Hi readers, this is my first time to write a fanfiction. I hope you like this story of mine. This story was inspired by the episode 5x10 "The Flaming Spittoon Acquisition"

Why I choose silence

Silence. It is defined as the absence of noise, solace, stillness and loneliness.

Have you ever experienced choosing between telling the truth and silence? Once Amy Farrah Fowler told me that I talk, think and worry too much, one thing she didn't know that in spite of me talking, thinking and worrying too much, there's one thing I'm not telling her, one thing I choose to keep in silence.

You can never find someone like Amy, someone as smart, energetic, and insightful person like her. She made me motivated in my work as a theoretical physicist as we exchange ideas about science and anything that catches our attention. She made me more open-minded and liberated about social conventions making me more "human" because they said that I acted like a robot. She never fails to make me see things in a different sense. In short, she is someone, as adjectives can't exactly describe.

We really had a good chemistry and to maintain the continuity of this great companionship and we both agreed to have a relationship of the mind-a relationship that will nurture and develop our minds with the help of each other. We talk about everything. We have a neat schedule of everything, from our daily video chat, tweeting, exchanging messages and occasional visit to the zoo. God knows I learned a lot from her and I am positive that she also acquires new ideas and information from me.

She really is a great charmer, as I have mentioned I have never encounter a woman like Amy. She can be charming in many ways. As for me, I was charmed by her intelligence and wit. But there was an incident that Stuart, the guy from the comic book store fell for her without her intention. I cannot fail to recall my initial reaction when my friends jested about Stuart asking Amy to go on a date with him. Of course it was ok with me. It was FINE with me, because I don't own Amy; I can't own a person, right?

But hours had passed. I tried to focus my mind in an equation that I am trying to solve, trying to get the image of Stuart having fun with my friend Amy out of my mind. I tried so hard not to think what happened in their date. Did Amy enjoy Stuart's company?

I tried my best to find the answer for what I was feeling that time. I cannot fathom why I was curious about their date. Why I can't get those thoughts out of my mind. I need answers! I must find an answer to this emotion bothering me right now. I spent hours researching on the internet but still: no answer for me. After I felt the need to sleep, I laid down on my bed and try to calm my mind. I tried my best to concentrate in sleeping but sleep eluded me.

Days had passed, I still can't find an answer. As days passed by, I continue to be very observant about her. Since we have this unique relationship, we continue our daily schedule and routines. We still video chat, exchange messages and dine with our friends together.

One night I got a chance to ask Amy. I know she is a neurobiologist and I took a shot to ask her about what I am feeling. I am confident she can give me a very satisfying answer. We discussed my problem thru Skype. I was hesitant to open my dilemma to her, but as a man of science, I presented it in a formal manner. She listened intently and took some notes while I was talking. When I was done presenting my problem, she was silent for a while. I was trying to read her expression but I can't. Oh good Lord, I am a genius but why can't I read this woman's body language.

While I was deep in my thought about reading her actions, She formally gave her explanation. I was nervous. I don't know why I was nervous. Then my hand started to shake, feeling clammy at the same time. I took a deep breath and was surprised to hear her simple explanation.

" to put it simple, you are in love Sheldon. All the things that you said to me were indications that you are having a special feeling for someone"

well that is the first part of this story, I know sheldon was OOC here. I apologized to all the SHAMY fans out there. But i will try my best to write better. This is my first time to write a fanfic, and i am very happy because it is a SHAMY story! =))

so please, be a lamb and review my work. I am not afraid of flames, but I HOPE you will be very gentle to me... remember.. first timer... =)