I Watched
by: Aika-chan
I watched as she lived.
I watched as she went on, growing from the child I met to a beautiful woman.
I watched as she pinned away for me.
I watched as she touched and loved everything that reminded her of me.
I watched as she stopped in the middle of nowhere just to hear the winds.
I watched as she grew and her dreams faded, as she last looked at the sky, waiting.
I watched the first night she started to cry.
I watched as she grieved, still waiting for me.
If once there was a child, There now stands a woman Living on and beyond, I wonder why she cries. I watched... I watched as her tears stopped. I watched as she gazed silently in the depths of any water. I watched as she gazed and sook answers. I watched as her parents worried over her. I watched as she dreamed of me. I watched as she lost her friends. I watched as she gave her last smile. I've never seen such a beautiful person But I knew what she felt, The mark of pure and true love Was upon such a lost child-- No, such a grown woman. I watched as she never forgot me. I watched as her parents made her marry. I watched as she prepared herself to the day. I watched as the maids helped her. I watched as she gazed silently into a mirror, into a broken reflection. I watched as she walked away, to someone she did not love. I watched as people cried from happiness. I watched as she gave up her first kiss. Feelings are always fleeting, Wondering quietly if we ever felt them... Do you know why people long to them? Because they do not have constant proof... I watched as they were 'bound' to each other. I watched as she looked on, seeing nothing in her path. I watched as she longed for something other than she had. I watched as she immersed herself in 'legends'. I watched as she retold her story. I watched as the children believed her. I watched as the adults thought it a silly bed-story. I watched as she gave up her virginity. The losses make us sad, And yet, we live on. Have you ever felt physical pain? Have you ever felt emotional pain? I watched as she had a child. I watched as she took care and loved them. I watched as she longed for me. I watched as she gave birth to a different child. I watched as people thought her cheating. I watched as she just smiled sadly. I watched as she cared for her children. I watched as she smiled at my "gift". I knew things needed to be done, and yet... I did not wish to do it. I wanted to heal her, go to her. I did not wish to finish it. I watched as she cried once again. I watched as she was shunned by those who 'loved' her. I watched as they hurt her. I watched as she took it all. I watched as she sunk deeper into herself. I watched as she sunk into darkness. I watched as she bid her children good-bye. And I watched as she killed herself. Even though I had not wanted it, It was already done. That was the will I had heard long ago. And that was the will I had to do.
