Damned Soul, Cold Heart
Chapter One: The best deceptions
Hello you evil little red notebook. Today I am writing in your bullshit pages to waste my time. Well this is always a waste of time. The time being only a mere 6pm I thought why not write something useless. Tonight I think im going to go out of town for a 'bite' to eat. Jessica invited me to go to a concert upstate somewhere. I think she only invited me because Aubrey refused to go with her and nobody else wanted to. I think she's at the door already. On my way, maybe I'll make time and write again later.
- Sam
"Hello Sam, I see you decided to dress up," Jessica remarked. Unlike Jessica's fitted black jeans and black wife beater I was wearing black cargos and a black guy's shirt that said "Not even Bob Vila could fix my problems" and to complete the outfit a black and white striped beanie.
"And who do I have to impress?"
"Well now you look like my date rather than a friend."
"Oh, im your friend now." Seriously Jessica can annoy me to no end with her half ass remarks.
"You honestly need to stop hanging around Marry; his chronic bitchy-ness is starting to rub off on you."
"Let's just go already," I suggested as I grew impatient. This was going to be a long night.
--------- Jessica and I appeared in the concert hall a wee bit later. The band was already starting up.
"So who are we listing to anyways?" I inquired.
"Some little whiney emo bands. Thrice, The get up kids and Dashboard Confessional. They pretend to be "hardcore" and hate the world; I thought you would like them."
"Oh bite me."
"So you're offering now?" With that Jessica smiled and then turned and walked away towards the center of the room where the bar was.
-----Some time later----- Wow what a waste of my night. The guy needs to stop talking and just play music. "Now here's a song about the best day of my life." (Insert hands down) "Its official the only thing left to do is have an early meal and go back to New Mayhem." I said aloud while collapsing on the stairs in the back of the theater.
"Oh come on Sam, live a little (no pun intended) stop feeling sorry for yourself." Jessica said taking a seat on the stair above Sam. Jessica occasionally rocked her head tot the music.
"Now here's a song about feeling bad and feeling better" (insert the best deceptions) "Finally, something that relates to me." As the music played I found myself slipping off into old memories.
-------Cheesy memory sequence-------
"Mary do you love me?" I was lying on my bed in my room with pillows stacked under my head.
"Yeah Sam," Marry said half heartedly.
"Will we be together always?" I said a slight smile crossing my face.
"Jesus Sam, why do you care?"
"Well, I've seen you with Christian a lot lately and im worried." I sat upright and slowly stood up and walked towards my dresser where Marry was.
"About what," Marry walked to the other side of the room and fiddled with some of my trinkets.
"That you're going to leave me for him."
"Well that is realistic. Seeing I like men and Christian so happens to be one."
"Marry how could you say that?" I started shaking.
"Because it's the truth. It's realistic. Im not going to lie, not now anyways," Marry said turning his back and walking out of the room and shutting the door. I sat there and curled up on the floor rocking back and fourth horrified at the words that where just said.
"He can't do this to me." I sobbed.
------------------------------End of cheesy memory sequence------ ------------------
"Hello, earth to Sam. . . . you there?" Jessica joked waving her hands in front of my face. I broke out of my trance and starred Jessica in the eyes.
"And you want?"
"To go hunt, im starved and the sets over." Jessica said impatiently.
"Alright." We didn't bother to waste out time working back threw the theater, we used out minds to take ourselves to the local downtown.
"Well I like to hunt alone, so I'll see you around." Jessica turned and walked away, falling a little ways behind a bulky man who was soon to be her next meal.
"I always have to be someone else." With that I rounded the corner of the local Chipawae to Elmwood. I got coffee from a local place called Spot and waited. Soon enough a stalkie looking woman entered and ordered a chai tea. I willed her to leave the coffee shop and into a dark alley. Grabbing her form behind I bared her neck. "This wont hurt, I promise you'll be okay."
My teeth fell into the tender flesh and I drank. I haven't remembered that nice of a drink in a while. Maybe I didn't' notice but the body went limp in my arms. I never liked killing my victims if they where innocent as was in this case. I used my mind to take me to Niagara Falls which was a few blocks away. I threw the body in. Oh well to late to mourn.
