Blue Study
A little Bryan song-fic I thought up. Before, after and during his battle with Ray. Probably rather OOC. Rated T for naughty words... Bad Corey! Song-fic to Blue Study by Stone Sour.
Blue Study
Somewhere between my tongue and cheek
Boris grabbed my head between his hands. I can't fight him, I would only lose.
I can feel the hands on me
They make me scared. I don't like fear.
Pulls me in so we are face to face
He's so close now, I can feel him breathing on me. Face to face, down on one knee.
I don't wanna see it...I don't wanna see
He's gone now. I lean against the wall. Compose my face and thoughts.
Hold my head up, can't avert my eyes
I must win this battle. I can't lose sight of the trophy. Or the price.
Spots and rats on me, I don't wanna see
The price I will pay. If I don't win.
Claw the ground up, get me out of this
My mind is there now, screaming to let me out.
Never wanted this - NEVER NEEDED THIS!
What horrors wait for me if I don't suceed?
And you left me and I left you
Left to face the music.
And you left me / and I left you, too
Concentrate Bryan. CONCENTRATE.
Chair is stained and I can't stay awake
Oh god. Help me. He's staring at me. Can he see right through me?
Bring forth evidence to keep me sane
Why am I doing this? Yet, even as I order Falborg into another attack, I know why.
I can't keep this riddle locked inside
I can't keep it locked inside. But I am. So hurting someone else... It's the only thing I can do.
Seven ways to keep my secrets tied
Torture. Brutality. And other things I won't - can't - mention.
Can't believe this, I belong in chains
What did I do? WHAT DID I DO?
Separated, it was me and something else
That wasn't just me out there. It was me and Biovolt.
Now I'm numbing, get me out of this
Who am I kidding? That was me. I am a monster.
Never wanted this - NEVER NEEDED THIS!
Do I even have a choice? Am I that bad?
And you left me and I left you
No team to stand by me.
And you left me oh, but then I left you and:
What can I expect? I didn't stand by them.
And you left me and I left you
Tala is in the cell next to me. I could reach out. See if he was ok.
And you left me and I left you, too
But I know I can't. I don't have the strength.
Arms stretched out, giving thanks to pain
Jagged breaths remind me I'm human.
Spotlight looking down, I'm ashamed
Everybody hates me. Can I really be surprised? After what I did?
Kneeling with my forehead to the ground
No one will look us in the eye. Not even Kai.
I can't help but flinch before I'm found
Yet we flinch from touch and curious glares as though they were poison.
I DON'T NEED YOU! Can't you see behind?
But we'll be fine on our own.
Doesn't matter now - DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE!
Nothing matters anymore.
Maybe made me, get me out of this
Yet, in my dreams, I scream for help.
Never wanted this - NEVER NEEDED THIS!
I scream as I watch them staring at me.
And you left me and I left you
More arguments. Everyday, there's more yelling.
And you left me and motherfucker, then I left you and...
On and on and on and on... It's enough to make a sane guy scream.
And you left me and I left you
But we're not sane. I'm not sane.
And you left me and I left you, too
Day after day, people argue over our souls.
SAFE! I JUST WANT TO BE SAFE!
Yet they never ask us.
SAFE! I JUST - WANT TO - BE SAFE!
We just want to get it through their thick skulls.
SAFE! DON'T YOU WANT TO BE SAFE?
Things could change. Yeah, sure, sparky.
SAFE! WHY CAN'T YOU LET ME BE - SAFE?
That's how I live and that's how I die. Alone.
Good god! That was a load of rubbish! But hey, I had to get it out of my system!
