Someone Wake Me Up!
Chapter 1
I try telling myself just a little while longer.
Two years never felt so long.
I have this pain in my chest.
That won't go away no matter.
How hard I pray.
It won't go away
I can feel myself getting weaker.
I could barely stay awake if it wasn't for this pain.
I dream such sweet dreams.
Only because my reality is anything but…what you'd expected it to be.
I'm 16 turning 17 in this strange world of love and hate.
Always been an outcast.
Never fully fit in.
Special to you is a cruse to me.
Don't lie to my face.
It's wrong when you hold me telling me everything will be okay.
Knowing very damn well it never will be.
Amazed as I look up at this star filled sky wondering.
When will it be my turn to be loved?
A question that seems to go unanswered,
As I cry myself to sleep every night holding my pillow tight.
Only to wake up and face those hate filled eyes as I walk into the school's front doors.
Begging and pleading please let this be a dream.
Just someone wake me up from this nightmare that's called my life.
"She's stable, Chief Swan…why don't you go home early. We'll watch her from here."
Taking one last look at his daughter sighing "I guess your right…"
"Why Bells, you were such a happy child. I never imagined that I'd have to come home and find you that way…"
"Dad?" whispered Bella hoarsely as she opened her eyes for the first time in three days.
"Why Bells? Why would you do this? What did happened that so bad to make you want t-to k-kill yourself?"
"I don't know Charlie! Can you take a guess. Well let's see number one reason would be that I'm the most hated person in this school." Her eyes burning into Charlie's as for the first time in the past three months he saw the pain Bella was going through. Ashamed of himself he lowered his eyes to the ground. "I treated better with Phil. Your so dense you did even notice all the signs! No good parent would sit in from of a damn TV while their daughter cries her eyes out! YOU'RE THE WROST FATHER EVER!!! You never accepted me. All you did was deny the fact that I was in love with her. It's your fault she left. She won't even look at me because of what you did."
One year earlier
BPOV
Sitting down in the stadium my mother's eyes were immediately pulled to Phil's. This morning he stated that he had a very special surprise for me and my mother. Renee couldn't get out the door fast enough she was so happy. Sometimes on days like this I was amazed at my mother's child like personality. Phil already told me that today he was going to propose to my mother. I was a little taken back that he would asked me if it was okay, but I was very happy that he consider my feelings.
"Ladies and Gentlemen, before we start this game. We have a special give for a very special woman. Sitting in the first row seat 22," my mother's eyes widen as she realized that it was her seat number. "Young lady would you please come down here." My mother slowly stood and walked down the stairs. "Phil would you come out here and give this special young lady her surprise," Then Phil came out and slowly walked towards my mother, got down on one knee and asked her to marry him. Of course she said yes. Little did she know that two months later Phil's career would sky rocket and he would be moving around a lot. I was so tired of seeing that look in my mother's eyes as she watched Phil get on that plane time and time again.
"Bella, you don't have to go," my mother whispered into my ear as she hugged me.
"Mom, I want to do this. Besides can you imagine how lonely Charlie must be," releasing my mother I slowly walked onto the plane sparing one last look at my mother. Turning I got onto the plane. Sitting on the first class flight to Forks, Washington I could only hope that I would be able to fit in.
