Stormy blue orbs gazed down at the polished crown that glinted in the light of the torches, the overwhelming emptiness swirling in the pit of his gut; The weight of the scarred throne lying heavily upon his shoulders.


Woah woah, rewind a bit here. I should probably start at the beginning shouldn't I? This story starts with your favorite Dwarven duo and their childhood friend, Amara.


Now before you turn away, thinking this is just another typical story about a Mary-sue Dwarf girl in love with the Durin Brothers, I won't say you're completely wrong. BUT! I am definitely not Mary-sue material, I held my own against those burly trolls and stinking goblins. Those Orc's were definitely a pain in my arse and in my opinion should have suffered more than they did, but I'm getting off track again. Let me tell you a bit about myself..

As I'm sure everyone knows who Fili and Kili are, let me tell you a little about myself. My name is Amara, a Dwarven born in the Ered Luin in 2866. Making me 2 years younger than Kili, and 7 younger than Fili.

I wasn't the most 'normal' looking Dwarf to have been born. As I was told, when I came into the world, I was pretty much hairless, which was uncommon amongst the Dwarven race; all except for the tufts of brown locks that sprouted from my head. Amongst my hairless face, was my skin. Now, I wouldn't say it was pale, I did have some color to me if I say so myself. But I was told that if it weren't for my parents word, I could have been mistaken for a half elf. Much to my parents dismay of course, but that didn't stop them from loving me to their utmost and I am forever grateful to them.

My mother was a close friend of Dis, so it wasn't long until I was introduced to her sons, Fili and Kili. Now Kili was still young at the time, so I won't lie, he did drop me once. Or twice. But being a hardheaded Dwarf, I cried...a little. But Kili learned quick after that. Fili was 7 at the time, and much more careful with the baby than his younger brother.

As I grew, I spent more and more time with the two boys. Though I may not have looked the part of a Dwarven female, I sure played it off just as good, if not more. I was loud, rambunctious, stubborn and had decent manners. Only when I felt like it anyway.

The three of us became fast friend, and we were pretty much always together. I didn't associate much with any of the other Dwarves, partially because they all saw me a different and 'ugly' because I had no facial hair. But mainly because I felt like Fili and Kili were really all I needed to fill my social need.

Though none of us could have possibly seen what was coming in our near future, when the boys Uncle Thorin showed up on the doorstep of the Ered Luin, speaking of a quest to regain Erabor.

Keep in mind though, this is not just my story alone. When everything was said and done with, we all lost someone important to us that day, and you'll never quite understand the feeling of loosing your other half quite as much as he did.

I should probably start from the beginning, shouldn't I?

This is our story, and ours alone. So let me tell you it..


"You're out of your mind Thorin!" Dis exclaimed as she looked at her elder brother, thinking he finally lost his marbles.

Thorin let out a thin sigh, crossing his arms over his chest. "I'm serious Dis." He told her. "They grew up on the tales of the mountain, it's time they saw it for themselves. This isn't just some half-assed idea I came up with when I was drunk." He argued with her, knowing that was going to be her next guess as she opened her mouth, but he beat her to it.

"Thorin I can't!" Dis said, shaking her head. "They're my sons!"

"And they're my Nephews as well. Do you really think I would let any harm come to them?" He told her, seeing her hesitate for a moment. "Kili's one of the finest archers I know and Fili's come a great way in his sword training. They're ready for this Dis. This is our one and only chance to reclaim our home."

Dis pressed her lips together as she stared at her brother.

Unbeknownst to them, three pairs of ears were lurking outside the closed door, eavesdropping on the conversation.


Kili exchanged glances with his brother, eyes lighting up in excitement. They both had been curious about Thorin's sudden visit, but he never had expected this outcome.

"Come." Fili said in a hushed whisper, pushing the group down the hallway and away from the door.

"We're going to reclaim Erabor!" Amara exclaimed once they were out of earshot of the door, her hazelnut eyes shimmering brightly. But her excitement was quickly cut off by the eldest brother.

"You're staying here." Fili stopped her before she got ahead of herself. "It's way too dangerous." He told her, shaking his head slightly. He knew what laid in that mountain, and there was no way he could possibly lead her into the den of a dragon.