After walking around a bit I appeared back in New Mayhem. From there I decided to go to Las Noches. It had just been re-opened after the "war". Come to think of it, that was at least a month or two ago. Outside where some of Nicolas's humans smoking. Kaei as usual was bartending.
"Hey Sam what can I get for you tonight?"
"Surprise me." I grinned.
"Mmmkay." She pulled out glass bottle filled with a dark amber liquid from under the bar. Not bothering to pour it in a glass she hastily handed me the bottle.
"Thanks Kaei." I took a deep drink of the mysterious liquid. Hmm it wasn't that bad.
"So what did you do tonight?" Kaei questioned leaning against the bar with her hands supporting her head. Before I could answer a fight broke out. That's not very uncommon in Las Noches but who was fighting was. Just as I turned around I saw Christian holding back Jessica from Aubrey.
"My night was good, went to a concert." I said turning back around. "But now it just got better." Just then Jessica broke free and slapped Aubrey across the face and stormed off. "Can this day get any better?" I turned to survey the scene and Christian was already gone. Come to think of it I haven't seen him in a while. Well Raine's death obviously upset him a lot. Mental note, visit Chris and ask him how he is. Maybe flowers. As I noted to myself Aubrey collapsed down on the stool next to me.
"May I inquire to the reason of that little spat?" I questioned as I turned towards him.
"Mind your own Sam." Aubrey was griping the edge of the bar so tightly his hands grew red.
"I just wanted to help." As I threw my hands up in mock surrender.
"Unless you can turn back time im pretty much screwed." Aubrey said banging his head on the bar.
"Well if I can't be of service im going to go visit Christian, he's been looking kind of down lately." I stood up and smiled at Kaei. Aubrey lifted his head.
"Don't bother, he's not speaking anymore." "What?"
"He. . . . . . . . . . doesn't. . . . . . . . speak. . . . . . . . .anymore. . . .its self explanatory really."
"When did this happen and why?" My mouth gaped open.
"The love of his life died Sam, at least he wont kill himself, only cause he knows he cant, but then again he hasn't been feeding and he's starting to lose some of his marbles. If you know what I mean."
"I love how im the last to know."
"Your not, your one of the first, well Marry knows only because he has been helping me with him."
"Im gunna go know and visit him." With that I walked out of Las Noches. Maybe I should bring him a bite to eat. I'll ask him when I get there. I walked up the stairs and knocked. Waiting there I got feed up and appeared in his living room. And there was Christian sitting in the middle of the floor in a filling pool of blood.
"God Chris, what are you doing?" I took notice that Aubrey's knife was laying in front of him. "You're a mess, let's clean you up." I went and got a wash cloth and mopped him up. He tried to slit his wrists I noticed. "I know your not my favorite person, I mean I know you don't know me that well or probably like me but let me help you out." Christian went over to the TV and started fiddling around with the DVD player. Moments later he took a seat on the couch next to me with a remote in hand. A movie came on. The tittle was Moulain Rouge. "Hey Chris im gonna stay and watch this with you if you don't mind." He shifted his eyes then fell back into his trance.
As the movie progressed I noticed a single tear going down Christian's right cheek. The movie soon ended after that. "Hey im gonna go now, call if you need me, well never mind you don't seem like you would. Its not that I mean don't call cause if you want to you can but. . .Well I'll just come by soon to see how your doing." Knowing he wouldn't call, I gave a weak smile and left remembering to take the knife from the counter. It was getting close to sunrise. About 4 a.m or so. After pulling my beanie down farther I put my hands in my pockets and decided to walk back to Café Sangria. Hopefully I wouldn't catch Marry. I wasn't in the mood for his antics.
