So, this is my first Degrassi fic. They don't air Degrassi in the UK that much so I basically have to watch it online. It can be pretty hard to find it online and once you've found a link it still doesn't always let you watch it :/ So yeah, I'm not the biggest Degrassi expert. I've only really been following Clare, Eli and Alli's storyline, so I won't be mentioning other characters that much. I hope any hardcore degrassi fans out there don't get too offended if I get something wrong (: This is set after the last episode of Season 10. Eli's recovered from the crash and he's back at Degrassi. There's something different about him now though; he's a lot quieter and keeps to himself a lot more.
"I saw Eli this morning." I said to Clare at the lockers.
"Oh, really? I haven't seen him yet. We have last period together though." She replied.
I nodded. "He looked kind of... Lost."
"Lost?"
"I don't know... Upset?"
"Well...?" She shrugged.
"I really think you should be friends with him. He's back in school now, it's just not going to be healthy if you ignore eachother."
"Yeah, I guess. I'm going to give it some time though. I don't have feelings for him anymore, but the way he manipulated me... I still need time. Then I can think about us being friends."
I nodded again.
We were in the cafeteria now, walking towards the lunch line. Clare suddenly stopped. "What?" I asked, looking over. Eli was there.
"Here," she said, handing me a coin, "get me a sandwich, please?"
"What? What are you doing? He's already seen us!" I whispered.
"Exactly, that's why we can't keep arguing. Just go, I'll find us a table."
"Seriously? Fine." I said, watching her hurry off. I joined the lunch line, next to Eli. "Hey." I smiled. He nodded back, smiling a little, but his eyes looked vacant. "Are you feeling better?" I asked. He looked at me. "From being in hospital, I mean." I quickly added.
"Oh, yeah. Thanks." He said. He walked off and sat at an empty table.
I looked over at Clare. She was giving me a "what the hell?" look. Well, "what the heck?" for her, I suppose. Before I realised what I was doing, I had followed Eli to his table. He looked at me in confusion. "So... Where's Adam?" I asked.
"He'll be here in a few." He said, giving a reassuring nod, still looking confused.
"Oh, okay."
"Alli?"
"Yeah?"
"Why the hell do you care?" He laughed.
I looked around. "Look, Eli," I sighed, "no one deserves to be lonely," I looked over at Clare, "no matter what they've done." He looked down. I continued, "Trust me, I know what it feels like, distancing yourself from everyone out of gulit... But you said Adam's coming anyway, so whatever..." I said. I turned towards the table Clare was at and walked off.
"What was that? Not that I mind you talking to Eli or anything... It's just you usually don't." Clare asked.
"I know, I just felt sorry for him. He obviously feels bad about everything... I don't know, it's just easy for me to sympathise with him?" I replied.
She looked over at him. "You know, even though I don't have feelings for him, I do still care about him. If he knows what he'd done was wrong, I don't want him to carry on feeling guilty."
"That's why I'm saying you should be friends."
"Maybe I will..." She said, still pondering the idea.
I was now at home doing some homework. After all the shit that's happened lately, I'm just really trying to focus on my studies. I looked up at the computer screen. I had an IM... From Eli? He had been on my contact list for ages, but we never really spoke. Maybe it was because of what happened at lunch? That's kinda sweet. I clicked the conversation bar and it opened up.
"Hi" He'd said.
"What's up?" I sent.
"NM" He replied.
He started to type again.
"Im sorry i blew u off at the cafeteria. i just wanted to say thanks" He added.
"No its fine. i didnt feel bad anyway. i totally get it"
"I guessed since i thought clare wouldve told u everything, i didnt get why u were talking to me"
"Dont feel guilty. clares not even mad at you, she's over it now"
"Really?"
I hoped I didn't just make him hopeful. "I dont wanna give u the wrong impression eli" I quickly sent.
"Oh right. thats fine. im gonna sign off now"
"Kk. bye" And with that, he was offline. I sighed.
Wait. Why was I suddenly so worried about Eli? I mean, I know I was trying to change; be more focused, be nicer, but still. I guess I kind of felt a weird 'connection' with him today. Uh-oh. No, I thought, Eli's totally off-limits. Even if he wasn't Clare's ex, after everything that's happened this semester, I don't want to think about boys for a long time.
So I don't think I'm going to upload on this until a get a couple reviews. I want to know if you guys think this one is worth carrying on or not. Either way, I don't think I'll be uploading as regularly as I do for my LWD fic, which I update like everyday x)
