"Meredith, I'd like you to meet, my boyfriend, Brian."

Meredith Stepien shook the hand of a one Brian Holden and smiled. She took in his striking appearance. Like the way his cheekbones were so high, the genteelness in his Grey eyes, or the way his smile seemed to light up the room. He was very attractive in her opinion.

Her thoughts then fell to the way she looked, she was wearing the same shirt she wore almost everyday, and her hair was not looking it's best either. This was not the way she'd want to be seen by him. Then her mind snapped back to the fact that this was Jaime's boyfriend.

"Hi.. Brian, I'm Meredith," She finally said.


After shooting Little White Lie, it was obvious Meredith and Brian had become great friends. They'd always be laughing, joking, or just talking. Meredith also became Brian's go to friend for advice on his relationship. But every time Jaime's name would be spoken, a pang of jealousy hit her.

There was no doubt that Meredith had fallen for Brian In the last few months. But he was dating Jaime still, and it looked like they weren't going to break up soon.

Meredith heard a knock at her door at around one am. She cautiously opened her apartment door, and found Brian there, "Brian!" Her face lit up at the sight of him like it normally did but it quickly fell seeing his expression, "What's wrong?"

"I'm sorry.. I just need to talk to someone.."

Meredith let him in to her apartment and he began to explain how Jaime had broken up with him. Parts of her heart leapt, happy that he was single now. Thinking of this was selfish, Brian needed her now, she can't think about her own wants. And besides, he was now Jaime's Ex. It's one of the first rules that you don't date your best friend's ex.


It was the cast party for Starship, suddenly Meredith felt someone's lips collide with her own. The soft lips seemed to fit perfectly with her's. It was too good to be real. He was kissing her. Brian Holden was kissing her. Yet everything was so wrong.

"I've waited so long to do that.." He said after the kiss and smiled his beautiful smile at her.

"I can't.." She whispered softly, a lump forming in her throat. She couldn't cry, not here with him in front of her. But all of the sudden it felt as though her world came crashing down, and she wished she could cry.


It was two days before opening night, and Meredith was going to turn over a new leaf. She was going to forget about ever hoping to be Brian and start dating again. She hadn't dated anyone since Mark, and that was about 3 or 4 years ago. It was perfect timing too, That day Dylan asked her out.

"Hey, Meredith, I've got something for you," Dylan said to her back. Meredith quickly turned around to see the familiar face of Dylan Saunders holding a bouquet of flowers. "They're from a fan," he smiled and handed them to her.

Meredith smiled and opened the card that was dangling from a flower, "Dear Meredith Stepien," She read aloud, "You are one of the most talented, pretty, funny people I know. Have dinner with me? Love Dylan," She smiled then looked up back at him. "These are from you,"

He nodded once and smiled nervously as a small blush tinted his cheeks. "So whaddaya say?"

"It's a Yes," She smiled. "I'd love to have dinner with you."


"You can't?" Brian's happy expressions fell quickly, "You can't what?" He asked with his face twisted in confusion.

"I-I ca- I need to go," She spoke quickly and went back inside, wiping her eyes So that any tears that might fall wouldn't. She said a quick goodbye to Nick , who was talking to Denise about the newest My Little Pony episode, and left the party.

She got in her car and started it. Instead of starting to drive home, like she should've, she rested her head on the steering wheel and began to cry.

Tap. Tap. Tap.

Denise tapped on the Driver's window. Meredith lifted her head and rolled down the window, "Hey, you okay? What's wrong? And don't give me some bullshit about everything being fine. Because I can see your mascara running," as soon as she said that Meredith wiped her eyes.

"The universe hates me."

"Care to explain more?" Denise opened the car door and pulled Meredith out of her seat. The blonde sat on the ground and patted the ground for Meredith to sit next to her. She reluctantly down sat next to her friend, "What's up?"

"Brian.. Kissed me,"

"Well isn't that a good thing? You've been crushing on him forever,"

Meredith didn't even try to deny the fact that she was and that no one was supposed to know. "No! This is a terrible thing!" She rested her head in her hands, "I've been dating Dylan for about three weeks now."

"You have? And you Didn't tell me?" Denise sighed angrily, but quickly gathered herself remembering that Meredith needed a friend now. "So I take it you feel conflicted.." Meredith nodded quickly in response, "Because You really like Brian, but you're dating Dylan and don't want to dump him for Brian," she nodded again.

"Love sucks," Meredith sighed and laid down on the cement, wanting it to swallow her up. "I-I think I love him, Deeds.." Meredith sat up again.

"Brian? Or Dylan"

Meredith pondered this for a moment. She had originally thought she was in love with Brian, but thinking of Dylan, she wasn't so sure. "Both, I guess.. Is it possible to love two people at once?"

"Well.. I guess so. It's just isn't fair to the other people involved, If they both love you back that is."

"I don't want to hurt anyone.."

"People are going to get hurt no matter what, this is love."

"Yeah.. I guess I just need to chose one over the other."

"Why don't you make a pro and con list? I find they always help me out when I'm deciding between two things," Denise said. Meredith sighed, it wasn't a bad idea. "Let's do Brian 1st."

Meredith giggled, she knew it wasn't what Denise meant, but she couldn't help but laugh at it, she really was immature. "Okay.. Pro. Good Kisser."

"Really, Meredith? That's the first thing you think of?" Denise shook her head. "Anything else?"

Meredith giggled again, feeling better from the laughing. "I like spending time with him. He's nice. And funny. He knows me. And He is very good looking."

"So what about the cons?"

"He waited." Meredith said almost immeditly. "I was single for about three years, and so was he. He could've easily kissed me before tonight. He even told me he'd wanted to kiss me for a while now. Yet he had to wait." Meredith sighed again, it felt good to get it all out right now.

"And Dylan?"

"He's nice to me. When we're together it seems he genuinely cares about what I want to do when we're together. He's sweet. And he didn't wait." She smiled again.

"Okay. So the Cons for Dylan?"

"He's not Brian.." Meredith sighed and layed her head on Denise's shoulder.

Denies wrapped her arms around her friend in a hug. "Come on, Mere, let's go to the apartment. You don't have to decide anything yet. You need rest." She brought Meredith back to the car and set her in the passenger's side. Denise proceeded to get in the drivers side and take Meredith back home.

A/N: Yay new stories. I've had this one in the works for a long time but forgot about it until today so you guys get the first chapter! I tried to do sort of a memory to now type of story so italics are flashbacks. And it might not continue though the next chapters since I started it a while ago and am not exactly feeling that style anymore...