Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam SEED. Note: This story will be told in Kira's point of view.
C.E. 71
Ever since I started fighting for the Archangel, the only thing that I received was discrimination. Then everything changed when I met her, Lacus Clyne. Flay Allster blamed me for the death of his father and worse, she cursed me for being a Coordinator. Why does everyone hate me for being a Coordinator? I cannot control how I was born!
I was crying. I was shouting when suddenly a soft voice reached out to me. Her voice made me forget all the racist comments that I receive from anyone. From that time, I fell in love for the first time. I fell in love with Lacus Clyne. But then, I heard from someone that she will be used as a bargaining chip for ZAFT. I couldn't just stand there and do nothing! I decided to return her to ZAFT even though it would break my heart. Her safety should come first. At that time, I promised myself that I would meet her again someday. I stayed with the Archangel because I believe that I will meet her again someday.
The genetic discrimination did not stop. Lacus once said to me that I should forget every criticisms that they throw at me and move on. But how am I supposed to move on if she's not here? I was confused. I needed comfort. Ironically, I chose Flay Allster. The same girl who criticized me for being a Coordinator. She said that she would protect me. I decided to seek comfort from her. She was very different. She didn't even have at least one similarity with Lacus. No one could replace Lacus.
Every time I looked at Flay, I see Lacus. I look at Flay thinking that it was always Lacus that was with me. I kept on deceiving myself. It hurts me because I feel like I'm betraying my love for Lacus.
Lacus Clyne, she was the perfect kind of girl. She is kind, beautiful, and a pacifist. She is a pop idol in the PLANTs. She has a very beautiful singing voice. When I heard her sing, I was astounded. Her beautiful face matches her beautiful face and beautiful personality. Any guy would easily fall for her.
Flay was taking advantage of me. She was toying with me. She was manipulating me to make me her Coordinator-killing machine. Every time she kissed me, I was disgusted with myself. I just wished that it was Lacus's lips that I was kissing.
I ended my relationship with Flay. My fake love for her. She didn't love me too, anyway. Even though she never told me directly or heard from her directly. I always knew that she was manipulating me. I always felt it.
Now I'm free. I want to see you again Lacus!
Lacus, I wish you're life is okay. Tensions between Earth and PLANT are even worse now. Stay safe. When can I see you again? Do we both have to die first before we see each other again? I hope not.
Lacus, I want you to know that you are the only girl I love. Not Flay. Flay may be in my mind but not in my heart. You are the only one that occupies my heart. My heart that was damaged by discrimination and criticisms.
Oh how I wish to see you again. I can't die yet. I can't die yet without seeing you again. If our meeting was only by chance, then I believe that I won't meet you again. But if our meeting was fate, there is no doubt that destiny will let us see each other once again.
I promise that I will become stronger. Not only to protect everyone in the Archangel but also to stay alive. I need to stay alive so I could meet you again.
If we ever meet again, I will tell you how I feel about you.
A/N: Just a quick oneshot. Who knows? What if this is how Kira feels deep inside? I never really liked Flay Allster. In fact, she is my most hated anime character ever. I will probably be able to finish "Fate" and "Stay With Me" by next year since it is currently hell month in school. Anyway, READ AND REVIEW!
