A/N: how Zell felt about losing his grandfather.

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You were always so strong to me. Almost invincible, like nothing could hurt you, nothing could break you. Nothing could stop my grandpa.

You loved to tease me, hiding money in your hand then dropping it to the floor and covering it with your foot. You always thought that one got by me, it did quite a number of times but I was sharp and I caught on. Just like you knew I would.

I remember all the stories you told me, how you had trained and fought in the war. I would sit there, my attention completely undivided as you told me of your flying days. I even remember how you had that one spot on your arm and you convinced me it was a bullet in your arm. Do you still remember? Remember how I was desperate to get it out, desperate for you to be safe. I remember.. I'll always remember.

You were so generous, so nice to me, exactly the kind of grandpa I wanted. You were brave, strong and had a nice sense of humour. You always made me laugh... Ever since I was little you always managed to put a smile on my face.

Where's that smile now? You've left me and I feel somewhat alone, like a part of me has been taken away. Why do things like this happen? You weren't supposed to leave me so suddenly... I don't want to be alone.

Why'd you go?

I know I can never be as strong as you were, grandpa. But I can try; I can do my best. I'll help out ma, comfort her and make her smile. I'll watch out for the family, make them as proud of me as they were of you. And maybe.. Maybe you'll be able to see me.. and maybe you'll feel that pride too.

I miss you grandpa... I wish you were still here but ma told me why you left. I understand now, I understand that god needed you right now... But I need you too, is it really fair what's happened? I guess there's nothing I can do but remember you, I'll always tell my friends about my grandpa, and I'll say it with pride.

One day I'll see you again... I understand that it will be a while but maybe I need to wait it out.. maybe there's something's that I still don't understand and my future is what holds the answers. I know that's what you would have wanted me to do; I know you would have told me to not wait on things that have happened in the past. You'd want me to move on, not forget.... but to remember.

I will remember you grandpa, how could I forget anyone that I loved as much as you?

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This short story is in loving memory of my grandfather, Peter Smith. I love you and miss you grandpa. No body has to review if they wish not to, I just wrote this to clear my head and get back on track with my other fics. I'd also like to thank everyone who has given me support through these hard times that I am facing. I cannot thank you enough.