Hey all who were attracted to my summary and decided to read this story! So... I had a dream last night about pregnancy and certain twilight characters, and, being me, I just had to write about it. So, here it is, Baby Doll, by Master Spy Advenger.


Alice Brandon was one month shy of fifteen years old, and about to do the one thing she never thought she would during her teenage years. She didn't even have the courage to take the pregnancy test at home, she had to do it alone at Wal-mart. She didn't have the courage to do it in her parent's house, the parents who would kill her if they found out that their daughter carried another life inside her. They only saw her as their perfect daughter, the honor-roll student, star soccer player. She wouldn't be able to play soccer any more if she was pregnant, the first time a school team would be playing without her. Try outs for the fall season were next week, and if she really was pregnant, Alice would not be out there. She would not even risk hurting her baby for a sport, and Alice knew first hand how rough varsity soccer could get. Once, a girl kicked her leg during the final minutes of a game, and Alice sprained her wrist when she made contact with the dry California ground at the odd angle she had it at. No way she would be playing when she had another life to look after. Just the thought of being pregnant at fourteen made Alice want to slap herself. How could she mess up like that? What was she thinking?

When she went to the end of the school year party at a classmates house, she was not thinking much. She was looking toward the future of going to high school, summer soccer camp and ready to celebrate a perfect 4.0 GPA that she had worked so hard to get, often staying up all night to study when she had a test the next day. The bright lights and loud music attacked her, and as she rejoyced with seventy odd classmates then end of their middle school life, she only want to have a good time. She didn't drink any thing, she didn't smoke any thing, even though she was offered both. She was not going to mess up her body, she had to keep it in perfect shape. However, she didn't think it would be so bad to lose her virginity to the man she loved that night, and she was sure that she couldn't get pregnant. She had heard that if you were young, it wasn't easy to have a baby. Yeah, right. First time, only once, and now she's probably pregnant. She hadn't told Jasper what she thought, she was horrified that he would break up with her because of it. What high school freshman wanted to be a dad? Alice loved him with all her heart, her best friend since the first grade, and he had told her countless times that he would be there for her until the end of time, but now that she was pregnant, would things change? Alice's heart faltered at that thought.

Alice first thought she might be pregnant at soccer camp, a two month camp in New Mexico that was for serious athletes only. You had to apply in December for the summer program and try out to get in, and of the five hundred odd girls who applied, only fifty-four got in, it was a miracle that Alice got her spot. While there, she ran seven miles, about one mile every nine minutes, and did soccer drills for hours on end with the other girls, and it had been a breeze. She never even thought of that night, except for when she missed Jasper so much that she let her mind wonder off to that corner of her mind. She tried to shove it back, like if she pretended it did not happen, it would go away forever, like the monster she thought lived in her closet when she was a small child. If she didn't focus on the terror within, she could go to sleep just fine.

That was, until her period was late. she brushed it off to her working off all her calories and didn't think much of it. Still... the thought of that night crept into her thoughts, she her stomach did turn overs when she thought she might have gotten pregnant. She didn't hold that thought for long, only a few seconds, before she slapped herself in her mind and told herself there was no way she was having a baby, it was only one time after all! Being pregnant was not some thing that could happen to her, that only happened to girl that slept around and were... older than she was, right?

She was not so smug when she started to throw up in the middle of July, that was when she really started to worry. She was constantly stressed out, and even worse, the ugly red blotches she got along her neck were impossible to cover up in New Mexico, where the daily temperature soared to the triple digits, where she would run around all day, having a good time with the other girls, but working on her skills at the same time. Some people asked if some thing was wrong, and she just told them that camp was getting to her a little. There was no way she would tell some one she thought she was pregnant, Alice knew she probably wasn't, and she would only embarrass herself saying that she thought that was possible.

She started to have dreams about her being pregnant, or holding a baby in her arms. In one dream, Alice was in her family's living room lying on her stomach, wondering how much longer it would be the perfect flat one she had worked so hard to keep that way, and at the same time, worrying that lying on her tummy would hurt her baby in some way. Her mother was on the computer, and said some thing along the lines of 'Issac will be with us by then.' Issac. Alice had thought. She knew her mother was talking about her baby. In another, Alice was in the hospital, holding a perfect little girl in her arms, whom Alice had named Sophie. Alice started to picture herself holding a child in her arms, their tiny heart beating in her stomach... and it was more than she could handle.

