Title: I'm ready

Spoilers: No man's land and Man down

Warning: Slash

Pairing: Eric/Ryan

I'm ready

You stand against the wall of his hospital room in the dead of the night, thinking about the day, about what had happened how greed had turned your world upside down, but more important you think about that morning about how stupid the fight seems now, you think about how he offer you forever and you were to scared to take it, too stupid to realize that this was different, that he was different, that he was with you because he loves you, not because he wanted something. But you had been hurt, and you didn't trust and in your mind you believe that it wouldn't last, that forever was a fairy tale, a dream out of your reach, but now you know better and you laugh not in amusement, but in bitterness realizing that it took a bullet to the head to come to terms with it; you love him, his your live, your world, your everything and that it might be too late to tell him. And you look at him again and in the silence of the night you make a promise, a promise to see him through this, to help him, to stop running , to start trusting him and to say I love you, because by God if he survives you were never going to let him out of your site. And before you leave his room you approach his bed and you whispered to him " I'm ready, I love you and I'll wait for you however long it takes even if I have to wait for death myself, '' and you know you meant it, and somehow you know he knows it too.

THE END