This would be the edgiest Kung Fu Panda fic ever. It so awesome to see, but by the time you read this, you'll scream OMG! Snap, that rhymed. Well, anyways, enjoy!

--A.F. '91


Feeling Not Good Enough

by: Terrell James

Chapter 1: Depression

Po sat down on his bed, looking troubled and depressed, thinking that his dad thinks he's not good enough on being the Dragon Warrior, because he stills wants him to take over the restaurant and get rid of being the Dragon Warrior. There's a part of him that's still tearing up inside of him that maybe he lost faith in being the Dragon Warrior based on what his father thinks.

For the last 5 1/2 days, Po has been in his room feeling sad and angry inside of him. This wasn't like him being depressed and angry. He's usually energetic, happy and funny around his friends and on his own. Based on his father's hope for taking over the restaurant, Po felt as if he doesn't want to be the Dragon Warrior anymore.

He shed one tear on his eyes, feeling so hurt and destroyed inside like everything his father thought was a lie. He hung his head down low and walked around the room and then laid down on the floor, sighing and groaning.

Then, came a knock on the door and a voice came out, "Are you okay?"

There was no answer. The door opens and in comes Crane, looking concerned. He puts his wing on Po's shoulder and asked, "What's wrong?"

Po sat up and said, "I don't know, Crane. Do you think Oogway made a mistake on me being the Dragon Warrior?"

"No, of course not. Well, yeah, at first, but now, after you defeated Tai Lung, he didn't make a mistake on that." said Crane.

"I know. Sometimes, it feels as if I'm not good enough."

Crane was shocked when he heard those words that Po said. He said, "Of course you're good enough. We all know you're good enough and we believe that."

Po sighs and said, "Sometimes, I don't know what to do."

"I'm not sure what I can tell you, but I hope you're okay. And by the way, don't tell yourself you're not good enough, because you are." said Crane.

He walked out of the door and Po felt so angry and sad inside of him, that he just want to do something to himself. He played his iPod and sung along to it, feeling so gloomy.

I open my eyes

I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light

I can't remember how

I can't remember why

I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain

And I can't make it go away

And I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got nowhere to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming

I try to make a sound, but no one hears me

I'm slipping off the edge

I'm hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can't explain what happened

And I can't erase the things that I've done

No I can't

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I've got nowhere to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Po starts to think that he felt as if he's not needed and feels as if everyone would feel a lot better if he's not around anymore. SO he starts writing a note that basically made sense and let out some thoughts, suicidal thoughts as he finished singing the song.

I made my mistakes

Got nowhere to run

The night goes on

As I'm fading away

I'm sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

As he wrote his suicidal note, a few tears fell down on the letter and after writing it, Po curled himself up in a little ball and starts to cry. He looked up and thought of ways of himself and that nobody would care. So, he went out of his room with a few items in a bag and took off the Jade Palace without another word.

Later on, Mantis and Crane walked to Po's room to check on him. They knocked on the door and there was no answer. Totally silent. They were starting to get worried and they came in the door and sees an empty room. Mantis asked, "Where is he?"

"I don't know. He should be around here somewhere." said Crane.

Mantis looked around his bed and sees Po's note lying on the floor. Crane looked at the note and asked, "Where did you find this?"

"It was on his bed while I was looking around." said Mantis.

"What does it say?" he asked.

Mantis looked at the note and read, "Guys, I feel as if I'm not good enough being the Dragon Warrior. Because of that, I don't want to disappoint my dad because he wants me to take over his noodle restaurant and give up being the Dragon Warrior. Sometimes, I think he thinks I'm not good enough and it really depresses me based on our talk last week. I felt like I let you guys down, I let myself down, but I let my father down and I feeling that way. So, it's better if no one knows I'm still here. Later on tonight, don't bother trying to find me, because you'll see me hanging on a rope, unconscious. If you didn't know, I'm thinking about so everyone will be better off without me. I hope you still remember me. Hope everything is fine without me in your lives, but know that you guys are like my family and I really love having you around. Po."

Mantis and Crane were severly shocked after reading the note. They both started screaming and just completely lost it.

Crane panted furiously and asked, "Why would Po do that?"

"I don't know! This is completely the worst-case scenario we've come across." said Mantis.

"What's going on here?" asked Shifu, along with Monkey, Tigress and Viper.

"We could hear you scream while we came in." said Tigress.

"Something's wrong, isn't it?" asked Monkey.

"Where's Po?" asked Viper.

Mantis gave Shifu the note Po written and as he read it, Viper, Monkey and Tigress were looking at it, and they were all in shock. Shifu dropped the letter on the floor and said, "Po's gonna !"

"Duh!" Mantis and Crane exclaimed.

"Why would he do that?" asked Viper.

"Something about his father and that he feels as if he's not good enough to be the Dragon Warrior and that he won't disappoint him." said Mantis.

"We've got to stop him!" exclaimed Shifu.

"We don't even know where he is." said Crane.

"Who knows the way to Mr. Ping's place?" asked Viper.

"We all go there, Viper." said Tigress.

"Whatever! Let's go find him!"

They all sprinted out of the Jade Palace to find Mr. Ping's restaurant. When they got there, Mr. Ping was about to close the place, unaware that it's an urgent message.

Mr. Ping saw them coming in and they looked deeply concerned. He asked, "What's wrong?"

They all tried to catch their breath and Shifu said, "We've got a problem."

"We found this in Po's room in the palace and it's completely shocking." said Mantis.

Mantis gave the note to Mr. Ping and he read the whole note and ended up shaking. Then, Shifu said, "This may not be easy for a father to hear, but Po's gonna ."

Mr. Ping, trying to breathe, tried to hold himself together and said, "I can't believe Po would do something like this!"

"Even we don't believe it." said Viper.

"Where is he?" asked Mr. Ping.

"We have no idea."

"We got to talk him out of this, immediately!" exclaimed Viper.


That song was "Untitled (How Could This Happen to Me)" from Simple Plan. Hope my new KFP fanfic is interesting with a suicidal edge.