AN: okay this is my first posted fanfic and I know it blows. It's based off of RaineMalfoy's "Leave me hear to bleed" It takes place after her fic. Please review I'll love all of you lots! And typewriters suck. . . a lot. It's sad how much they suck. Well go review. -=me=-
Hello you evil little red notebook. Today I am writing in your bullshit pages to waste my time. Well this is always a waste of time. The time being only a mere 6pm I thought why not write something useless. Tonight I think im going to go out of town for a 'bite' to eat. Jessica invited me to go to a concert upstate somewhere. I think she only invited me because Aubrey refused to go with her and nobody else wanted to. I think she's at the door already. On my way, maybe I'll make time and write again later.
- Sam
"Hello Sam, I see you decided to dress up," Jessica remarked. Unlike Jessica's fitted black jeans and black wife beater I was wearing black cargos and a black guy's shirt that said "Not even Bob Vila could fix my problems" and to complete the outfit a black and white striped beanie.
"And who do I have to impress?"
"Well now you look like my date rather than a friend."
"Oh, im your friend now." Seriously Jessica can annoy me to no end with her half ass remarks.
"You honestly need to stop hanging around Marry; his chronic bitchy-ness is starting to rub off on you."
"Let's just go already," I suggested as I grew impatient. This was going to be a long night.
--------- Jessica and I appeared in the concert hall a wee bit later. The band was already starting up.
"So who are we listing to anyways?" I inquired.
"Some little whiney emo bands. Thrice, The get up kids and Dashboard Confessional. They pretend to be "hardcore" and hate the world; I thought you would like them."
"Oh bite me."
"So you're offering now?" With that Jessica smiled and then turned and walked away towards the center of the room where the bar was.
-----Some time later----- Wow what a waste of my night. The guy needs to stop talking and just play music. "Now here's a song about the best day of my life." (Insert hands down) "Its official the only thing left to do is have an early meal and go back to New Mayhem." I said aloud while collapsing on the stairs in the back of the theater.
"Oh come on Sam, live a little (no pun intended) stop feeling sorry for yourself." Jessica said taking a seat on the stair above Sam. Jessica occasionally rocked her head tot the music.
"Now here's a song about feeling bad and feeling better" (insert the best deceptions) "Finally, something that relates to me." As the music played I found myself slipping off into old memories.
-------Cheesy memory sequence-------
"Mary do you love me?" I was lying on my bed in my room with pillows stacked under my head.
"Yeah Sam," Marry said half heartedly.
"Will we be together always?" I said a slight smile crossing my face.
"Jesus Sam, why do you care?"
"Well, I've seen you with Christian a lot lately and im worried." I sat upright and slowly stood up and walked towards my dresser where Marry was.
"About what," Marry walked to the other side of the room and fiddled with some of my trinkets.
"That you're going to leave me for him."
"Well that is realistic. Seeing I like men and Christian so happens to be one."
"Marry how could you say that?" I started shaking.
"Because it's the truth. It's realistic. Im not going to lie, not now anyways," Marry said turning his back and walking out of the room and shutting the door. I sat there and curled up on the floor rocking back and fourth horrified at the words that where just said.
"He can't do this to me." I sobbed.
------------------------------End of cheesy memory sequence------ ------------------
"Hello, earth to Sam. . . . you there?" Jessica joked waving her hands in front of my face. I broke out of my trance and starred Jessica in the eyes.
"And you want?"
"To go hunt, im starved and the sets over." Jessica said impatiently.
"Alright." We didn't bother to waste out time working back threw the theater, we used out minds to take ourselves to the local downtown.
"Well I like to hunt alone, so I'll see you around." Jessica turned and walked away, falling a little ways behind a bulky man who was soon to be her next meal.
"I always have to be someone else." With that I rounded the corner of the local Chipawae to Elmwood. I got coffee from a local place called Spot and waited. Soon enough a stalkie looking woman entered and ordered a chai tea. I willed her to leave the coffee shop and into a dark alley. Grabbing her form behind I bared her neck. "This wont hurt, I promise you'll be okay."
My teeth fell into the tender flesh and I drank. I haven't remembered that nice of a drink in a while. Maybe I didn't' notice but the body went limp in my arms. I never liked killing my victims if they where innocent as was in this case. I used my mind to take me to Niagara Falls which was a few blocks away. I threw the body in. Oh well to late to mourn.
