Eager to Please
by Ayaia of the Moon:
Eager to please
Eager to delay
The pain that grows
Every day
Eager to dull the pain inside
Eager to take it all in stride.
The weight of the world
Is so heavy to hold
I am not akin to
The great Gods of old
No Herculean strength do I possess
Nor a clever wit to confess
Yet I keep up this façade.
This charade.
Can you not see me
Breaking?
Slowly being crushed
by this immense undertaking
Eager to please
I'm a "dear, sweet joy."
The "boy who lived."
A "tragic orphan boy."
"So kind and charming
But so clumsy! It's alarming!
He must be so accident prone;
He has more cuts than I have bones!"
To you, what I fear is
Fear itself.
But as of late…I fear
To be by myself.
My boggart has changed.
My fears re-arranged
I'm becoming the third wheel,
My two friends are becoming more,
While I'm forced to deny
The one girl I adore
Nobody should have to share
The heavy cross that's mine to bear
Eager to please
"That cute little tyke.
That one whose clothes
Don't fit quite right.
The odd one, with those
Thick round frames
Who's…not quite sane.
Oh. What a shame."
"That boy is so pale, and
So hopelessly thin.
I wonder if there's
Something wrong with him?
Why does he work
At that garden so much?
Does he notice it's raining?
Those plants are slick to the touch."
I only wish they all could see
The tormented soul I long to free.
I wish the pain inside would show
Upon my skin like a physical blow.
Can nobody see the scars within?
Like the bruises on my skin?
I guess I'm just too Eager to please.
Eager to tease.
Eager to set
People's minds at ease.
Nothing's really wrong with me.
Come autumn's wind at last I'm free.
Free from the hits, and from the abuse.
Free from the fights I always lose.
Free at last for one more year --
Professor, can't I just stay here?
I know you say it's safer there,
But the cruelty is hard to bear.
I suppose It's all right
To go just one more summer.
Just one more fracture
Won't be such a bummer.
I can take one more black eye.
I can't perish from that…can I?
When the world gives a shake,
Know I fell to my knees.
I had more than I can take.
I'm just too
Eager to please.
