Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing in the slightest.
WARNING: Adult situations, and opens up with slight lemon. Please read at your own risk.
Shattered Wings
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Emptiness.
Complete and udder emptiness is all I feel. Nothing mattered and I was so numb on the inside that I barely registered the stranger above me. I gaze up at him and notice the emotion flashing before his brown eyes; lust. As his pelvis continues to pound into me I tried to remember where I meet him. Staring up at his face again I watch the sweat slide down his right cheek and through my personal haze I recognize the scar. Now I remember being at the bar, sitting there in my red dress, which begged for attention, and him coming up to sit beside me. He's scar, white and jagged extended down the left side of his handsome face. He was sweet though. He talk to me like I was a normal woman, not some lost female trying to hide her pain in the arms of someone else.
I was forced out of my thoughts when I heard my own voice moan in ecstasy that I didn't even realized I was feeling. I tightened around him, felt him climax as well, then watched him collapse beside me. I just laid there, staring up at the ceiling, trying desperately not to cry. I couldn't believe I had sunk so low. Getting up suddenly, not even caring about my nakedness I dressed frantically while the man slept on the bed that I had just vacated. I had to go. Somewhere. Anywhere but here.
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I walked quietly down the rain-socked streets. Of course I was quiet, I was the "Perfect Soldier". I can't remember why the hell I was out here in the rain but I was. I remembered working out in my apartment...then what? As I look up I see the silhouette of a woman. I wonder for a minute what she's doing out here in this terrible storm but what should I care.
As I approach her I see she's standing in front of a store, staring at the TV's in the window, which are still on at 2 in the morning. For some reason she seems familiar. But when I stop and glance at the TV's, that doesn't matter anymore. I remember why I'm out here. I remember what's been killing me for 2 long years now and now I know why she seemed so familiar. We both stare at it, watching the happy couple. Then she looks at me and I can see she's not the same person she used to be. Two years ago she would never be caught dead in the tight "fuck me" red dress that she was wearing. I couldn't see all of it because of the trench coat she was wearing but I saw it. So she was dying inside as well. I noticed the hickey on the right side of her neck, just bellow her ear. 'So how many have you?' I asked her in my head. I've had my fare share of those too. Her hair is long too. Even though it's drenched I see that it's down to the small of her back. But physically she's still the same. A little more matured but her eyes, the eyes that used to sparkle with laughter at HIS jokes are dark and haunted. Just like...just like mine.
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I couldn't stop looking at him. He had grown up that's for sure. He wasn't the little boy anymore, at least on the outside. He was wearing a thick black leather jacket but I could see the slight bulk of his muscles. His hair was the same. But his eyes were darker, if that's possible. He looked lost. He looked...just like me.
I couldn't stand there and look at him anymore, to be reminded what happen two years ago. I realized now that on that fateful day I hadn't even thought about him or his feelings but I do now. I thought I had forgot but with the announcement today everything came back full force. I couldn't stand there any more so I pulled away from him and walked away. I wanted to go home and pretend that I didn't care. So that's what I did. I left him there in the rain and I went home.
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Before anything is spoken she turns away. I saw the emotions flashing through her eyes and I understood how she couldn't. I reminded her and she reminded me. I never thought about her. I never thought about any of them anymore. Or at least I tried. I couldn't help but think about THEM but neither could she I guess. All I could do was stand there and watch her disappear into the night.