After walking around a bit I appeared back in New Mayhem. From there I decided to go to Las Noches. It had just been re-opened after the "war". Come to think of it, that was at least a month or two ago. Outside where some of Nicolas's humans smoking. Kaei as usual was bartending.
"Hey Sam what can I get for you tonight?"
"Surprise me." I grinned.
"Mmmkay." She pulled out glass bottle filled with a dark amber liquid from under the bar. Not bothering to pour it in a glass she hastily handed me the bottle.
"Thanks Kaei." I took a deep drink of the mysterious liquid. Hmm it wasn't that bad.
"So what did you do tonight?" Kaei questioned leaning against the bar with her hands supporting her head. Before I could answer a fight broke out. That's not very uncommon in Las Noches but who was fighting was. Just as I turned around I saw Christian holding back Jessica from Aubrey.
"My night was good, went to a concert." I said turning back around. "But now it just got better." Just then Jessica broke free and slapped Aubrey across the face and stormed off. "Can this day get any better?" I turned to survey the scene and Christian was already gone. Come to think of it I haven't seen him in a while. Well Raine's death obviously upset him a lot. Mental note, visit Chris and ask him how he is. Maybe flowers. As I noted to myself Aubrey collapsed down on the stool next to me.
"May I inquire to the reason of that little spat?" I questioned as I turned towards him.
"Mind your own Sam." Aubrey was griping the edge of the bar so tightly his hands grew red.
"I just wanted to help." As I threw my hands up in mock surrender.
"Unless you can turn back time im pretty much screwed." Aubrey said banging his head on the bar.
"Well if I can't be of service im going to go visit Christian, he's been looking kind of down lately." I stood up and smiled at Kaei. Aubrey lifted his head.
"Don't bother, he's not speaking anymore." "What?"
"He. . . . . . . . . . doesn't. . . . . . . . speak. . . . . . . . .anymore. . . .its self explanatory really."
"When did this happen and why?" My mouth gaped open.
"The love of his life died Sam, at least he wont kill himself, only cause he knows he cant, but then again he hasn't been feeding and he's starting to lose some of his marbles. If you know what I mean."
"I love how im the last to know."
"Your not, your one of the first, well Marry knows only because he has been helping me with him."
"Im gunna go know and visit him." With that I walked out of Las Noches. Maybe I should bring him a bite to eat. I'll ask him when I get there. I walked up the stairs and knocked. Waiting there I got feed up and appeared in his living room. And there was Christian sitting in the middle of the floor in a filling pool of blood.
"God Chris, what are you doing?" I took notice that Aubrey's knife was laying in front of him. "You're a mess, let's clean you up." I went and got a wash cloth and mopped him up. He tried to slit his wrists I noticed. "I know your not my favorite person, I mean I know you don't know me that well or probably like me but let me help you out." Christian went over to the TV and started fiddling around with the DVD player. Moments later he took a seat on the couch next to me with a remote in hand. A movie came on. The tittle was Moulain Rouge. "Hey Chris im gonna stay and watch this with you if you don't mind." He shifted his eyes then fell back into his trance.
As the movie progressed I noticed a single tear going down Christian's right cheek. The movie soon ended after that. "Hey im gonna go now, call if you need me, well never mind you don't seem like you would. Its not that I mean don't call cause if you want to you can but. . .Well I'll just come by soon to see how your doing." Knowing he wouldn't call, I gave a weak smile and left remembering to take the knife from the counter. It was getting close to sunrise. About 4 a.m or so. After pulling my beanie down farther I put my hands in my pockets and decided to walk back to Café Sangria. Hopefully I wouldn't catch Marry. I wasn't in the mood for his antics.
AN: okay this is my first posted fanfic and I know it blows. It's based off of RaineMalfoy's "Leave me hear to bleed" It takes place after her fic. Please review I'll love all of you lots! And typewriters suck. . . a lot. It's sad how much they suck. Well go review. -=me=-