"I'm with Fili on this one Amara." Kili agreed, glancing at his brother before back at her.

In the entirety of the 73 years she had spent with the two boys, this had to be the first time she ever felt truly irritated with them.

"You can't honestly ask me to stay behind while you two traverse across the world to take back a mountain that was claimed by a dragon 60 years ago!" Amara exclaimed, staring at the two. "Mahal, are you serious right now?"

Fili and Kili exchanged nervous glances, before returning their attention back to Amara once again. "Please, we're asking this of you because we can't ask you to put yourself in harms way." Fili told her softly.

Amara couldn't believe her ears right now. She shook her head, lifting a hand as she shook her finger. "I swear you two." She muttered under her breath, pressing her lips together before she turned and stormed off down the hall.

Fili let out a sigh, tugging at the tassel of his beard before glancing at Kili. "She took that well." He said, nodding his head to the side.

Kili paused for a moment. "A little too well.."


"No. Its out of the question." Thorin was quick to shoot down Amara's request as fast as Fili and Kili had done so earlier.

After she had stormed off, she had gone in search of Thorin instead. She knew how mad the boys would be with her when they found out, but she knew Thorin was the leader of this quest and he had the final say of who would or wouldn't come.

Amara stood her ground. "There's no place for me here if Fili and Kili are not around. They've been my only friends since I was pretty much born. Thorin, you cannot take that away from me." She begged him, her eyes never leaving his bright blue ones. "They've taught me how to handle a bow and arrow and a sword. I can help." She demanded the Durin King to be.

Thorin let out a thin sigh, his patience wearing thin with the girl. He knew his nephews cared about the woman, but to bring her on this quest, would be a whole other story.

He watched her stand defiantly in front of him, never backing down from her request as she stared at him. Thorin felt her had to give her credit though, he was usually not a man to be tested with, but yet here she stood.

"I will follow you guys even if you say I cannot go." Amara played her next card, seeing his eyes narrow slightly at her, but when he didn't budge, a quiet sigh passed her lips. "Please Thorin, do I have to beg you. Who knows how long you guys will be gone for, or if you'll return or not. I cannot sit back and do nothing knowing they might never come back to me." She pleaded him.

Thorin could see the desperation in her hazel eyes, feeling his composure slip finally as he pinched the bridge of his nose with an exasperated sigh. "Fine! But you better stay on your toes and pull your own weight. I'm not going to be responsible for you." He told her finally, dropping his hand as he looked down at her. "And you'll be responsible for telling your parents, not me." He told her, pulling a paper out of his pocket as he shoved it in her hands.

"Go with the boys. In three weeks time this is where we're meeting. I'm going north right now, I'll meet you all there." Thorin told her before slipping past her and down the hallway.

Amara felt the relief flood over her, letting out a drawn out sigh before looking down at the paper. "Bag end? The shire?" She read the words on the paper that had been sketched out in Khuzdul.


Two days later, Amara sat in front of her parents quietly, waiting their response to her news. She still had yet to tell Fili and Kili about her talk with Thorin, and it appeared that he hadn't let it slip to them either. To which she was grateful.

"Amara, are you absolutely sure about this?" Her mother Fenna, asked softly. Her father on the other hand, sat quiet and rigid.

She almost found it funny that she could stand up to the King to be without breaking a sweat, but when it came to her parents, nerves got the better of her.

"I'm sure." Amara nodded confidently. "I can't let them go without knowing what might become of them." She told them, though feeling guilty knowing that was what she was doing to her parents.

Fenna smiled softly, standing up as she hugged her daughter tightly. "You know we'll be proud of you no matter what you do." She told her, pulling back as she looked at her, placing a hand on her cheek. "You love those boys and there's no way we could ask you to stay back and let them go." She told her, kissing her forehead softly.

Amara felt the tears burn behind her eyes, leaning into her mothers touch as she closed her eyes. "I promise I'll come back." She told her, opening her eyes as she then glanced over to her father.

Khim was silent as his daughter turned to him, finally letting out a breath of air. "You better tell those boys to watch out for you or else they'll have something else to be scared of more than that reptile sleeping in the mountain." He told her gruffly.


