I stood very quietly in the graveyard, didn't make a sound just stood there with tears in my eyes. Both my mom and dad have died and now I have nobody. Edward and his family left for unknown reasons. All my friends have bailed on me. Phil doesn't help cause I don't like him. Jacob and his dad moved to Wala Wala Washington so I barely see them anymore either. Ever since Edward left my life it has been getting worse by the minute and I believe that it's going to get much worse.
Everyday when I go to school it's always the same, have class, eat lunch alone, then finsh the rest of my classes. No one ever talks to me anymore, no one even looks at me, it's like I'm not even there anymore. On the occasion Angela will look at me and smile but that's it. When I got home I have this pain in my chest and stomach I've been getting for a while now but never told anyone. But I decided to go to the hospital just to see what it is. When I got to the hospital the doctor just started running tests, and asked me a whole bunch of questions. It was really boring. I was there for 2 hours then the doctor finally came back and said he had some really bad news.
"Isabella Swan" he said. "I have some very bad news for you". I wasn't really surprised I was getting used to bad news but I was still really nervous anyway. "Bella I'm really sorry to tell you but you have lung cancer". I was silent I couldn't speak, I couldn't hear, I could barely even breathe. "Wha a t di i i d s aaa y" I studdered. "You have lung cancer and the chances of the surgeries working or chemo it very slim. Now I knew I couldn't breathe I couldn't believe what he was saying. "Bella if you can breathe you can go and we'd like to see you in 2 weeks please". "Ooo kkkk" I studdered again. "Bye".
When I got home I went straight up to my room slamed the door. I was so mad and sad at the same I needed to scream, yell, pull my hair, break something. I didn't though I sat on floor just crying not knowing what to. The person I really need is Edward to hug me and tell me that everything is going to be ok and that your not going to die and comfort me and help me get through this and... I stopped thinking I couldn't think anymore I couldn't breathe anymore I didn't want to live life anymore because life's just to painful. I don't know why we have a life sure there's happy moments but for most of it it's sad and painful and hurtful but good at the same time. I guess I'm just going to have to deal with cancer by myself.
