They say love is a hard thing to find, and once you've found it hold on to it and never let go. Never let go. I never want to let go, I want to hold on to it more than ANYTHING. I love Michael, but sometimes I feel like not enough. Oh, sure, the neck smelling thing? I fall in love with him every time I do that.
But it's been different lately.
Like I have no control over my emotions, and they're all over the place. I think it all started with the sexy dance I did at Michaels party.
Yes, that's when I lost my mind.
J.P.
J.P.
Every time I say his name I get this tingly sensation. I don't know why.. It's not like I even like him like that or anything. Sure he's funny and cute and all, but no.. I don't. I love Michael, even if everything's not perfect right now.
I'm about to leave to go to Michaels dorm room to see him.
And YES I am very excited to see him.
Because I love him, and all.
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I just got home. Thing's started to get hot and heavy back in his dorm. Not to say that I hated it or anything. A lot of beneath the bra action and I don't think I disappointed him either.
But that's what it feels to me now, like everything's just sexual. No we haven't had sex yet but it seems like every time we get closer and closer.
BUT SOMETHING IS HOLDING ME BACK!
Michaels POV
I have been in love with a beautiful, tall, vegetarian blonde who means everything in the world to me. I love being around her and just listening to her talk. She's my own princess. But..
She's distancing herself.
I'd be so stupid if I didn't notice. I'm not oblivious or dumb. I don't go to Columbia University for no reason.
Like tonight for example:
"I love you Michael"
"I love you forever Mia"
"...forever is a long time"
What's that supposed to mean? she was never like this before. I feel like such a fag sitting here worrying over this.
And why do I have a very weird reason it has something to do with J.P.
Besides that though, everything went great tonight. I just wish she'd give it up already though.
