A/n: Hello sweet readers, I got this idea for this story, and I just could not sleep until I actually wrote the story. This story takes place after Hogwarts, and that's all I'm saying now because I don't really know where this story is going and I wouldn't want to give away one of my parts by accident! It starts out with a letter from James to Lily. Read on!

Disclaimer: These characters I'm using in this story at the moment do not belong to me. But most of these catch-phrases you see in the story do, so please don't steal any of it.

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Prologue

Dear my sweet Lily,

How are you? Is your hair still red, and are your eyes till green? Lily, I miss you so much. I miss not being able to see you every day, and my stomach growls unsatisfied even after I've even after I've eaten a meal. I haven't seen you since graduation, and that was nine months ago. I want to see you again so badly, to run my hand through your hair, and to kiss you softly once again.

Spring is upon us once again Lily; there is no doubt about that. The season comes announcing its presence with the splattering of rain and the boom of thunder. And then surprises us with the sun. It's so predictable, but why does it make with jump each time it comes?

The buds of the trees are many, and people think about the fruit that will come from them. The blades of grass are wet with dew each sunrise, and the flowers open their petals to the coming of the morning sun. The days are getting longer and warmer, but each day the sun will set, tinting everything in a gold yellow, a burnt orange and a copper red.

I still remember that sunset when we sat together by the lake. We weren't together then but we were still sitting close enough for someone to presume that we were. We enjoyed the other's company and laughing softly at each others jokes. The gold in the air made your hair orange, and your eyes the amber color.

I saw a boy pulling a girl's hair the other day in the park. I could help but smile and think of us. I used to annoy you to no end and tease you mercilessly. I only used to hate you because I liked you so much but was so stubborn to actually admit it.

What happened to you after graduation? You just seemed to leave. You stopped coming to our little friend meetings. We were all so worried about you. Then you stopped talking to us Lily and that broke my heart.

I know I'm not the perfect person Lily. I make mistakes. But at least I try and fix them Lily. You know, one day all those problems you shove aside, and those emotions you hide away will hit you dead on. Lily, I know that you are not the kind of person that admits things right away, and if you don't tell any one, the only one who will hurt is you.

I know my mature-ness wasn't at the best grade letter while at Hogwarts, but I've changed, you've changed, and the world changes into something more dangerous everyday.

If I could, I want to spend the rest of my lifetime with you. I want to be able to give you warmth on a cold November night, and to wake up to your scent. Lily you are everything to me, to me you are Venus, the air I breathe and the one I care for more than everything I own combined.

Without you I'm lost. Food has lost its taste, the world its color, and the sweet scent of a blood red rose makes my stomach churn. I'm afraid of dying without seeing you again Lily. I would put everything on hold for you, everything.

Perfection isn't real Lily, even though we all strive for it, we all, want it, and work hard to capture it. But Lily, to you perfection seems natural, and your sense of aurora is always right. You seem to be made of steel, and even after all those comments I said to you when I was meaner, you stood strong. You carried on. I admire you, in that way.

The way you carry yourself, so full of pride and confidence make people turn your way. Your beauty comes in so many forms, and your heart is tender for those who you like. The way you can smile and make someone laugh that is in a bad mood is amazing. The way you can show concern for those who don't need it makes people look up to you in admiration.

It's not a simple thing Lily. Love is not. I used to think that my love was only an infuriation that I'd get over soon. But it didn't go away, it never did. As the years passed, my love got stronger without me even noticing. I love you Lily. I'd give you the world if it was mine to give. Is it not enough?

Lily, please, write back to me. You're tearing me apart, piece by piece. And although I seem whole on the outside, my heart is shredded on the inside. Your ignoring me is worse than you hating me and wanting to rip every fiber of my being apart. Lily, you're killing me, and I'm dying a so and painful death that starts in the heart.

Love yours forever,
James Potter

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A/N: That's it, I know its kind of sort, but the chapters will get longer! Review if you want me to continue this story!