The Love for Two Chances

By: LazyHop

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho or any of the characters in the manga/anime.

Summary: I have always felt alone... even when I was alive. No one ever wants me around. Always yelling at me to leave and that they don't need me; that they would be better off without me; that they should have another chance... another chance to live. Yes, I'm the lonesome grim reaper. Who will live an eternity and be alone for an eternity. I've told myself that I accept that, but for some reason the voice in my heart neglects to agree; telling me to yearn for partnership; to yearn for happiness with another. To feel, loved.

Chapter One: The Way Of Ending The First

When I was alive and still a child I grew up in Saint Mary's orphanage. Never knowing my parents because I was simply too young. What I heard from the nuns' gossip about my parents was that they were afraid of me. It was unnatural for a child to be born with blue hair and pink eyes. And that my parents were probably afraid that it was the works of the devil so they dropped me off at the orphanage. Being young and naive I actually listened to their words and believed them. I truly believed that I was the devil's child and that I was a sinner no matter what.

The other children in the orphanage soon started to call me the devil's child. Always hurting me emotionally but never physically, no never physically because that would be a sin that god could 'actually' see. Eventually, the sisters of the orphanage started to have that look of hate in their eyes. Even though they never acted on it I could tell that it was there. I lost all confidence in myself and one day completely stopped speaking, never looking people in the eyes, and always holding my head down. I felt so alone. Until the day I found her, my first friend.

She was small, skinny to almost the point of death, and had the most beautiful hair I had ever seen. She never talked and never looked at anyone. She was almost exactly like me. Except for one thing, she wasn't human. She was a kitten. A blind, mute, and skinny kitten. I found her outside close to the ditch where I frequently sat. I took her in and was actually aloud to keep her, just as long as I left her outside and never brought her inside. I was so happy that I cried tears! I got everything for her. A cardboard house, two small bowls, even a collar made out of a blue ribbon. And I named her Nya. She was the first thing I ever loved.

I nursed her back to full health and took care of her. I spent hours just playing with her. Then, one day after the other children learned of Nya, they took her from me and threw her over the fence of the orphanage. When she landed she took off running, being blind she didn't know where she was going and never returned to me. I cried and cried while they told me that even the cat knew that I was the devil's child.

Eventually, they went in when it began to rain but I refused and continued to cry. I soon found myself trying to climb the fence to reach the only thing I loved. In some miracle I found myself on the top of the fence and struggling to reach the ground. As soon as I hit the ground I took off searching for Nya. Calling out her name and frantically looking for her. I was going to find her, I had to find her. She was the only thing that mattered to me.

I was to never see Nya alive again I suppose, because when I reached the end of the block I continued running not noticing the red light to the street nor the car that was driving. I ran out into the road with the belief that I was the devils child, feelings of always being alone, and the sorrows of a child who never felt wanted. And on that day I met my death in the form of sorrow, pain, and the longing to be wanted.

On that day I became what I was always destined to be...

The Grim Reaper

End of Chapter One

Chapter theme song:

Song: One Rainy Day
Artist
Godsmack
Album:
IV

Well there it is. I know it's not much but it's just a preview to the actual story; to see if anybody actually wants me to continue. In other words I want you to review! Tell me if it sucks, if it's good, if there are any spelling mistakes! (I'm a terrible speller)

Also, if you haven't guessed it for some unknown reason the narrator is Botan.

Please tell me if I should continue!