never stopping
Leaving my skin raw
I've even lost myself
When I scream no one hears me
When I cry no one notices
I've become invisible
Your not here to hold me anymore
Though I still yearn for your gentle touch
Torture is what this brings me
Tearing me apart
Ripping at my very soul
Pain is what I feel
Lost in this once peaceful world
I'm shivering with fear
From what I'll never even know
I can't understand myself anymore
I've become a rag doll again
Chained and weighed down by hatred
I guess I have to let myself be tossed around again
I'm told there's no way to stop it now
Look what has become of me
And this time I know
Love might not be enough to save me
If there's love left that is
There is no more I wasn't strong enough
I couldn't keep it I let it go
It was falling and fell
So I'll just sit here all alone
Holding onto what is left of me
I'm broken again
My eyes have gone dull and lifeless
My wings have failed me
It feels as though I can't
Pick up the pieces again
Maybe I'll leave it on the ground
I no longer want it
It's a broken heart, for good
Fate has hold on me again
Crying my eyes out
Is all I seem to know how to do
I refuse to move anymore
I think this nightmare is all I deserve
All I'm worth
Friends can't pick me up anymore
I'm beyond reach
I keep falling deeper and deeper
Into this black abyss
There is no turning back
Once I slip over the edge
No angel to come
No comfort no shelter
The time has come to put on my mask again
My mask of lies I hide behind
Playing pretend can be my life
Seeing as its all I'm good at these days
And it's for the better so I can't hurt anyone anymore
Now I've learned my life is a game
Played by the devil and his cruel ways
I'm sealing myself away and
My shattered heart will freeze over
I feel as if a thousand knives have stabbed me
But it cannot compare to the pain of others
The pain I cause, it was all because of me
And I, I caused this pain
After all the pain the cold
Rain starts to pour now
Its cold but I'll take it
I do deserve it don't I?
As the rain pours a sea of confusion
Washes over me
Someday maybe I'll take control of myself again
But it's a very small chance
For now I just can't
I fear I'll hurt others like I always seem to end up doing
So right now,
I'm in the darkness
My own nightmare