The next day before they left brought on an unexpected visit from Dis. Fili and Kili's mother never gave much thought to her sons best friend, most likely due to her looks just like every other female dwarf that avoided her.

"My sons are very fond of you." Dis spoke softly as she and Amara walked through the halls, her hands clasped neatly in front of her. Amara was quiet as they walked, a small smile played on her lips though as she thought of the boys.

"And I them." She agreed, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. '"We've been friends since I was a baby after all." She added in with a tilt of her head. "They're my only friends after all."

Dis looked over at the girl who had grown into a woman, stopping as she watched her for a moment. "They care about you." She stated, watching her reactions carefully.

Amara felt her cheeks warm slightly before she shook her head, waving her hand in front of her slightly. "Nah nah, I don't quite think its that far." She laughed nervously as she glanced around. She wasn't quite sure why she was speaking to her of such subjects.

Dis gave her a knowing smile. "A mother always knows her child inside and out." She reminded her. "And though they may not realize it yet themselves, I can tell they look at you a completely different way than they do to other women."

Amara cast her gaze downwards, biting her lip. She couldn't deny that she did have feelings for the two. She wasn't sure of what kind yet. Perhaps her love for them as friends may have grew into something more throughout the years without her realizing it herself.

"They both care for you, which you can guess will only lead to troubles in the future." Dis warned her suddenly, catching Amara off guard by the sudden tenseness in the air. "You cannot have both without driving a wedge between them. So please, tread carefully when it comes to that time." Dis told her, giving her a small smile before continuing on her way.

Amara stood there quietly for a few moments, pressing her lips together. She felt as if Dis had meant it as, 'I'm Just looking out for my sons', but in a way it felt as if she wasn't really be accepted as a possible court for either of the boys. Though she had long grown used to this behavior towards her, she couldn't shake off the uneasiness that came along with the silence that she was left behind in..


Stepping outside, Kili adjusted the bag on his shoulder as he glanced over at Fili. "Are you sure it's alright not to say goodbye to Amara?" He asked uncertainly.

Fili nodded, glancing over at his brother. "She'll be mad for sure, but it's better this way." He told him. In all seriousness, Fili knew there could be a good chance that they wouldn't ever see their home again. The thought of saying goodbye to Amara knowing he might not see her again, Fili couldn't quite handle the thought of it.

"Well that's just rude." A voice spoke up from behind the two, both heads whipping back.

Amara stepped out of the doors, bag hanging off her back as she glared at the two boys. "You barely talk to me for two days and then try and leave without saying goodbye to me?" She crossed her arms over her chest.

"What are you doing?" Kili demanded, examining her attire as he shook his head. "Oh no, you're not coming with us." He said, walking over to her as he turned her around and aimed her back towards the entrance of the mountain. "Go back."

Amara was quick to twirl out of his grasp, running behind him as she grinned. "I'm part of this company just as much as you two are." She told him, pulling out a paper as she showed it to them.

"Thorin gave this to me."

Fili stepped forth, taking the paper from her as he looked at it. It was the same address as the paper he had been given.

Amara crossed her arms over her chest. "So even if you leave me behind, I know exactly where to go and what to look for." She told them.

"So, let me get this straight. You went behind our backs after we said no, and talked Thorin into letting you come?" Kili spoke up, clearly on edge and clearly, mad.

Amara rolled her head a bit with a sigh. "Look you two, have you ever heard the saying 'home is where the heart is'? My heart and home is with you two. I don't belong here, its only been you two that's kept me here this entire time. If you're going, I'm going with you." She told them.

"That's the most hod-"

"We can't talk you out of this can we?" Fili cut off his brother, looking at Amara as he settled for her final answer, though a bit displeased with the outcome, he couldn't quite say he was mad that she was coming.

Amara looked at Fili, feeling a soft smile cross her lips. "We're in this together." She told him. "If this is to end in fire, then we shall all burn together.."


Authors Note: So after watching Battle of the Five Armies, an idea struck me for a story. I don't want to go into too much detail about it, but this will probably be a longer story than that of Shiver, and it will be following the move line up to and after the end of BOTFA. With a slightly different ending. That is all I can say without spoiling the movie for those of you who have yet to see it.