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The He, Him, and You refers to Tsuna.
The Only Thing
By Flamewater
The one thing that I can't do for the tenth is to call him….Tsuna. I can't do it. At times I feel as if I do not deserve to serve him for I have failed him several times, but yet he still lets me stay. I call him Tenth and I call him Boss, but I simply can't call him Tsuna.
Everyone else calls him, Tsuna.
I still do not like myself, but I try not to let him know that fact. He would be worried about me, ask what is wrong, and I do not want to burden him even though he would tell me 'Gokudera, You are not a burden'.
Every once in a while I'm a little afraid of being tossed away and I can't stop myself from thinking briefly about what if the tenth decides to make me leave. That is when I hate myself for even thinking that at all, I harshly pinch myself several times on the arm, and silently thought while having my eyes closed tightly 'Sorry, Tenth'.
I know he wants me to call him, Tsuna. The only thing I won't do is call him by his nickname Tsuna, but anything else I'm willing to do for him.
I feel guilty about not being able to do the number one thing he wants most from me, but I do not want to be like everyone else. Carelessly saying with their lips over and over again, Tsuna.
The only thing I refuse to give up is calling you Tenth and Boss. It means the world to me and I'm not sure how to explain it to you.
I have not really had anyone to call Boss due to being an illegitimate child, not being a pure Italian, and having a past history of playing the piano. For one or more reasons that is why mafia family after mafia family I have been tossed out due to them finding out somehow. It was painful each time, but I didn't let it show and acted as if I didn't give a damn. That it didn't hurt like hell being rejected countless times.
I had lost hope of being part of a mafia family due to being an illegitimate child who happens to not be a pure Italian and happens to have the ability to play the piano.
You found out about me being an illegitimate child, not being pure Italian, and finding out I use to play the piano. You didn't mind unlike the other mafia Bosses who tossed me out after finding out.
You are special, You are amazing, and You accepted me when no one else would accept me. You have no idea on how much you mean to me, Tenth. I do not like myself, but somehow you care about me and worry about me even though I try not to worry you at all. I will protect you no matter what Tenth. I will do anything for you, but one thing.
I will call you Tenth or Boss, but not ever Tsuna. I'm sorry, but maybe I'll be able to tell you why one day about my reason. You are the first Mafia Boss to ever accept me completely despite all of my flaws, faults, and failures.
I have been hurt countless times before meeting you, Tenth. I have been rejected, kicked out, and other such things. If you ever toss me away that would kill me completely and no one would be able to save me. I know you wouldn't kick me out, but sometimes I get worried for it has happened many times to me and I don't think I'll ever truly get over it.
You are important to me and You have told me that I'm important to you. I would die for you, I would take a bullet for you, and I would defend you. I know it hurts you to hear me say such things, but it is true. I'm your right hand man and I will do anything/everything for you expect call you 'Tsuna'.
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