Eager to Please

by Ayaia of the Moon:

Eager to please

Eager to delay

The pain that grows

Every day

Eager to dull the pain inside

Eager to take it all in stride.

The weight of the world

Is so heavy to hold

I am not akin to

The great Gods of old

No Herculean strength do I possess

Nor a clever wit to confess

Yet I keep up this façade.

This charade.

Can you not see me

Breaking?

Slowly being crushed

by this immense undertaking

Eager to please

I'm a "dear, sweet joy."

The "boy who lived."

A "tragic orphan boy."

"So kind and charming

But so clumsy! It's alarming!

He must be so accident prone;

He has more cuts than I have bones!"

To you, what I fear is

Fear itself.

But as of late…I fear

To be by myself.

My boggart has changed.

My fears re-arranged

I'm becoming the third wheel,

My two friends are becoming more,

While I'm forced to deny

The one girl I adore

Nobody should have to share

The heavy cross that's mine to bear

Eager to please

"That cute little tyke.

That one whose clothes

Don't fit quite right.

The odd one, with those

Thick round frames

Who's…not quite sane.

Oh. What a shame."

"That boy is so pale, and

So hopelessly thin.

I wonder if there's

Something wrong with him?

Why does he work

At that garden so much?

Does he notice it's raining?

Those plants are slick to the touch."

I only wish they all could see

The tormented soul I long to free.

I wish the pain inside would show

Upon my skin like a physical blow.

Can nobody see the scars within?

Like the bruises on my skin?

I guess I'm just too Eager to please.

Eager to tease.

Eager to set

People's minds at ease.

Nothing's really wrong with me.

Come autumn's wind at last I'm free.

Free from the hits, and from the abuse.

Free from the fights I always lose.

Free at last for one more year --

Professor, can't I just stay here?

I know you say it's safer there,

But the cruelty is hard to bear.

I suppose It's all right

To go just one more summer.

Just one more fracture

Won't be such a bummer.

I can take one more black eye.

I can't perish from that…can I?

When the world gives a shake,

Know I fell to my knees.

I had more than I can take.

I'm just too

Eager to please.