The Past Hurts
part one
"What the hell is going on with you?"
"why does something have to be going on for me to…"
"you've changed you don't snap at everyone that pisses you off, you don't go against patients wishes, . you don't go around having mindless sex with your colleagues, and then break up with…"
"there was nothing to break of…. it was fun and it was non of your business,.."
"you made it my business when you brought you social life as you what to call it into work" House took a couple of steps back, and took a deep breath as Cameron stood in front of him glaring at him they had been at it for 20 minuets and still he had not gotten her to answer the first question he had asked that started the argument in the first place.
Cameron fought hard to hold back tears that were so desperate to escape, No, she kept telling herself, not here, not at work, not in front of him.
Instead she let the anger take full control and give just as much as she received from him.
He was not going to get her to tell him anything.
"what is going on with you?" he asked again showing such determination in his eyes as he glared at her, Cameron being just as determined not to let him get the better of he return the look.
"Everything in my personal life is just fine. Now if you don't mined I've got work to do" she turned and left him standing alone in his office as she made her way down the hall towards the elevators.
It had been weeks of her strange behaviour that had brought on this argument, the last straw had been this morning when he had walked into the office right in the middle of a very heated discussion between her and chase they a quieted before he could find out what they were talking about,
But had not spoken to each other for the remainder of the morning that was until their argument seemed to seep through during a differential which meant it took twice as long leaving both himself and Forman to wonder what had gone on with usually happy couple to be at each others thoughts.
It wasn't just the mood changes and her newly developed boldness it was the decisions she was making, sleeping with Chase of all people just because it was fun was not something she would usually do, casual sex just wasn't her. Something was defiantly wrong here.
Cameron sat alone in the locked storage cupboard she needed some time to cool of, how dare he demand to know what was going on with her it had nothing to do with him if he wanted to be apart of her life he would have been and now that ship has sailed.
Cameron closed her eyes willing her self to keep control and stay calm she could not afford to break down in tears at work.
Once her eyes were shut tightly she thought back to the morning this all started the moment she got that letter a month ago, that's when she began regretting her past actions which were filled with, why didn't I's and why shouldn't I have's.
NO not at work she told her self again opening her eyes unlocking the door and letting herself out.
"that one's mine" a small child snatched a blue dolphin sand mould from her older sister,
"no it's not Allie you've got to share" her sister scolded taking back the toy. Another little girl came to join them sitting right next to Allie
"Emm want to help me" Allie asked hading Emma a spade. The three sisters sat playing together in the sand box in their back garden.
Louise the oldest of the three at six, Emma five and three year old Allison.
A tall man emerged from sliding glass doors and walk quietly over to the girls he had his hands behind his back and a huge grin that non of the girls had noticed him yet, he crept right up to them, but the girls were so caught up in their play that they never looked up.
"boooo" he yelled . All three girls dropped what they were doing and screamed then ran up to the man that scared them
"daddy" they screamed holding onto him and he dropped what was behind his back and held all three of his daughters tightly.
Louise was the first to let go, she stepped out of the sand box to see what her father had dropped on the floor to find four neat little packages wrapped in brown paper all had a name on.
"Where did you go daddy?" Emma asked clingy onto her father neck as Allison struggled out of the embrace to follow Louise.
"I told you where I went, pea." he replied letting go of her as she joined her sister's "Daddy had to go very far way on a aeroplane, to do lots of hard work, remember" he told them while taking the packages from Louise.
"but where did you go?" Louise looked up at her father.
"I went to a place called London for a couple of weeks. And looked I brought you all presents" he handed each one of the packages he had been holding just as another child came out through the glass doors he was much older than the girls being eleven but at the sight of his father ran to greet him, his father returned the hug wrapping his arms tightly around his only son .
"I've missed you guys so much" he said muffled by the thick brown hair in front of him.
Cameron stared at the ceiling as she remembered her earliest memory of her father and sisters. It had been years since it had kept her awake all night, since she couldn't do anything but think about them.
Remembering what her sisters looked like both with thick dark auburn hair. Louise's hair fell the middle of her back and was always wore down, Emma hair had beautiful soft curls just below her shoulders, Emma looking allot more like Cameron with the blue-green eyes and high cheek bones but was very cheeky and had a cheeky smile to go with it. Louise had dark blue eyes and longer more serious face. They had been her best friends they fought like hell all had very different personalities but they were always together.
After they had gone Cameron remembered crying for weeks, wouldn't sleep unless her mother held her wouldn't eat until she was starving , wouldn't talk unless it was to her brother.
She was angry at herself most of all, it wouldn't have been like this if it wasn't for her.
TBC…
