A/N: Wow, finally i have an idea for a story. YAY. please enjoy and review, even if its alittle cocky. WP9 xxx
"I'll tell him today!" I decided to myself. Today I am going to tell Kenshin that he is all I see and want to see in my future. He and a child to be called my family. This was what I wanted. And why should I not want it, sure Kenshin was an ex-manslayer but he was a Rurouni now. And why should he reject me? Unless he does not share the same feelings for me as I do him.
I ran down the hall to Kenshin's room, I opened the rice paper door and- wished I had never had the idea. There was Megumi with Kenshin sprawled under her. I had never felt so broken and naked in all my life. I felt my chest close up, I felt my eyes moisture, I felt like I would have rathered die by gun shot instead of witnessing this.
I slowly closed the door again and walked away. I felt my breath hitch, I couldn't breathe, I didn't want to breathe, I wanted to die at that very moment. Was I really that low to him. Was I nothing but a hostess, a friend.
I walked into the kitchen. I noticed the cutting board had not been put away. The knife still lay on top of it. I went to clean it. I watched as it glistened under the water. I suddenly knew what I had to do. It may be weak, and against everything Kenshin believed in, but it would end my pain, the pain I knew would never go away until I had left life behind.
Death would be better and easier than walking around feeling like a ghost. Had some unconscious thought rung in Kenshin's mind that he should leave the weapon there on the bench. So not only had he hurt me by falling for Megumi, he had also saved me from the pain. Although I felt pain towards him, I also felt grateful that although he had chosen Megumi he had also shown me how to be at peace once more, peace forever.
I took the hilt of the knife and hid the weapon under my kimono sleeve. I went to write a small suicide letter to say my final goodbye.
Dear Kenshin,
So it seems that Megumi is who you wish to spend your life with. I am not angry, but I am in so much pain that death is a gift. Although you may not approve of suicide, this is the only option for me right now. Please don't blame yourself, if your happy I will be happy in heaven or wherever I will be going. Please, Please don't try to stop me. That is the last thing I ask of you, please don't stop me from ending the pain I feel.
I love you, all of you. Even Megumi.
Kaoru.
I sealed it with a final kiss and left it on the floor of my bedroom. I went to the river, underneath the bridge.
KenPOV.
"Megumi get off me, please. I really don't feel the same as you do for me, that I don't. My feelings lie with Ms Kaoru." I rolled her off me and left the room. I still had chores to do, and the first one was to start the fire for Ms Kaoru's bath. I knocked on her door.
"Ms Kaoru, I'm going to start the fire for your bath, that I am." No reply "Are you in there Ms Kaoru?" I slid the door open a peek. She wasn't in there. But there was a note on the floor addressed to me. I opened it up and read the contents.
Suicide. She must have seen me with Megumi. I ran out of the house in search of her. I searched the river first. She had told me once that if she were to die she would like to close to water.
And there she was.
KPOV
I slid the knife over my wrist, my blood leeked out over my wrist. I slid it over the other. I whimpered in pain. Why did my life have to end like this? "Because your not good enough." A voice in her head answered.
I was about to cut another slit but one very strong, pale hand grabbed my wrist. "Ms Kaoru, please stop what your doing!" he begged.
I crept back away from him. "Keep away from me. Don't stop me." I picked up the knife again only to have it snatched away from my hands.
"Ms Kaoru, this is crazy. Why do you want to end your life so badly. What about Yahiko? The dojo, your friends? Please Ms Kaoru, come back with me and we'll sort everything out."
"Do you want me to be in pain Kenshin?" I asked quietly,
"Of course not Ms Kaoru." He said bewildered.
"Then let die!" I screamed.
His eyes covered in hurt and pity. "Ms Kaoru…"
"Don't you 'MS KAORU' me Kenshin. Its your fault that I feel this way, I feel this way because you broke my heart. You chose Megumi, so let me choose no-more-pain."
"I never chose Ms Megumi. I never loved her in that way, Kaoru. She threw herself on me."
"Liar!"
"I have no reason to lie to you, Ms Kaoru, My only wish is for you to be happy. Be it with or without me."
Disbelief threw me of my train of thought for a second. "A…Are Y…you saying you l…love me?"
A smile formed on Kenshins lips. "That's exactly what I was saying." He ripped pieces of his kimono off and tied them around my wrists to stop the bleeding.
He held out his arms for me and I fell into them with a sob. He held me as I cried. Then, ever so tenderly, he lifted my chin up, and kissed me. I kissed him back, making the kiss deeper.
"Kaoru, I wish I had brought a ring after all so this proposal would be a bit more romantic, but…." He pulled me back a bit so I could see his face.
"…I swear my eternal love to you Kaoru, that I most certainly do." And with those few words he re-created the happiness I thought I had lost.
And together we walked back, hand in hand, to the dojo.