When she missed a second period, she was sure she was pregnant, but still told not a soul. Today was her first day back, and she had just bought a pregnancy test at Wal-mart. The person who sold it to her gave Alice a sad look as she watched Alice shove the bag with the test in it into her purse, not wanting any one to see threw the plastic to what she had. Alice turned away angrily. She did not want this stranger's sympathy, that person did not even know her! Alice wished she would stay out of Alice's own private life, but at the same time, she was glad she did not question the object. Alice had plans made out for what she would say if someone asked her if her parents knew, if the test was for her, her mother, a friend. If this was some kind of joke. She was glad to not have to use them.

Alice sat in the bathroom, silent tears running down her cheeks like bullets, imprinting themselves in her flesh, leaving trails of wetness behind them in their wake. Alice didn't make an attempt to wipe them away, she only knew that more would come to take over the job for the ones that were lost. Alice held in her hands the test, one word stamped in the box, one word that would change her life. Pregnant. The little block letters so formal, like the grumpy nurse at the hospital Alice had been in the care of when she slammed her head against the dashboard of a car during a minor car crash. They got the job done, but not in the way you would like. Alice knew she was two months pregnant, in seven months, she would be a mother. A mother. At fifteen. No. Abortion? Never. Adoption? Maybe.

Alice could not put full sentences together in her head, she was too upset to even think. Her parents would kill her, Jasper would dump her. She would be alone, hated, and pregnant when she should be at the top of her game, when her life should be at it's greatest. Now, she had gone and messed every thing up for good. She just had to have sex, she just couldn't go to Planned Parenthood for the morning after pill, she just couldn't say when. When she should be graduating high school, she would have a four year old child. Unless she gave her kid up for adoption. Alice knew that would probably be best, she could take care of a child when she could barely take care of herself! Alice hated herself, she had gotten herself into this mess, Alice had brought this on herself. This was not only her life, but the life of a baby as well! And not just any baby, her baby. Alice had to tell herself over and over again that she was going to have a baby, she didn't want to believe it. This was her worst nightmare come true. And now, unlike at camp, she could not ignore it, pretend she was not carrying an infant inside her. It was real.

After a full hour of crying, Alice stood up and threw the test away in the trash can. May she never see another one for as long as she lived. The little devil, the spawn of hell. Alice turned to the mirror and folded her top over her mid stomach, running her small fingers around where a tiny baby would now be growing. Alice loved this baby, and she hadn't even met him or her yet. Alice wanted to feel him or her move inside her, to have him or her kick at her rib cage. This baby would be a soccer player, just like their mother. She smiled at that thought, the thought that she would soon have a child that looked like her and Jasper mixed together, a genetic and Godly gift to them. If only he had waited a few years to give it to them. If only Alice had not been so cocky that night at the party, if only she had not encouraged what Jasper to do what he did. If only she did do what she had done. The what ifs went on forever, but Alice knew they made no difference now. The only thing that mattered was that Alice was having a baby, and that it was her job to bring him or her safely into the world, her job to take care of them and love them for the rest of her life. Alice hoped she would be able to do that right, and not mess it up like she did every thing else.

Alice left the bathroom, walking differently than she had when she went in. When she went in, she looked like she was on a mission, like she was a spy looking for the information that would save the country, but at the same time, could not get caught. Now, when she walked out, she looked like someone had put weights on her back, and she was forced to carry them all. Her thoughts were racing and her emotions were haywire. Her black hair was messed up, and her hazel eyes her bloodshot. Most people would probably think she was on drugs, she had been in there so long, and came out looking so horrible. Alice didn't care, she just wanted to go home, to try and find out a way she would tell her parents they were going to be grandparents and Jasper he was going to be a father.

When Alice had gone into the store, the sky was clear and blue. When she left, almost black clouds had moved in, and rain was falling from the sky, like Alice's own tears were not enough, the heavens had to cry for her too.